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ashs-ed · 4 years ago

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i found love where i shouldn't have even seen

right in front of me i find it hard to believe

you could be so ruthless to me

shouldve seen the warning signs

right in front of me

i already knew to believe

but you already found love

in someone taller than me

with my dream life

and i hate that i held strife

for her until i broke her the way you broke me

i made her fall in love with me

so i could see

if i could make her as broken as me

and id said id never let anyone break me again

but it broke my heart so see hers move on

yours came back but i never realized my love is more for show than jewelry

but i still know you're birthday

and memorized mine and hers favorite song

but im listening to it alone now

someone will love you

someone could've been me long ago

but now i hope you'll understand we're hopeless

and ill tear you open until the end

i wont let you hurt me again

so i hope you don't fall

and i hope neither do i

someone loves you

someone was me

but now its all the girls you kept secret from me in the dark

i hope youre happy now

i hope you're happy because i wont come back this time

someone will love you

someone could never be me

but i hope its not her

ill leave my final apologies in 100 letters at your door

because i really tried to keep you her

i said id be there til the end

but ive got my mind made uo this time

you wont take advantage any longer

you know im the one who put you up there

now you cant live without me

thinking you live without

then live without me

i really gave love a thousand tries for you

but my loves not blind

so i hope you understand when i leave this time

you can't hurt me and not get stabbed back

thinking id stay after it all baby im the one who gave you everything i don't lose when i leave but you do

so tell me hows it feel

did you enjoy your hour with her and lifetime away from me

im the one who put you up there

never again will i find love where it shouldnt be

leave it all behind me

along with the things you gave me

the hoodies the bears the blankets the love it was all fake so i hope you know

ill never come back cuz now i really know

youre just a lying cheating hoe

two faced shoulda been a gemini

i took it so far to keep you there

but you lost your place here

youve been replaced

you cant take advantage of me here

hope youre happy there

cuz im gone

i hope she makes you happy

i used to be the one to do so

i caught you when you fell

just so you could take advantage of me so tell md hows it feel finally being alone

i hope youre haoly without me

you dont have to say what you did i alresyd knwk

i had to go and find out from them

the way you could hold her but couldnt even fucning look at me

go fuckong live witjout

bitch im the one who put you up there

i dint know why

i wanted to believe taht you didnt have a bad bone in your body

but everytime we fought it wasnt for me

you weren't here for md

it was all for her so are you happy

that you talked shit about

lied to

and broke the one that you loved

in the oast we were so hapoy werent we

but i got fucked up just for a while and you ran to her while i was talking about staying by your side

but continue to lie to the one that you love

to close your heart to the one taht you love

i went sick in the head trying to make you smile

trying to stay stuck in sweet denial

so why did you hide from lie to the one taht you love

and cry to the one you swore up down

that you would never love

never confide in or love

but youve lied for miles that time dont why i tried again you broke once you brokw it twice

cant even remember all the promises you threw out like nothing

the ones i trusted with my life

id cross my heart hope to die

but now to my lover ill always lie

keep this between him and i

so forget me now

i said i hate you and baby i bet you do too

everytine i saw ur friends id try to leave as quick as possible

so you wouldn't spew your lies in the groupchat

you kept me waiting but i decided i wont wait for you

bc ive wasted so much time wait for your calls everynight

still thinking i could get you on the ohone just for tonight

now im keeping you wating

hope youll wait for me too

why do you do the things that

make me hate you

just forget me

tell me you hate me bc i hate you too

and i hope it burns how you lost this one

youre not half the man you think you are

and you cant fill the hole inside of you with girls, games, and pretty white lies

i had no warning about who you are

i wish i still left when i coukd make it out without breaking down ever again

i reallt meant well this time

trying to make a broken man feel at home

but youre nit the man i thought you were

and im wish you never met my family or anything i coukd love

you could never love anything unless its perfect for yov

wish i had a warning about who you are

wish i never talked about a future with you

cause youre not half the man you think you are

and you really tried to fill that hole inside of you with girls,games, and lies

maybe you should be sad

because im nit even mad anymore

i di t even want yoy back anymore

i dont remember ever ever think i had a future with yoh anymore

i dint even hope to see you call anymore

i dont even wanna see you around anymore

u dint even want me back anymore

told all your friends you dont need help to get over me anymore

then came back a week later begging for a minute of my time

you said be true ill never try

you couldn't be why should i

ever catch you cheating therell be a love to suffer

but you know love has oain and suffer

but this time my love its only one your side not mine

i think you know im out my mind

im nit yours but you are mine

and in the end lets keep this between you and i

and him and i

and her and i

did you think id be loyal this time

i said i would but cmon you can lie so can i

youre just my bitch but im not yours

said be true id never try

cross my heart hope to die

to my lover i will lie

in the end its me and i

but for you id still take a life

you can confide in me

say youll die with me

but in the end its me and i

but you got it in your mind its you and i

him and i

in the end ill always lie

you should really try to learn who you're lying to

because now you got knifes in your back you havent even found too

i hope youre back aches and your knees hurt

i hope that you hurt more than i do

but I wish you the best

when the wicked get rest i hope you dream of me

i hope yoh regret ever lying these days

i hope its eating you alive these days

i hooe you wished youd tried these days

i hope you dream of me

i aitn even mad abiut it anymore

and maybe just a little less than i was before

bc this 20 dollar bill says youll never ever change

bc we're both still self obsessed

i hope you dream of me

i aint even mad about it anymore

i don't even care abiut it anymore

if you cabt hold one down

then ill hold you down

bc my demons are begging me to get it back

everything you stole

ignite me

look at all the flames i bring about

i sold my soul to fix youre hurt

abd now its the devil thats trying to hodl me diwn

this is what live for

watch me drown

saying want more

selfish ill take what i want and call it mine

we're helpless clinging to a little bit of memory

walking across a fragile line

sold my soul to fix yours

and you told me i was holy

but its the devil trying to hodl me down

tnrow me in the deeo end watxh me drown

you knock me out

knock me out

saying this is what i want nowi

thsu is what i live for

hold me down or watch me drown

thsi is what i love fir

hold me down

knock me out

saying that u want more

is this nit what you lived for on the eastside

before i met yoh

drank way to muh and you told me put down the bottle i wont breka your heart

niw im standing here in a hotel bar wriying the worse thing ive ever had in my mind

and its all your faukt we arent closer

we aint ever getting older

you look even better than the day i met you

i still regret leaving but i know i had to

i know it breakdyour heart

but i wont stop

why dont you ever pull me closer like you used to

makes me wonder if we're going down the same road

maybe we could get just a little closer this time

baby pull me closer njst one last time before we break

bc i know we both tried to stay but its breaking

we aint ever getting older

we aint ever growning old together

we aint ever gonna make it

i know it breaks me to say it

times frozen

but for you my hearts still broken

come again another day when you can look into my eyes a say

it was all i mistake come again another day

for you id walk miles barefoot in the snow

for me you step on rose petals

til the love falls through your finger tips

have you had enough of it

youre a bandit

stole my heart watched it break and you loved it

when the time comes youre my only one

but shes always in your mind she called shotgun

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