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I am legit going to die in this google doc

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on my fourth "high heart rate warning!" notification of this class period Girl i know!!! I am freaking the fuck out!!!!!

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So scared thursday

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5:42 AM finally finished drafting all four piqs am sitting in discord watching my friend transcribe christmas carols for elementary piano

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what if your professor emails you and says ps stop missing class except you literally have to leave early next week to meet with the one transfer counselor who is available within an 8 hour time difference and also your life is falling apart

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Wondering why my laptop keeps glitching out when I have two chrome windows with like 50 tabs each and ten applications running at any given moment

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Velimir Khlebnikov, Collected Works, Vol. 3: Selected Poems, tr. by Paul Schmidt

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i have officially started doing my university transfer applications (aka applying to transfer from the community college i currently attend to a four-year university). i have had murderous stalkers and have been in multiple life-threatening situations and straight up died once and yet this is genuinely the scariest thing that's ever happened to me

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whoever designed the uterus and its various accoutrements should be shot and killed and resurrected and then shot and killed again

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my worst trait is that sometimes i get my period and i start tweaking and the only solution is blasting that one shitty mgk song lying on the floor of my room with all the lights off

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fatima aamer bilal, excerpt from moony moonless sky’s ‘i am an observer, but not by choice.’

[text id: my fist has always been clenched around the handle of an invisible suitcase. / i am always ready to leave. / there is not a single room in this world where i belong.]

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actually up until yesterday i was being kept in a cage deprived of all semiotic signification. so each of my interpretations of reality is the correct one because unlike all of you i am seeing it without cultural historical and social frameworks of reference

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sorry for being a terrible daughter who doesn't know how to talk to you but panics when she's away from you and sorry for spending my entire adolescence trying to run back to you and then running away if i ever got there and trying to die when all i wanted to do was come home. all i want to do is be home with you

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what if you liked a boy and he was lowkey leading you in circles but you can't help following because every time he gets close you are caught up in the reel of your shared history which always ends up getting stuck on the halloween from three years ago where you spent the evening in a freezing driveway splitting a bottle of vodka and the weight of your mutual abandonment by everyone you both love. and he keeps letting you cut him down to the real part. and you're going insane not knowing what he wants you to do with it all

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Summary of August 🎾😪