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[asapmiles]

constellation lines  // a miles whitmore mix

sleepsong // bastille

oh, in the strangest dreams, walking by your side it is the hole you impose upon your life when you're out, loneliness, it crawls up in the ground it's what you feel, but can't articulate out loud.

high hopes // kodaline

i've only got myself to blame for it, and i accept it now it's time to let it go, go out and start again but it's not that easy. but I've got high hopes;

the boy who blocked his own shot // brand new

call me a safe bet, i'm betting i'm not i'm glad that you can forgive, only hoping as time goes, you can forget

jersey // mayday parade

now i'm hoping just a little bit stronger hold me up just a little bit longer i'll be fine, i swear i'm just gone beyond repair

these times // safetysuit

i’m telling you these times are hard but they will pass and i know there’s a reason i just keep hoping it won’t be long ’til i see it

you are enough // sleeping at last

when we grew up, our shadows grew up too. but they’re just old ghosts that we grow attached to.

wake me up // ed sheeran

'cause maybe you're loveable, and maybe you're my snowflake, and your eyes turn from green to grey, in the winter i'll hold you in a cold place.

michigan // the milk carton kids

the clouds move over pontiac skies their silent thunder matches mine know this feeling from long ago i wonder if it's gone now i know

bones // lewis watson

and i know it's quite soon but you've got a lovely heart and i hope that you feel it too and a flame follows these sparks. just don't tell me lies because i've been let down too many times. and i told you everything.

a sky full of stars // coldplay

'cause you're a sky, 'cause you're a sky full of stars i'm gonna give you my heart 'cause you're a sky, 'cause you're a sky full of stars 'cause you light up the path

[asapmiles]

Okay, then. Good. Good, okay, good. No no, me too. I think it's a bit creepy, and I don't like it when you see something suffering. It's not very nice. But I'm not suffering, I'm okay, I promise. No, no, it was just because of the heat. i just get them sometimes, you know? I walked into a door once. That really hurt, actually.

Don’t worry kid, I have some. It’s surprisingly useful for cuts and things like that. I’m not disturbed, and I don’t mind the sight of blood that much. I can’t handle a whole lot of it, or if someone looks really hurt and they’re covered in blood, though. Nose bleeds don’t hurt too much, though. Unless it’s because you were punched in the nose or walked into a door, because then it hurts. Your mum won’t have to worry, you’re gonna be fine.

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I didn't bring hydrogen peroxide with me! Where did you get it? Can I buy it, or find it, or make it, or something? Well, I mean, I don't want to disturb you, or anything. And if you don't like blood then I don't think you should help me. Because I, well, because I'm bleeding a lot. 

That's, um, that's a little scary. I don't want to have to tell mum I died because all my blood fell out of my nose.

It won’t stain if you put hydrogen peroxide on it. Do you want some help cleaning it up? I don’t think you’re can die from a nose bleed. It’s kinda hard to lose like three litres of blood through your nose. But I wouldn’t worry about it. 

[asapmiles]

Okay. Okay, then. I mean, I'm out of the heat now! I'm in my room. But there's blood on the floor, and I'm not sure if it stains or not. But I don't want anyone to panic or anything, because I'm going to be okay. I'm not going to die!

You can't die from a nosebleed, right? You can't bleed to death?

Hm? Oh, I can fix that. All you need for right now is a lot of tissues. And then when it stops stay hydrated. And out of the heat. 

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Does, um, does anybody think they could help me, please? My nose has just started bleeding, and it isn't stopping, and I don't know what to do. I, I think it was because of  the heat, and I mean, I always get nose bleeds, but it's not stopping and there's lots of blood and I don't know how to explain this to my roomates, I really don't. Please, could somebody maybe help me? Please?

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A- are you okay, sir? Would you like some help? You're not hurt, are you? Oh, oh gosh. Do you need me to ring an ambulance? I can do that, I totally can.

"Where the fuck am I. Did I pass out on the grass again?"

[asapmiles]

You have to be very careful. You don't know if you're burning when you're in the sea, because you've got all the water around you. That's what mum says, anyway. And don't get sunstroke, either, because that makes you go all dizzy and yuck.

I was in the sun for a few hours and already got a bit of a tan, awesome. 

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That sounds fun! But you have to be careful, you know. In case you step on something really sharp, and you don't see it, because it's dark and you can't see.

Who wants to go on a late night swim?

