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oh a bit of update!

this post is about journey to happiness not only being always about up up up! sometimes we are all have moments of stress sickness and wild life things

and! it's important to say that being in mental hospital is. okay!

i am in one right now! and i feel myself so much better going here!

i was overstressed, shedule sleep ruined. i thought like maybeeeee i can be fine laying a bit in bed but! no! i felt that i can not be back on road by my own

and it was very scary to decide to go to mental hospital but!!! with people, my followers especially on internet, support, i decided to go and. i am resting, my sleep improved in just few days, i feel much much better even it is like, what, a week.

my biggest thing was feeling of i was "a looser" who lost it and in mental hospital again. i was not in for so long! years of recovery! but i just want you to know that, it's okay. you can't loose or win here it's not a game. it's just health and sometimes people need care. or all the time. it's okay!

you are not weak for asking medical help! especially mental health condition care needs. you are cool! and, people who care about internet strangers telling them words of support - you are cool too. irl friends and close ones supporting people who need care - you are cool too

Love is most epic thing on earth! So, Love Love Love!

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Okay I’m currently furious that migraines are often so blindly easy to treat and I had to find this out myself at the age of 26 when I’ve been to a neurologist since I was 11 lol so I’m about to teach you two neat and fast little tricks to deal with pain!

The first is the sternocleidomastoid muscle, or the SCM muscle.

This big red section is responsible for pain around the eye, cheekbone, and jaw, as well as some temple pain. Literally all you have to do is angle your head down a little, angle it away from the side that hurts, and then you can gently pinch and rub that muscle. I find it best to start at the bottom and travel upwards. The relief is so immediate! You can increase pressure as you feel comfortable doing so.

Here is a short and easy video showing this in action

The second is a fast and easy stretch that soothes your vagus nerve, which is the nerve responsible for calming you down. The vagus nerve, for those unfamiliar, is stimulated by deep breathing such as yawning, sighing, singing, or taking a deep breath to calm your anger in a tense situation.

You can stretch this out by sitting up as straight as possible (this does not have to be perfect to work) and interlacing your fingers. Put your hands on the back of your head with your thumbs going down the sides of your neck and, while keeping your face forward, look all the way to one side with just your eyes. Hold that until you feel the urge to breathe deeply or yawn, or until you can tell there’s a change. Then do the same thing on the other side. When you put your arms down, you should clearly be able to turn your head farther in both directions. If the first session doesn’t get rid of your migraine, rest and repeat as many times as necessary. I even get a little fancy with it and roll my eyes up and down along the outer edge sometimes to stretch as much as I can.

If you need a visual here’s a good video on it. I know some of the language they use seems questionable but this is real and simple science and should not be discarded because it’s been adopted by the trendy wellness crowd!

I seriously cannot believe I didn’t hear a word of this from any doctor in my life. Additionally, if you get frequent recurring migraines, you may want to see a dietician. Migraines can be caused by foods containing histamines, lectin, etc. and can also be caused by high blood pressure in specific situations such as exercise, stress, and even sex.

If any of this information helps you I’d love to hear it btw! It’s so so fast and easy to do. Good luck!

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Long time no post! But actually life is going!

Still doing great at cooking skill improving! Here is MEETBALLS SOUP! And first new salad i tried to make!

Salad is half improvisation by the way, i wanted to eat beans so googled some salad receipts and did mine

another food thing is that i

visited macdonalds! it sounds strange to add in life achievment, but it has context (i have memory assotiation for this one)

alsk WATERFALL!!!

why did people invent capitalism if we had THIS entire time!

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another masterpiece of my cooking!!! i am still amazed how cool i am at this skill learning. Can't wait to bake something!

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Thing that keeps me going!

you can't imagine how "1. good food 2. good sleep 3. body care" senshi rules from dungeon meshi improved my life

like. then i am laying in bed till middle of the day sometimes only thing which waking me up is "it's not good sleep" thought. and it was countless times then i went to sleep looking on time seeing it's late and thinking "oh! need good sleep! well, late already, but at least i need to stop making it worse and go now!"

i am trying my best to eat and make up solutions from 0 budget if i have no money, but if i have, oh boi, i can do magic

i am not great at body care but often "did i do bodycare part?" motivates me to go to the bathroom

often before day over i check this 3 rules and think, how did i do. did i sleep good? did i eat good? did i do some bodycare like bath and teath brushing. and if not, i can do some missing part or noticing this

and most importantly if i feel bad - i check these 3 and usually i find reason of bad state in not doing something from these rules. being hungry, broken sleep schedule or not breathing fresh air, for example

i mean. just wow. who could knew that art can do that, can we have more inspiring things like this

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I COOKED ALL THIS

AT ONE EVENING

IN THREE AND HALF HOURS. YES I WAS MAKING IT ALL THAT AT SAME TIME.

