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your muse is thrown into a fast-moving, make-decisions-NOW sort of situation with a number of panicked people, some with training in this particular sort of emergency but many without, and no clear leadership in sight. is your muse taking role of incident commander, or do they panic, or do they do something else. rb and answer in the tags

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“I’m never ashamed of my words. My words are me and how I feel. If that’s a crime, then they should not have given me a mind and heart.”

— Scottie Waves

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“I don’t want to sit around and hope good things will happen. I want to make them happen. I want to be in control of my own destiny.”

— Drew Barrymore

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"TK?"

Hearing the familiar voice once his flashlight was blocked should've brought relief— that audible rustle wasn't a bear or some crack job looking to jump passing hikers— but something wasn't right. TK didn't seem to recognize Cole, and his speech was... off. Slurred almost. And the torn clothing was definitely not from the bush. Still, he follows the cue and flicks his flashlight off.

"TK." The android tries again as his friend starts to fumble through an introduction. "TK, buddy. It's me, Cole. Listen, we're not in a cell tower's range right now, so I can't call for help. I do have a tent nearby, though. Let's head there so you can take a breather and patch up some of those cuts you got, yeah?"

but also here’s a recycled thread that never went anywhere, now it is an open!

“Hey, no no no no, turn it off - turn it off,” the flashlight was a screaming beacon announcing their position in the woods. Normally that would have been completely normal and not at all questionable. Currently TK was covered in scratches, torn clothing (what used to be a crisp, clean paramedic’s uniform), wrists rubbed raw by whatever bounds he had just escaped; he was shivering cold and this person, unfortunately, was smack-bang at the end of the trail he’d just dragged through the woods in an effort to escape as quickly as possible, which meant they were now involved.

His breathing was labored. TK ignored it. This person would have felt the blood on his hands as he covered the end of the flashlight, trying to swallow the bright.

“My name’s TK Strand, I’ve been missing, my team will be looking for me, I’ve been gone for a week. Do you have a phone, can you call 911?”

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At this point, Cole couldn't quite tell if Markus was even listening. He wouldn't be surprised if the answer was no. Between the multiple traumas and the multitude of responsibilities and pressure, it's only natural for one to get stuck in their head. Still, Cole keeps responding, hoping desperately that the words can bring some small comfort. It was the least Markus deserved after all he's done.

Careful not to make any sudden movements, Cole stands up only to drop to a low crouch next to Markus' chair. A hand reaches out to tentatively rest on his knee.

"Well, the good thing about feelings is that they're never permanent." Or at least that's what several songs in Cole's database said. "It may not be today, or tomorrow, or anytime soon... But one day, it will get better. Until then, you know you've got me to lean on whenever you need it."

Cole doesn't push for an answer when Markus doesn't reply. In fact, after a minute or so passed, he figured the guy got cold feet. Still, he offers a hand to hold onto, a silent reminder that he wasn't alone.

Then the words finally seemed to fall out, and the elder's heart sank. It was no secret that Simon died that day. No one questioned how because everyone assumed it was the violence of that day. But now, knowing the truth... Fuck, it was no wonder that Markus was hurting.

"He sacrificed his life to save yours." His voice softens a bit more, now. "He wanted you to live on, and my guess is he saw no other option. Whether it was for the cause, or some other reason, I can't say... But I know he liked you, a lot."

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Cole doesn't push for an answer when Markus doesn't reply. In fact, after a minute or so passed, he figured the guy got cold feet. Still, he offers a hand to hold onto, a silent reminder that he wasn't alone.

Then the words finally seemed to fall out, and the elder's heart sank. It was no secret that Simon died that day. No one questioned how because everyone assumed it was the violence of that day. But now, knowing the truth... Fuck, it was no wonder that Markus was hurting.

"He sacrificed his life to save yours." His voice softens a bit more, now. "He wanted you to live on, and my guess is he saw no other option. Whether it was for the cause, or some other reason, I can't say... But I know he liked you, a lot."

It's times like this that Cole was grateful for the trust Markus puts in him. The elder has known for some time that his leader was struggling— hell, it was impossible not to, after that one incident— but the problem was how or when to bring it up. Thankfully, Markus made that choice for him. Now, the pair sat in Cole's 'office;' a room he chose because it was away from prying eyes. He could get work done and console distressed androids while maintaining privacy. Markus in particular could unload his burden without fear of anyone overhearing.

"Can you tell me more about what you're reliving?" Cole's response is calm, measured. A little unusual for someone known for their short temper and harsh choice of words, but this was the role he's learned to take as councilor.

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It's times like this that Cole was grateful for the trust Markus puts in him. The elder has known for some time that his leader was struggling— hell, it was impossible not to, after that one incident— but the problem was how or when to bring it up. Thankfully, Markus made that choice for him. Now, the pair sat in Cole's 'office;' a room he chose because it was away from prying eyes. He could get work done and console distressed androids while maintaining privacy. Markus in particular could unload his burden without fear of anyone overhearing.

"Can you tell me more about what you're reliving?" Cole's response is calm, measured. A little unusual for someone known for their short temper and harsh choice of words, but this was the role he's learned to take as councilor.

open to all~ from post-revolution marky boy

❛  i can't move forward. i keep reliving this moment over and over again, and i'm stuck.  ❜

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Please reblog this if it’s okay for me to just pop into your ask box to RP with you even if you haven’t reblogged a meme because I just want to RP with you

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“I will breathe. I will think of solutions. I will not let my worry control me. I will not let my stress level control me. I will simply breath. And it will be OK. Because I don’t quit.”

— Shayne Mcclendon

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"I just said, didn't I?" Cole's hands resumed their work, sorting through the latest shipment of biocomponents. A mundane task, but one that kept him grounded... Or, perhaps detached from the conversation. Either way, he was able to keep calm despite Markus digging at old wounds.

