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Doctors "struggle" to diagnose you if you're not a 4 year old boy because they're idiots. They ask adults the same questions as made for 4 year olds of adults and when the answers don't match they conclude "not autistic" 🙄

They just don't grasp how many people slip thru undiagnosed. And the fact more and more people are getting diagnosed every year now isn't an "epidemic". It's a revelation of how many people have been slipping thru without help!

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A Constant Hum (found in a derelict factory)

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I’ve started to say “I need time to process this.”

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Oh.

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😭 Truth.

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bro im gonna CRY i didnt know this 🥺

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People underestimate how much it fucks you up to be subtly excluded as a kid. I would try to talk to my classmates and be met with disinterest or annoyance. The one friend I had, who I clung to and nodded along to his every word, had other friends he liked just as much or more. And his other friends didn’t care for me at all.

I look back at pictures from the time and see how separated I was from them. I remember knowing I was different. I remember posing questions about the world to the girls playing next to me and realizing that they had never asked the same ones to themselves. That the ways we thought couldn’t be more different.

I kept myself amused with my own fanatical stories and musings in my head. I would wander the playground on a circular path, imagining a friend and being sorely disappointed when it didn’t feel as real as I’d hoped.

There was a bubble separating me from everyone else, thin, and nearly invisible, but with a pearly sheen you could catch under the right conditions. I knew it was there, they knew it was there, and it changed me

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You ever just wanna unplug ur brain and launch it into the fuckin void