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“I… I guess I’m just built different… heh…” oh my god shut the fuck up those were real people no one gives a fuck if you’re desensitized

You seem to give a shit🤷🏻‍♀️ And just because it doesn't get to me (could be from my experience of gutting a deer. One time I had to do that after it was sh0t in the stomach - smells horrible), doesn't mean that I don't have some form of empathy for the victims. I do. It just doesn't rattle me or keep me up at night. The things that do keep me up at night are unanswered questions. Like with the Bryce Laspisa case. He just up & vanished. Dogs followed a scent trail from the site of his vehicle that was in a single car crash. The trail led up the road to an intersection and then the trail was gone. I think he's still alive. But, there aren't any answers. He's still missing. That's the stuff that bothers me.

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Interviews w/ Paras

Hey y'all so I've posted about this previously, see the pinned post on my blog, but I am looking to talk with/ interview people with different paras. I love psychology and understanding the intricacy of the human brain & it's correlation with human behavior. This is all a personal-professional curiosity. I'm not a therapist or psychologist or psychiatrist. Just a curious person. So if you're open to talking to me, message me or send an ask! And as always, MDNI!!! 🔞🔞🔞

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Is it just me or does hearing the horrific details of a true crime case, even seeing the bloody crime scene, not have an emotional or mental impact on anyone else? Like I hear people say something about 'the case/story gives them chills' or that they 'can't listen to certain details...' I'm not sure why but it just doesn't get to me like that.. I guess I'm just built differently. Is anyone else or am I the weirdo/odd one out in this??

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Favorite Memory😈

Me & my bf went to a frisbee golf course late at night. We walked down to where the small area of woods began. He had me stand in front of a tree and take my pants off. Then, he wrapped my head in duct tape and had me put my hands behind my back. He proceeded to handcuff me and wrap my upper arms in duct tape.

He tied a piece of rope to the handcuffs, and threw the other end of the rope over a tree branch. He then pulled on the rope so that I would bend forward until my arms were pointed directly up at the sky. He secured the rope to keep me like that, then spanked me until I bled, before he got down on his knees and ate me out.

After he made me cvm a bunch of times with his mouth, he untied the rope that was attached to the handcuffs and threw me down on the ground. He then fvcked me viciously while the handcuffs kept cutting into my skin until we both finished. Yep. That's definitely my favorite memory🤤

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Curious to know if any other pix like this on goreblr? Crime scene shit like this pic are wild & I'm fvcked up like the rest of ya w/ my slight obsession for true crime. So uh yeah.. lmk cause ya girl got a serious case of morbid curiosity🚬😮‍💨🔪📸👀🤷🏻‍♀️

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Hello there! Recently, I created a new blog. It's my primary blog & this is a secondary blog. My primary one is where I will post my writings, novels, poetry, & excerpts. Here is where I post my kinky dark thoughts & just other gore-tastic things.

I decided to explore the darker corners of Tumblr because I am obsessed with psychology and how the mind works. I'm an intellectual who loves knowledge and learning. So, I do encourage any adults, 18+ ONLY MDNI, with paraphilias to interact with me (including the big 3). You can DM me if you so choose. I am genuinely curious and want to talk with you. I want to learn about: Why are these your paraphilias? What is it about them that excites you? And anything else you can or want to share with me. I have a genuine curiosity & I understand that a certain level of trust is required for you to talk with me. Everything stays confidential or anonymous. I do have an intellectual curiosity, but courtesy of keeping things confidential or anonymous, only goes so far.

My Main Blog

My Secondary Blog

About My Blog

My posts & my writings may contain: biting, cutting, knives, blood, slapping, choking, guns, marks, spanking, hickeys, bruises, consensual non-consenual (ex. r@pe fantasy & k!dnap fantasy), and BDSM kink tools & toys (will specify in TW for writing). I'm a sadomasochist. I love pain - both receiving and inflicting it (all of it is consensual)! Graphic images, sexual content and non-sexual content can be expected.

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STORY WRITING?!?!

Alright my lovely sick followers, future followers & the lurkers! I'm considering writing a novel-esqe Tumblr book! It's going to be sick & twisted.

Definitely a lot of mature themes. Paraphile Yandere that's lusting & craving the MC, written in third-person omniscient?

Would y'all read it? It'll all be on my main blog! I'm also going to write & post more of my darker themed books on there as well.

Also taking requests for short stories/excerpts (requests don't need to consist of paraphiles & can have fluff if you want)

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MY MAIN BLOG

Yes it is finally here!

Click the link above & follow my main blog!

It's fvcking bare right now! But that'll change very soon!!

So.. GO FOLLOW IT!!

MY MAIN BLOG

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Those with the most depraved of minds, are the ones whose auto-biographies I want to read the most.

So, DM me?

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"Something that makes you feel excited when you see it"

Looking up to see my bf's mouth covered in my bl00d after giving me a mind-blowing orgasm🥵😏

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!! ABOUT MY BLOG !!

🔞18+ Blog🔞MDNI🔞

👋🏻 Hi! Welcome to my "degenerate blog"😁 Here you'll find the darker side of my mind, my darker curiosities, and my darker sexual interests. I hadn't realized, when I made this blog, what having a "secondary blog" meant. So this isn't my main, which is extremely disappointing now that I realize my mistake.

