artlessepiphanies

[artlessepiphanies]

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24

dirt in my mouth from fuelling a fire stabs on my heart, ugly desire too young to love too old to be this hurt

knives on my back i put by myself lost all my shadows trying out hell crying all night from salting my wounds over and over, i'd keep choosing you

over and over is it finally over? will you come back for more? don't you come back for more

Spring fling turned into a summer thing and I thought maybe I could change his mind gave up all my art coz i thought it was petty but half of your scars you got from elementary just coz a baby broke your heart we all have to deal with it at fucking 24

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there's dirt in my mouth

from feeding your fire

and i've never been this loud

but i'm a seasoned liar

and i guess i'll be the fool again

trading all of me for a fourth of you

and you call me up drunk again

but late nights turn my judgement to mush

and i'll call you again when i need to get off

you're an itch in my brain that i cant get rid off

and it started so subtle, now your'e torn at the seams

but i'd rather this nightmare than all of my dreams

and i could kill you but i'm afraid you'll beat me to it

and it gets so intense before the beginning of the end

but i never saw you coming my way,

and my heart beats so fast when you ask me to beg

and i beg until your blood rushes downstream

if you feel nothing, then why are you shaking

you'll call me yours but you won't be mine

half the time i'm with you, i'm biding my time

and any love you feel from me

is all of yours to keep

and when this turns into memory

i hope you think of me

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Choose Peace

a preacher went off in my head

saying 'Speak now or forever hold your peace'

I should've chosen peace, but I chose Taylor Swift

because right then, right there I thought I had nothing to lose

now crescent moons and glasses half full remind me of you

Christmas bells went off in my head

singing 'if you want it now, speak it into existence'

I should've put my headphones on, but I grabbed a mic instead

because right then, right there, it felt like fulfillment

but now I know not to get burned in the heat of the moment

so hold your peace for as long as you can

for it's never worth ruining a bed of broken plans

Footnotes:

I guess this one is basically about thinking things through before putting them into action? I am still having a bit of writer's block but a TS reference always helps B)

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New Years Day

It’s not on my wishlist, just on my playlist

Coz there’s a difference

Between wanting and reminiscing 

It should’ve been this, it could’ve been that,

Just wishes on stars, not matters of fact

There’s peace in leaving behind your past

What could’ve been will never be

So take that thought and set it free

The lessons learned from the pages turned will pave a path for you to tread on

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for matty

he's banned from my country

and it physically hurts me

'Coz I've scrolled through enough of him

to know where his heart might be

he's got a demeanor so red and blue

with half his words, I don't know what to do

'Coz it's like I need a PhD

every time he opens up and speaks

he's just matty from the band

now he's got her face in his hands

and I hardly understand

what goes through this man

when he's singing to a crowd

about hating girls that are so loud

and it makes me kind of proud

knowing he'll always be around

Footnotes:

This one is for Matty Healy from the 1975. I absolutely adore him in the cringiest way and I don't even care about it. What is it with finding comfort in someone who doesn't even know you exist?

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We’re published!

I’m elated to announce that my poem - Artless Dissipation was recently published in PoetrySoup’s latest poetry Anthology series. I can’t believe my casual Tumblr piece is now in a book, an actual paperback! The poem is pinned in case anyone would like to read it :’)

Book link: https://www.amazon.com/dp/B09PHHCCFK

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magician’s nest

you held all the aces and you knew it built a house of cards just to ruin it and I just stood there, biding my time and when the cards fell, you fled the crime scene, a magician’s nest and I just stood there, frozen in time and as I stare at our card-wreck looks like we’re a few cards short of a deck for you stole the aces, fading into time Footnotes: cards are so figurative one can go feral with the wordplay

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from the drafts pt.3

they call it a feminine urge these days to turn a spark into a raging blaze so I guess enshrining every thought of you was the only womanly thing for me to do And so I light a match just to watch it fuse I still think of you when I think John Hughes But do you wonder about me the way I do about you? Because you won’t even budge, you goody two shoes they call it intuition these days the feeling of just knowing from making mistakes so I guess hindsight wouldn’t make much sense Because I knew from the start just how it would end Footnotes: I’ve always felt that rhyming words in poetry can be hard and can even take away ingenuity from wordplay and metaphorical storytelling. Let’s see if RhymeZone actually helps

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sheet music

time and tide conspired, but broke my fall somehow, when the waves hit the shore and everything came crashing undone all the reading between the lines, like sheet music I could never learn to read it's all or nothing - everything's a hit or miss funny how even a few months can make or break a perspective, one you forge for days until fate decides to wreck it so I live day by day, but I used to live for the hope of it all and now I sit by the seashore, like a figure from a folklore until kicks in the sonder, for time and tide wait for no one Footnotes: I've been feeling sad. And that's okay. It's all a part of the process :)

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free verse 1

He asks ‘what’d you do on weekends’ I’m so tired of tying all these free ends My mom thinks I need more friends But I’m too lazy to make amends

I wrote a poem on a post it I’m such a Manny from Modern family Punctuation perfect when I’m pissed The world was okay, we messed it

She posts pictures from back in LA Man, that was one hell of a cursed stay I withdrew from all my courses Left nothing for no one to say

Fake an alibi when they ask things Scar from 2021 still stings I never pick up when the phone rings Rhyming words to make this song sing