AND WASHED DISHES IN BETWEEN

AND I WENT FOR MOST INGRIDIENTS TO THE SHOP

AND GOT STREAM WATER (there are places in town i live with it everywhere) IN BOTTLE ON WAY

IT'S:

1) chicken meat (WHICH WAS FROZEN AND I PREPARED IT, RESTING WHILE IT UNFROZING) with cheese souce(MADE BY ME. ALL SOUSES HERE MADE BY ME). BACKED IN OVEN

2) BOILED MASHED POTATO

3) TOMATOES WITH GARLIC SOUCE

4) AND MAC&CHEESE, SOUCE STILL BY ME

well and cup of tea with tons of sugar

YOU HEAR IT FROM A PERSON WHO FIRST PUSHED ON "START" BUTTON OF WASHING MASHINE BY HIMSELF IN 26 YEARS OLD (WHICH IS STILL, WILL BE 27 AT 7 JULY 2024)

I'M UNSTOPPABAAAL

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#happywins

my recent victories:

- bought thing for sponges holder with holes so it will be no dirty water there

- DID MY FIRST MEAT DISH FROM THE STEP OF RAW MEAT and TRIED OVEN IN FIRST TIME !!!! not like microwaving or heat on pan, like!!! aaa!!!! it was my first time and neighbors went super happy and said it was super tasty (i eat too and IT WAS!!! AAA).

it was very risky because meat and cheese prices are very high and i was very afraid of it burning it but! everything went great!

(btw, i lost same amount of money on buying bra earlier this day. i took all the measures but still got too small 😂 but whatever! happy life is about range :3)

- also did some cleaning!

happy happy happy ^U^

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I made cheese pirozhki for me and my neighbors, funny dough cook rat (my name is Kris, which is similar to "rat" in my first language, and i love cheese. my cooking signature now), and made little poem about it to light up neighbors mood i am so unstoppable

poem translation:

for your life to be good

eat my cheesy food

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this track of mine has very positive vibes :3 so, reblog!

Music sketch for a smile stretch

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[copy text below from my instagram because i don't have resource to write new one 😅 night before day on photo i slept so bad i had hallucination, and night after also slept not very well. but the day on photo was great, and day after is my total chill time - i am laying in bed and relaxing. saying this, to show that happy life is not endless euphoria, happy life is about range! 😊]

I GOT FLOWERS?? LIKE?? I WAS NEVER RECEIVING FLOWERS I DON'T EVEN KNOW HOW TO TALK ABOUT IT IN ENG

i mean??? i just said to that guy that i have flowers mood and in my blooming era and mentioned about nobody never giving me flowers and??? he bought me whole bouquet then we met???? 😭😭😭 i'm so happy...

and no i am not normiss doppelganger, i just recovering from depression and experiencing new feelings and mood!!! i am in my blooming era so i have a mood for smth nice cute and relaxing, like bathing or flowers!!! i am so happy!!!

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one of things i learned from recovery - bad days or fails is okay!

it's actually even big good sign, if you can tell difference in feeling bad and good! and having range of it! i will explain!

my psychologist told me once, that it's okay then brain start giving you things to process in the therapy process. it can feels like "god, my problems never ending!" at first, but the thing is -

then you are healing and getting more recourses (like, energy) - brain start to give you things to process, which it hided in survive mod. same with physical organism!

then i started feeling better, one of my first new feeling was feeling tired. i thought about it and i realized it feels different actually.

i really felt tired, but it was good, because i just experienced feeling not-tired (relaxed, joyful, happy) and now i know the difference. before that my life was just one gray mash and i felt mostly just sad. now i feel not only polar things (tired-relaxed, angry-kind) but range of it - i can feel a little bit tired, very tired, i can feel normal or very happy or just fine, etc

my smell sense came back, so i can smell unpleasant smells but i finally have motivation to go to shower now! or, i got kind of allergy on face - but i know it's because i started eating good tasty food with spices too suddenly, and i just will slow my food spicing boost a little. today my food burned for first time - well, i learned a lesson that adding a lot of oil in previous times was good strategy!

so yeah, it's okay to have little sad things. sad things happen in healthy life, happy life is not happy-happy all the time, the happiness is about range!

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THINGS JUST NOT STOP HAPPENING, WHA-!!

i was at a party and new friend told me about WATERFALL BEING NEAR BY and i randomly asked where else they been here and they be like well tomorrow we are going to hiking, and i was be like lol can i join???

me!!! i am just started used to stairs and walking on streets! but i ride the rush!

and friend be like yeah sure!!!

