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Why the fuck am I so f@t but my mom and granny say I’m TOO TH!N? How does that work. I’m barely even normal weight

This is hell.

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Guys “sk!nny little b!tch” by Hole is a rlly motivating song tbh and it’s not just a bad song with relatable lyrics, it’s acc pretty good too

“Jennifer’s Body” by the same artist also has the same lyrics kinda

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Anne, Esther or Erin, and if I was a boy, Michael, Thomas or EDWARD 😭

Tbh I like Anne, Michael and Thomas but bfr I would not survive being an Edward

what were the other names your parents considered for you? for me it was Zoey, and Oscar if I had been a boy

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My PE teacher put in my Christmas report that I need to “work on my fitness” so naturally I have to lose a dangerous amount of w€!ght to make her feel terrible

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I’m so happy, I got 100% on my French and English tests :))))

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Meal plan ~ 5•12•24 🎄

Breakfast - toast with cheese & ham (135)

Lunch - pancakes, fibre one brownie & low cal crisps (436)

Dinner - ?? (Max. 500 cals)

Cal limit: 1500

Net cals:

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I’m back after that little hiatus hehe but I’m gonna keep restricting just not as tight this time to avoid being caught again :))

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WOAH

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“You don’t need to lose w€!ght” yes the fuck I do I barely made the cut off for normal weight💀

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I’m so different from my mom but so frustratingly similar at the same time

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The “Milk and Honey” Colleen Hoover and Franz Kafka & Fyodor Dostoevsky sibling combo should be studied

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Ok so this whole recovery thing is just not it lmao, I’m going to lose w€!ght again but pretty slowly so my mom won’t be suspicious.

Any social engagements I have are from May onwards anyway so I’ll have plenty of time to lose what I want

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Brain fog hit a lil too hard 😝 (I nearly overdosed because I took the wrong medicine)

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“When I was your age the same thing happened to me, I was losing w€!ght after moving to a new school. It’s probably the change in environment”

So close! I actually have an €d that you don’t know about! <3

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Realising that having ana wasn’t just a silly little hobby and that it was actually a coping mechanism that I’m being robbed of until I -come of age- so recovering is not even doing me any good

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Hey guys :(

My mom kinda caught onto me, she asked if o was trying to lw and I said no but I don’t think she believes me and she said I’m gone quite sk!nny (I haven’t lmao)

So I’m gonna maintain for a while, maybe until Lent begins next year so I’ll have a valid reason for not eating lots of food

Gonna miss you guys :((

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I think my annual 6 week long bout of pneumonia is coming upon me 😔

I hope it gives me a bad appetite at the very least