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[blood1red1roses]

shed my tears

you try to shed my own tears,

you try to push my demons away.

you hold them back, slay them for me,

but it does me good only halfway.

you cage my eyes, don’t want me to hurt,

and your heart aches from my pain.

and of course, my grief, i try to divert,

so that to you, i may look sane.

you fail to realise, and so do i,

that those tears carry great misery.

those tears are my way of vacating them by,

morning, when i suffer again inwardly.

and alas, when you shed my own tears, 

you don’t push my demons away.

you puncture your own heart and eyes,

and to release my woe, i don’t find a way.

my wounded heart, my wounded eyes,

have little chance of succour.

i beg to you to go and fly,

don’t damage your heart, it’s pure.

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chained by you

let me stand, let me run,

oh, why do you chain my ankles?

why do you paralyse me?

reduce me to just a cripple?

let me escape my monsters,

i have things to run from,

i have people to see, melodies to hear,

yet i am caged by you, in a humdrum.

i am in shackles, i am in chains,

you even restrained my veins.

how am i to breathe, beloved?

when you have made me your slave?

i cannot repeat this over and over,

i am tired of this mundane pattern.

you never release me, you hold me back,

and yet, to defy you, i must learn.

let me go, let me run,

do not bind me to a chair.

you know i have heights to achieve,

and you just want to take that away.

should i just stay with you all my life,

or may i please only sojourn?

protect you, i must, for you are brittle,

but how can i, beloved, when now i am burnt?

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rage and sorrow

she didn't hurt them.

oh, no. she wouldn't do that. she couldn't do that.

too weak.

her eyes served as a waterfall for years.

they laughed at her streams.

you are weak weak weak weak weak.

they called her worthless. they called her frail. they called her weak.

and she just could not hold back.

this time would be different.

this time, they wouldn't laugh at her tears.

once again, her eyes watered, threatening to spill over.

but this time, they were not tears of shame or sorrow.

they were tears of pure, raw rage.

her tears touched the earth.

her tears broke the earth.

she did not attempt holding back her rivers of fury.

still weak.

saline from both of her sapphires joined together to form a single river.

a river that slowly emptied its salt water into the pit in the earth she just opened.

a waterfall that eroded the earth causing damage that would forever stain.

when she could cry no more, when her fury was spent, her rage was deep inside the earth,

she laughed.

she laughed at those same faces.

weak.

she laughed at those same faces that laughed at her tears.

weak.

but now, those tears were the cause of their destruction.

weak.

she didn't hurt them.

oh, no.

she destroyed them.

and then sorrow spilled again.

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tear it apart

her hair swept on her shoulder with a billow

her face the sunrise to onlookers

she rambles on and on; head thrown back

to just a mimosa, her silent confidant.

streams of saline meander across

her cheeks flush with emotion

a moment once beautiful, long gone

simply a wistful memory- delusional.

they were truant- her companions

so she built her empty mansion alone

brick by brick, stone by stone

and then tore it all apart, the joy died

with only a mimosa by her side.

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hold me, nyx

oh nyx, put me to sleep

please hold on to me dearly.

i do not have anything to see, anything to hear

all i want are my dreams.

i do not have places to be, people to see

all i want is sleep.

oh hemera, let me go

let me live in something spurious.

i am tired of reality grasping me

not leaving my wrist.

now i am something of both

but all i want is to be an illusionist.

oh hades, take me away

cage me in one of your chambers.

hide me from hemera

please take me to nyx

all i want is to rest.

be the victor, bring the night

so that the darkness feels heavy

on my eyes that want to see

nothing but my dreams.

oh nyx, put me to sleep

please hold on to me dearly.

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begone, begonia

dear begonia, i knew you would come

i knew you’d come and embrace me.

your green leaves with yellow streaks

your thin roots that swam around in me.

without flowers, you were still beautiful,

my one true, as you sat by my side.

you drew me closely into your roots,

just so you could sustain and survive.

you didn’t love me the way i did you,

you had not much to offer to me.

you tried to clutch, to grasp, to anchor,

to something as vain as me.

i grew old, i grew dirty,

you needed someone new.

although my love was still deep,

i had nothing more to offer you.

begone, begonia, i know you want to,

you want to venture, live and grow.

now i hold you back, your grasp loosens,

leave me, embrace me no more.