"Talking about it doesn't do a damn thing. Nobody can change what happened, and I spent enough years drowning in misery. My focus is on the future, where I can actually make a difference."

@awak3andal1v3 There's a pause as he shuts his eyes tightly, and for a moment, he's glad his back happened to be to Markus. His brave leader, with little more than intuition, hit the nail on the head. Cole did blame himself, at least in part. Many factors played into Nathan's end. He knew that logically. And most of it wasn't even in the elder's control. But no matter how many times he repeated it to himself, the guilt refused to go away. "...I don't waste time wallowing in the past." His tone is even and measured, even as his temple whirs to yellow. The question burned, and its answer came about as close to lying as he dared get. "What's done is done. To dwell on what should've been is a waste of time and energy."

❝ i don't believe you. ❞ markus pushes. it's probably a bad idea, but cole had done the same to him in the past: refuse to be dismissed. ❝ i think you're choosing not to deal with it, because it's hard. and i think the longer you wait, the harder it's gonna be. why do you refuse to talk about it? ❞

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“If you don’t want to sink, you better figure out how to swim.”

— Jeannette Walls, The Glass Castle

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“If it turns out that my best wasn’t good enough, at least I won’t look back and say that I was afraid to try; failure makes me work even harder.”

— Michael Jordan

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“Fight and push harder for what you belive in, you’d be suprised, you are much stronger than you think.”

— Lady Gaga

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Cathartic Crying Starters

"I've been holding it in for so long. I can't anymore."

"I didn't want anyone to see me like this."

"I thought I was strong enough to keep it together, but I was wrong."

"It's like a dam breaking inside me, and I can't stop the flood of tears."

"I've been suppressing this pain for too long"

"I kept telling myself I was okay, but the truth is, I'm not."

"I didn't realize how much I needed to cry until now."

"It's like all the emotions I've bottled up are pouring out at once."

"I've been wearing a mask for too long."

"I thought I could handle it."

"I didn't want to burden anyone."

"I'm sorry if this is uncomfortable, but I can't hold back the tears any longer."

"I didn't want to break down, but I can't fight it anymore."

"I never thought I'd cry like this."

[MOMENT] The sender reaches the verge of tears.

[BREAKING] The sender hits their emotional breaking point, leading to a burst of tears.

[SOB] The sender experiences a fit of uncontrollable sobbing.

[MASK] The sender metaphorically removes the mask they've been wearing, exposing their true emotions.

[TEARFUL] The sender apologizes for their emotional outburst, tears streaming down their face.

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One of the perks of having an advanced voicebank is that Cole can let out the loudest, shrillest scream imaginable. Man could literally blow your eardrums out if he really wanted.

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“Don’t let the same dog bite you twice.”

— Chuck Berry

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100 Ways to say "I Care"

See the original 100 Ways to say "I Love You" list here: [x] I was inspired to make one of my own for caretaking themes 💕

"I'm here."

"Stay still."

"Trust me."

"You're safe."

"I've got you."

"I don't mind."

"I'm not mad."

"Lean on me."

"I understand."

"It's no bother."

"I'll clean it up."

"Take my coat."

"Need a hand?"

"Are you okay?"

"I'll handle this."

"Happy to help."

"Get some rest."

"Can I hug you?"

"I'll get the light."

"I can't lose you."

"Shh, don't cry..."

"My door's open."

"Take small sips."

"Stay behind me."

"I'll walk with you."

"Feel better soon."

"You're not alone."

"How'd you sleep?"

"I just want to help."

"I've got your back."

"Please be careful."

"It wasn't your fault."

"I'm a good listener."

"Let me help you up."

"When I say run, run."

"I'm glad you're okay."

"You're not a burden."

"I made your favorite."

"I'll see what I can do."

"How are you feeling?"

"We'll get through this."

"That's it, just let it out."

"I'm worried about you."

"I'll start a bath for you."

"I'm coming right back."

"I can stay up with you."

"I wish you had told me."

"It's okay to not be okay."

"Your health comes first."

"You need a ride home?"

"Sit tight, I'm on my way."

"I'm not here to hurt you."

"I'm not going anywhere."

"Just looking out for you."

"I'm sorry, I know it hurts."

"Let me worry about that."

"Stay as long as you want."

"I'll take care of everything."

"It's fine, I'll take the couch."

"I came as soon as I heard."

"You really gave us a scare."

"I'm not leaving you behind."

"I'm never too busy for you."

"I'll stay until you fall asleep."

"You don't have to apologize."

"Do you want to talk about it?"

"It's okay, it was just a dream."

"You ready to eat something?"

"Don't strain yourself, I'll get it."

"I've missed seeing you smile."

"Do you need another blanket?"

"You didn't deserve any of this."

"Follow my breathing. In...out..."

"Don't scare me like that again."

"I'll wake you in a couple hours."

"It's really me. I'm here, I'm real."

"I won't let them near you again."

"You first, I'll be right behind you."

"Do you want me to go with you?"

"I know I don't have to. I want to."

"You can hold my hand if it helps."

"I've got your next round of meds."

"Let me put on some fresh sheets."

"It's good to see you up and about."

"I'm with you every step of the way."

"I'll be outside if you need anything."

"Hey, you're supposed to be resting."

"You're the strongest person I know."

"Is there anyone you want me to call?"

"If you're not up for this, let me know."

"It's nothing to be embarrassed about."

"I just hate to see you hurting like this."

"Tell me what you need most right now."

"I called off work. You've got me all day."

"You've got my emergency contact info."

"I know you. You don't seem like yourself."

"I have a change of clothes ready for you."

"I'm so proud of you, and how far you've come."

"Call me if you need me. I don't care how late it is."

"They want to get to you, they'll have to go through me."