MY MAIN BLOG

⚠️Just a bit of a content warning. Like I said, this is for my darker thoughts, darker curiosities, and darker sexual interests. My bf and I are both heavily into BDSM. I'm a switch, but I'm a brat with him. I absolutely love pain. I get off on it. I have very dark fantasies, so there are mentions of: biting, cutting, knives, blood, slapping, choking, guns, marks, spanking, hickeys, bruises, consensual non-consenual (ex. r@pe fantasy & k!dnap fantasy), and other types of pain related kink tools. I'm a sadomasochist. I love pain - both receiving and inflicting it (all of it is consensual)! I may also post graphic images, sexual content and non-sexual content.

📮Submissions are allowed now! Didn't realize I had them turned off before! So ask me anything! You can ask about my sexual preferences, suggest books I might like, you can tell me something personal! Whether you tell me something personal anonymously or not, please be sure to include at the beginning if you're alright with me posting your "ask me⚔️tell me"! All other "ask me⚔️tell me"s will be posted! If you want it private, then directly message me!

🧠One of my intentions with this blog is for me to interact with others of a "darker nature". Personally, I am extremely interested in psychology. I'm a true crime consumer and have a personal-professional psychological curiosity for learning more about paraphilias (necro, cann!balism, etc.). I have a genuine interest in understanding different paraphilias & the minds of those who have them, their minds' correlation with human behavior & vice versa, and who the person is behind the paraphilia & what their life has been like. If you're interested in sharing your experience with me, you can message me or submit an anonymous ask. Please just make sure to tell me if you do not want me to post your ask. If you don't specify in the ask, I will not post it. Some may not understand why, but I understand that this is very personal info about oneself and a level of trust is needed for someone to tell me about themselves.

✒️Okay, so that's about it. I may also include some writing excerpts if I'm feeling particularly dark regarding what I want to write about that day. Who knows, I might write a dark story & post it here. If and when I start accepting requests, I will update this and create a specific post. Please let me know if I missed anything in my content warnings!

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I love being a fvcking brat - why? Cause I push him. I push him to take it further. Take me harder. Wreck me even more than before. Destroy me. Cut me deeper, slap me harder, choke me tighter, bleed me longer. I want him to remind me every time why I eventually submit to him. Why he deserves my submission. Not just anyone does. But he does. Why?

He knows me. He knows everything that I love and want from him. He knows spanking is a foolish way to punish me. I WANT HIM TO. I GET OFF ON IT. He knows physical pain is my pleasure & having my head completely wrapped in duct tape makes me so wet. So what is it that he does to get me to obey?? He IGNORES ME. He knows my weakness. He knows I can't take it. He knows that if I pull off my restraints, pain won't work. It's what I'm hoping for. No. He will sit there. Not say a word. And wait.

He waits for the pathetic brat to beg for attention & promise to be a good girl. Almost in tears over not being acknowledged. Once I finally get on my knees in front of him with my head bowed, then and ONLY THEN, he grabs my chin, tilts my head up and he whispers while looking into my eyes, "Now you deserve the pain you crave. Now you deserve the pleasure you get from being absolutely demolished by me."

My response? "Thank you, sir." And finally, my body is covered in his signature. Bruises, cuts, bl00d, marks, hickeys, hand prints that broke the skin... Everything he uses to sign my body. To say he was here. To say that he's the only one that will ever be here. Why? Because I am his. I belong to him. I belong only to him & to no one else. My body is his. All of me... Is his.

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I just don't understand how people DON'T have a bruises, cuts, and marks k!nk🧐 like I need you to explain this to me. How do you not love seeing your body covered in cuts, bruises, hickeys, hand prints, bite marks from being completely man-handled & put thru the damn ringer while fvcking..?? I want the proof all over my body that says my fiancé was here & he slaughtered me until I was a puddle of cvm🫠

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"make me..."

famous last words before my bf turns my ass into a slab of bloody raw meat & hands it to me sliced up on a shiny silver platter🍽️

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IMMA POST ABOUT MY SUBMISSIVE A*SS K!NKS & MY BF BE@T!NG MY BOOTIE BECAUSE I CONSENT TO ALL OF IT. I'M A PROFESSIONAL DOMMINATRIX AS WELL. SO TRUST ME, I GET MY TIME TO SHINE DOMINATING.

I DOMINATE B!TCH A*SS SISSI MEN WHO WANT ME TO HUM!L!ATE THEM & DO SO MUCH WORSE SH!T TO THEM DURING MY SESSIONS W/ THEM. YOU DON'T WANT TO KNOW ABOUT WHAT BF DOES TO ME? THEN DISRE-FUKIN-SPECTFULLY GET OFF MY TUMBLR! SIMPLE AS THAT.

Thank you for coming to my TedTalk💋

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bf hurting you this bf dominating you that. it's fucking overrated and annoying. you should abuse him for once.

LMAO what my bf does to me is with MY CONSENT. It's bd/sm bby - CONSENT ISN'T JUST SUGGESTED IT'S REQUIRED. I WANT him to do all of these things to me. None of these things are against my will. And any time that I call out our safe word, he stops IMMEDIATELY. So, please research BD/SM & how it works before assuming it's abuse. I've been in abus!ve relationships. This is the healthiest relationship I've ever been in.

He respects me and my needs. He listens to me and is patient. He knows what I need and want better than I do. He truly cares and loves me. He has never made me feel like I'm not enough. He goes above and beyond to take care of me. He doesn't control my actions. He is fine with what I do for a living. He trusts me & I trust him. We are going on 4½ years together and we're planning to get married. This is my blog where I share all of my K!NKS & freaky sh!t because it's THAT SIDE OF TUMBLR. I appreciate the concern but I'm okay. All of this is with my consent. And none of it happens without my say so. Just like how it's supposed to be🫶🏻

And fyi, I'm a switch. I'm a ProDomme - so, I get my time dominating when I'm in a session with a client⛓️