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crying at my desk at my big girl job full of grief for the little girl that i was years ago

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not to be a sentimental pisces but coming back here after so many years to see the ways that most of you have grown up and moved on (just like me!) is making me emotional

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Why don’t you change me at all costs? Starlight and star-crossed Take me so breathless Yeah, woke up in a safe house singing, “Honey, let’s get married”

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if you’ve ever taken a shower to muffle your sobs, I’m sorry and I love you. if you’ve ever eaten alone in a bathroom stall, I’m sorry and I love you. if you’ve ever used makeup to conceal evidence of pain, I’m sorry and I love you. if you’ve ever looked in a mirror and wanted to change what you saw, I’m sorry and I love you. if you’ve ever questioned your worth because of someone else, I’m sorry and I love you. you’re not alone, and you don’t deserve the hurt you’ve experienced. you are good enough—more than good enough. you and valid, you have meaning, and you are loved even when you don’t know it.

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i guess what ppl dont tell u about college is that is a very lonesome period of ur life. and that doesnt mean like u wont have lots of friends or u wont party or whatever but ur going to spend so much time alone. like cooking by yourself and studying n homework and driving and going to classes like……… its just you sometimes. and the trick is to use that time by yourself to relax and understand YOU better and iron out your own wants n wishes instead of wallowing

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https://www.instagram.com/p/BZZDCdUDm4i/

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me

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where! has! my! passion! gone! I had it abundantly when I was a child, and I must have dropped it along the way, but I cannot figure where!

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Three years ago today. I love this bit of video. Not sure why.

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close the door :( throw the key :( dont wanna be reminded :( dont wanna be seen :( dont wanna be without u :( my judgment's clouded :(

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My favorite part of the film is that she has these little facial expressions throughout. And it’s just, her reactions, I could watch those all day, she’s so good. - Noah Centineo

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Can’t wait to wear a necklace w my lover’s initial BICH!!!!!

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yall ever make a post n then ur like nah…. this one needs to go in the journal lol