SO. WELL!!!

MY FIRST HIKING???

for the context: my previous win was to go up on stair and staying for the rest only on half of it (not on every step for 10 minutes as before!!!). and today i was hiking on MOUNTAINS!!!

i asked the friend specifically if we will go up, and they said no, only down (we went back by car) so it was great for me, because up is too hard for me still! but even going down was a challenge!!!

and i did it!! it became much easier then i found perfect stick, i think i will need to buy some special inventory and not be so hoping on nature giving! i was so cool, the group went all forward and we had to stop for me only once!!! i was behind but!!! i was near by! it's so cool, i usually all behind and stoping people at usual walks on streets!!!

i am feeling like i was on top of the everest today!

a little bit more context: i usually spent my days in flat rarely going into streets, and i didn't like nature, even hated it. I was born in 1997 in small village, so it was just same forest and lakes around for 17 years, with no interesting places or things to do or even buy (we didn't even had a book store). internet came late, only in my 11 years, and still, things like local amazon or fandom toys came much much later, then i leaved this place. so nature became for me association of something boring and negative. then i moved into town, i became full-city-lover guy. i didn't understand why people like to just walk on streets with no goal, or having beautiful view from window. i thought like "view from window? why to care? why do you even look there." or "your first impression about new country is parks? dude, can we switch, you go to that village in the middle of the forest and i go to your place and i will find much more fun things than trees. c'mon man, anything is more fun than trees which were surrounded me for 17 years"

but turned out, if you have great company of friends, and you decide then to go for nature and then to leave it, and it's beautiful and absolutely doesn't looks like something you was trapped in for years - it's very fun and inspirational!!!

oh, it's not a win it's whole VICTORY!

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today win is WILD!

i always hated to do dust-cleaning, i always didn't see the point of it. i've never felt better after it and i just thought about it as unnecessary making-you-tired-thing. i lived not cleaning dust for years and it didn't bother me.

but place i moved inis so dusty! so it was literally hard to breath! and one day i decided to clean my room!

and i did it! but today win isn't even about that!!!

today i cleaned dust ON THE TOP OF KITCHEN SET! i mean that shelves on kitchen walls with ingredients and food!

it means that it wasn't only dusty - it was OILY-DUSTY! so i had to like, push my hand to get rid of it!

and!! i also cleaned fridge!

a OH it actually started with me suddenly deciding to clean that thing on top of the oven which is taking away air (?? i was so came-fried egg-leaved kitchen user that i even don't know eng words for kitchen things XD) and it was super oily too and i just rushed and went for Big Clean XD

So yeah!!!! HUGE win!

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another positivity post!

i said i will not post off top untill new art post because it's originally my art blog bla bla bla but!!! BUT!!!

I AM 26 AND IT'S FIRST TIME I MADE THIS DISH!! and it's my first complicated dish, which i didn't know the pipeline and cooked by recipe!

IT'S SMTH LIKE PANCAKES FROM PLACE I WAS BORN AND it always seemed to me like smth from adult cooking!!! like i've maybe did the flip part at childhood but never the dough! and today i woke up early in the morning and it was raining and it was so cozy and i just decided to try and!!!! i did it!!! and it didn't even took the whole day, i am usually waking up at time atm, but look at me, seating and eating this!!!

i can't belive it, i am!!! adult!!! who is curing from depression!!!

best morning ever!!!

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if you want a little bit of hope and positivity:

today i did my first laundry all by myself. i am 26

today i went for a shower. and yesterday i did it too. going to shower was a thing i was skipping for months.

i also bought myself new, clean clothes. two shirts for home. i've never had home-clothes, went on street one i wear at home and in bed. in childhood i could sleep in jeans. under blanket. and i lived in a place with a lot of dirty snow.

few days ago i said in conversation with friends, that i want to be fat and want eat more to keep myself "fat and juicy". i had anorexia all my teen years

i've never thought i will have like. life. feel simple joy of life. it's not a post with advices, i didn't figure out how to describe my path to this, in this post i just want to show that Things Go Better can happen. it's easy to forget it at our times.

just feeling good and. wanted to share

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Hello! :3

I decided to make this blog to share Positivity, Hope and my Wins at becoming a person with good great happy life ^U^

After i posted some of these in my main blog (about doing first complete laundry in 26 and making first pancakes by myself) people gave me so much of positive feedback and said it is giving them hope so! I couldn't resist and made this blog to share Love and Warmth and Hope with You all!

I think we really need some positivity at these times! So! Come here and get a little happy time ^U^

(I am NWarrior777 btw and yeah this is my sideblog :D)