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The Summertime

Monday mornings in the summertime, when I'd always run to you when I needed to hide from familiar wars, from coming home to chaos always begging you to take a day off

Sunday afternoons in the summertime, I'm stacked up on candy and shaved ice and we gossip and giggle, I steal your fake liquor always begging you to buy more

But the popcorn and peanuts and candy have slipped away in the name of time I've run away from more family than I have from the tests of time and I just want to go home now I just want to see you

Sunday evenings in the summertime I drink your soda and fill it up with lime and you shout and then giggle, I still hear your whispers always begging to borrow some more time

Now it's a Friday in the break of fall, and I heard you didn't say my name at all I always knew I would write this song but I guess one's always unprepared

when the popcorn and peanuts and candy slip away in the name of time but I'll go by whatever you'll call me as long as you're doing fine and I just want to see you smile It's my turn to beg for more time

Footnotes: This one is for my grandmother. I haven't seen her in almost 2 years because of the pandemic. I miss her everyday.

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basketball court // feral girl summer anthem

V1

I’m sorry if you ever caught my stare

on test day at the basketball court

Your grey T-shirt matched your new bleached hair

I’ve sadly memorized you walking out the door

Pre-Ch1

Sometimes trying is not enough,

Sometimes you can’t have what you want the most -

A pill best swallowed but I choose to chew on,

still tastes bitter although I’ve been moving on

Ch1

But 3 months later and I still think of you,

and that graceless night when you finally knew

drank straight from the bottle and almost called you

for reparations, but from whom to whom?

Another thing I just can’t choose,

but you’re flattered and I’m just a fool

You say you’re flattered, and it’s all cool

V2

I’m sorry if it ever crosses your mind

When you’re dressed up for a party

But you have someone who’ll stay the night

guess you'll even have her at thirty

Pre-Ch2

Sometimes trying is not enough,

Sometimes letting go is something you have to do out of love -

A picture best burned but I choose to frame it,

No wonder it’s so vivid, even time fails to erase it

Ch2

3 months later and I still think of you,

Some nights I still spend wrapped up in blue,

but I’ve been sober since that night in June

for evermore, is not tailor made for us two

Guess I’ll just have to get over you,

because you’re flattered, and I’m just a fool

Don’t say you’re flattered, it’s never cool

Outro

But your name is always going to ring the sirens

like a forest fire in my bed of roses

Like an autumn shower in the middle of June

And our home crowd doesn't know it yet

what they could've harbored if they weren't so dead

no leaves on the ground, but I'm wearing a sweater at the pool

and every goddamn thing reminds me of you...

but you're flattered, and I'm just a fool

Footnotes:

OOOOOOF, I know. Let's just say, I did not have the summer I intended to have! Anyway, I had a melody for this in my head that I kind of forgot, and I don't have an instrument on me atm, but here are the lyrics. It is silly and angsty and cringey, and it is my way of putting an end to this chaotic summer. Heavily inspired by Maisie Peter's new album, You Signed Up For This, which I highly recommend you check out. We go feral or we go home.

I'll probably delete this later, yikes. But until then, hold back your cringe because I clearly have not held back on this one aiaiaiii.

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writer's block

I bottled up all of May and tossed it in the pool

Threw away my journal just to talk to the moon

They thought I'd lost my mind but I was just being a fool

But July really beat the shit out of June

And I wrote pages on love, lies, loss and love again

I read Gatsby, cursed Daisy, and wished on a plane

Although my hands gave in and my thoughts gave out,

there were always words left unsaid, whether I wrote or not

but one day nothingness graced my head

I searched for words but I was all spent

the day nothingness grew on me

I was not putting out fires, or chasing gasoline

and I knew I had escaped the deadlock,

when I finally had that writer's block

Footnotes:

I have been having real bad writer's block lately. So I wrote about it. Hopefully it gets better! The key is to keep writing, however garbage it might be. Thanks for helping out, @interstellartunes, you're a doll <3

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you'll always find your way back to yourself

To ask a stoner about the universe

will teach you more than a monthly subscription

about love and lies and free verse

take what resonates, and act with conviction

To live for the hope of it all

will teach you to feel it in your nerves

but don't stare too long at the mirrorball

and take what you get; get what you deserve

footnotes:

Learn to let go of attachments that no longer serve you. Don't be naïve and impulsive; do NOT let your emotions drive you. The strongest is the person who can control their mind. Learn to serve yourself first. Choose yourself. Sometimes, there is just no right or wrong. In times like those, shelter yourself. You are your biggest cheerleader. You've got this.

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One year of folklore by @taylorswift. One year of gushing over the literary references, the Saturday night kind of sadness, the Sunday afternoon hearsay, the feelings you want to lock in a mason jar and never let go. Thank you for August. #folkloreanniversary

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Good bye and Good Riddance

It's a classic case of good bye and good riddance,

for our base was built on intermittence

Never thought you'd be just another lesson

Although friends can come and go like the seasons

But you stayed for the last bus

just to raise hell with me

All the code words for the loafers

are just secrets we have to keep

but it's not worth walking on eggshells

just for a safe space, it's reckless

but even the most chaotic deserve faith

It'll always be a classic case of good bye and good riddance,

and all our stories fade into the distance

Although I'm sorry I made things a big deal for no reason

I guess I'll go now because you'll never listen