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ı choose not to have anxiety , thank you to my anxiety to while ı write this people will judge me of being an idiot to write ı choose not to have anxiety , now ım repeating myself end getting anxiety for this.Amazing.

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ı want to have friends! Artist friend whom we can share nice conversations , videocalls etc etc... ı promise you , you wont be regret, male or female doesnt matter. I am 27 just putting it as a note! <3

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march goals

1-get better on face planes

2-10-15 gesture drawing everyday

3- study Perspective speedpaints and short tips.

4- sunny drawings at least 1 peace

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ıg: Haruumiarts

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I do not have a shadow anymore

ı used to write every single day but somehow ı stopped it’s been years and yesterday ı wrote a ew sentences and now ı feel like my chest is about to explode.. There are so many emotion ı want to let it out and even the thought of lettıng them out makes me wanna cry , scream ...

I have recently found my old tumblr account and apost ı have shared about 10 years ago ‘‘ ı dont wanna be alone when ıt snows ‘‘

sad part is I am alone. Its been 10 whole years people came and went but still today I am alone again . I turned 27 a few days ago and my fear starts to grow even more.

Instead of sitting and cryıng I decided to change my life this year and I wıll make sure that I wıll share a post which I wrote

‘‘ I am no longer alone when it snows and I have achieved my dreams ‘‘ until this day I hope ı can have friends whom supports me cause honestly I have lost all of my friends too .

I feel like ı dont have a shadow anymore .. Even there is a bright sun outside when I walk I have no shadow..

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I am missing the love I never had

ıt is magical how we fall in love..Sometimes it takes a look , or a touch to find the one but sometimes no matter how much we try , we cannot fit into a little heart.

I am missing the man I have not met yet...

I am missing the smell of his skin in the bed at night.. The cold sheets warms my body but never makes me warm inside..I am losing myself in my thoughts..Where are you now ?

I am missing you baby , even though i haven't touch you yet and I know I will be missing you until the moment ı touch your skin