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AHHHHH!!!!! that went better than i thought

Finals marks are being released today I'M SO SCARED I'M FUCKING DYING ARE YOU KIDDING ME??? I hate life

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Finals marks are being released today I'M SO SCARED I'M FUCKING DYING ARE YOU KIDDING ME??? I hate life

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I might have said this before but cigarettes after sex sound like how snily feels. I adore soft snily

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The biggest problem in my life rn is whether to post the subway or August on my story lmao 🫶

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Thanks lovely!!

In honour of jk terflings birthday, I wanna donate to trans charities in the UK

Any suggestions? I'm a bit lost

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I'm feeling so weepy today and for what?

All because of some fuckass pokemon reel (of all things!)

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What are the chances she drops dead at 60

Someone please please please manifest this with me

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In honour of jk terflings birthday, I wanna donate to trans charities in the UK

Any suggestions? I'm a bit lost

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"need" by Taylor Swift is so lilypad coded, DO YALL SEE THE VISION???

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Gender is a construct but pathetic loser boy core and pathetic loser girl core are two distinctly different things, and Severus somehow manages to be both of them

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I can't even dedicate songs to snily anymore because it would just fill my entire blog. They're the only thing on my mind every song I listen to is about them my babies

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love you too pookie 😋😋

OMG you went to a Sydney rose concert, I'm so jealous 💔

Suburban too!! Twins <3

40 and 11 for the ask game!! 🫶

(hi i love you)

11. do you live in an urban, suburban, or rural area?

suburban!!

40. what's the most interesting item you own?

maybe not a singular item but i have a running gag with my friends where they all gift me peppa pig themed things, so i have an area on my bookshelf dedicated to peppa pig 🤷‍♂️

i've also got a signed posted by sydney rose that i got at her concert and a lunch box from my last day in middle school that all my friends wrote on before i moved out of the state

i've also got this limited barnes and noble edition vinyl of the soundtrack of the og star wars trilogy that i got for my birthday!!!

(yes i know that was several items ilyily)

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ENOUGH angst!!! Give me them cuddling and being happy forever !!!!

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My mother's birthday is coming up, and I've been thinking about her, mothers and motherhood in general, my own maternal feelings etc.

And since everything in my life has to be about the marauders I wrote some ficlets about my favourite dead gay wizards and their moms.

Find them here <3

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James & Euphemia

mommy issues microfic series | part 4 | 127 words

It was a bright, sunny day. Euphemia was with her bright, sunny boy.

And she was tired.

For all she loved her husband’s endless energy, keeping up with their seven-year-old, who’d inherited every bit of it, was no small feat at sixty.

But she loved James, and James loved running around outside, and so run around outside she would.

Even when that meant putting more pressure than her aching bones could take.

Even when that meant pain.

Even when that meant James laughing at her, not realising she was actually hurt.

And yes, even when that meant James realising what had happened and crying with guilt, trying to help her.

It was all worth it.

Because she loved James.

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Remus & Hope

mommy issues microfic series | part 3 | 198 words

Hope squeezed tighter.

What else could she do?

What were you supposed to do when your five year old was crying because he hurt himself after spending the night as a werewolf?

It was a question she had no answer to.

So she did what her motherly instinct told her to, and squeezed tighter.

Remus— lovely boy that he was— looked up at her with the soft, pleading eyes of a child, of a child who had been prey to a beast, and yet. And yet, all Hope could see were the amber flecks that had not been there three months prior. All she could see was the beast himself.

Between sobs came her son's voice, even quieter than it normally was.

"Do you still love me, mommy?"

Hope laughed, letting her tired eyes close for a second. She pulled her baby in and kissed his cheek.

"'Course I do, Remmie."

A small smile shined through the tears for the barest second before flickering away again.

"Do you hate me, Mommy?"

Hope brought a hand up to her face and brushed it across her lips, then looked down at the blood smeared on her knuckles.

"...'Course not, Remmie."

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Severus & Eileen

mommy issues microfic series | part 2 | 355 words cw, tw: child abuse (kind of implied)

Fucking finally.

After spending the entire summer restless, at least one thing had fallen into place for Severus.

Lily had got him the scissors, and he'd managed to sneak his wand out for long enough to transfigure a mirror.

But just before he could make the first cut, there was a sound of stirring outside. He stilled and waited for the door to burst open. At least he had something mildly dangerous in his hands this time, even though he didn't trust himself to use it, or use it well.

No such misfortune— it was her. She must have sensed he was doing something. She only ever came when she had a reason.

"Why the scissors, Severus? Where'd you get them?"

He looked down at his feet, not daring to look her bruises in the eye.

"Gonna give myself a muggle haircut", he mumbled, just loud enough that she wouldn't ask him to repeat himself.

She reached out the entire length of the room— it was more of a closet, really— and grabbed one lock of his hair gently.

"But why, darling, you have such lovely hair..." She trailed off. He didn't have to look up to know the expression she was giving him.

In that moment, he felt rage, white hot and blinding. Not to his mother, never to his mother, but right now it was pretty damn tempting. Lovely? He wanted to scream.

"Tell that to James Potter who never runs out of names to call me—tell that to all pureblood assholes who tell me it's too "unbecoming" on a half blood— tell that to Sirius fucking Black who tried to set my hair on fire once."

Severus swallowed.

"I want to cut it."

His mother let go of his hair like she'd been burnt.

"Sev—"

"I want to cut it, mother, I need to cut it, I need to—"

He stopped.

His mother was crying. Silent, streaming tears. Eileen Prince, the strongest fucking woman he knew, was crying.

"Mother?"

She took a shaky, broken breath, but didn't wipe the tears off. Her voice seemed impossibly small as she said, "Don't cut it. You'll look too much like him."