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Yeah. Yeah, I think you're right. I mean, if I had too much apple pie, I think I'd get very sick of it. And I really love apple pie. Secrets are a bit rubbish like that, because people know they can use them against you. Otherwise they wouldn't be a secret, would they? Yeah, like, like you said; it's fun for the blackmailer, but not for the blackmailee. Yeah. You're smart, you know? You say a lot of cool stuff, and it makes a lot of sense. Like, yeah, allergies too. They really do suck. You're allergic to bee stings? I'm allergic to bee stings! Wow, that's cool! I mean, it's not cool, not cool at all really, because I have to go to the hospital, and that really isn't cool. Bee stings aren't cool. Neither is pollen, or wasps, or hay, or wheat, or lactose, or-- or most things, really. We can be friends? I mean, uh, yeah. Yeah, sure we'll be friends. I'd, um, I'd like that.

I think that goes along with the saying “Too much of anything is too much” or whatever it is. I think that’s how it goes, anyway. The sad thing is if you have secrets and one of them gets out, they can be used as blackmail. Which is fun for the blackmailer, but not for the blackmailee. Is that a word? It is now. Some people aren’t very nice, but some are. Some people are great, actually. Allergies are awful. Just a pain in the ass, really. Like I’m allergic to bees. Not that that’s entirely bad, I guess. Just have to be extra careful round the bastards. Exactly, unless there’s like witchcraft or something involved. I’m sure you’ll make plenty of friends. Hell, I’ll be your first friend here if you want. 

[asapmiles]

Yeah. Yeah, I can imagine it'd get boring. Most things get boring if you do them repetitively, you know? Even partying,m or something. I mean, I guess. Haven't really been to any parties. Secrets? Oh no, they're definitely not a bad thing. Everyone has secrets. If you didn't have secrets, well, you'd have nothing left to preserve, would you? And people, they're not very nice. They take whatever they can, and they use it against you. It's not very nice. Oh yes, yeah, me too! I have that problem! I have some allergies. I have a lot of allergies, really. But, I mean, it'll all be okay! They're easy enough to overcome, I think. I understand that. I mean, there's no evidence that that dead man is going to come back, is there? I just think the scenery's very beautiful, and I think I'll like it here. I just hope I can make friends, you know? I'm not very good at it.

I don’t go to too many parties, no. Just a few college things on the weekend and all. Gets kinda boring otherwise, parties every night. Not sure how some of the people do it. People who don’t like questions aren’t very interesting to me, they seem too secretive. Which isn’t a bad thing; everyone has their secrets. But too many secrets bother me. I’m happy, yes. Aside from the whole allergies thing. Nature isn’t really my best friend in that aspect. I don’t think it’s really haunted, though. More or less just for theatrics, ya know? Make people tune in and then there’s a big fun party with everyone at the end. This is a great place to make friends and have fun, can’t argue that. 

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"They're both very, very lovely. Um, hiya, by the way. I'm Miles. Sorry for not introducing myself first-- mum says I should, but sometimes I forget. Sorry."

"It is very pretty, I haven’t heard the birds yet though but I do like the view."

[asapmiles]

That's not very good. It looks an awful lot of fun, though! Everybody always seems very happy, and like they're having a good time. Which is always good. Do you go out to a lot of parties, too? Well, I just thought I'd check because, you know, sometimes people, erm, they don't like answering questions. Are you happy you're apart of it? I guess it might be, um, a little scary, if you find out you're staying at a supposedly haunted place. But you don't look like you'd be scared. You look like you'd find it fun. Mum and dad wanted me to come here, so I could make friends, and be a little happier. I mean, it looks lovely, right? I'm sure it'll all be really fun!

I don’t think so. If they didn’t learn their lesson, then they’re a bit like humans. Or, like me anyway. I have awful, awful experiences with drinking and yet I still can’t help myself to a little liquid fun once in a while. It’s fine to ask questions, you know. Questions are fun. My sister signed me up for the program, actually. She’s a clever one. How about yourself?

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"I, um, I think that it's very pretty, actually. The birds sound really, really pretty when they're singing in the mornings, and it's super scenic!"

“Maybe… Just maybe this place isn’t so bad.”

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Oh, oh, okay. You're, uh, you're very lucky that you grew out of it. It's a real pain in the bum. I didn't know it was possible to escape asthma as you get older, though-- is there an age limit? Like, once you reach a certain age, you know it won't go away? I mean, just wondering.

Well hopefully it turns up somewhere! Me? No, not anymore. I had asthma when I was kid but grew out of it so I know what it’s like.

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[asapmiles]

No, I haven't! I think I'd feel a little sorry for them. Perhaps they haven't learnt what being drunk is, and then when it happens they get very afraid. It's nice to meet you too! Why are you here, August? If you don't mind me asking, of course. I don't know how much you want to say about your personal life. I don't want to intrude, or anything. You can say no!

Haven’t you seen the little YouTube clips of squirrels eating fermented pumpkins and then they get all drunk and stupid? Usually they’re on the ground or on someone’s porch, so there’s no falling out of a tree and dying, thankfully. Yup, exactly like the month, but me. Nice to meet you Miles.