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and MORE:

shirazu's dad died by suicide

haise is suicidal

but dw he died before haise remembered that

hey fun facts that have no connection at all:

kaneki likes cooking for other people

his aunt never fed him as a child

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MORE fun facts:

haise is a parental figure to the quinx

mutsuki was sa'd by his dad

mutsuki sa's "haise" when uta shapeshifts into him

mutsuki is also obsessed with wanting to be loved by haise

hey fun facts that have no connection at all:

kaneki likes cooking for other people

his aunt never fed him as a child

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hey fun facts that have no connection at all:

kaneki likes cooking for other people

his aunt never fed him as a child

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talking about tokyo ghoul:re again

i think one of my favorite moments in all of tokyo ghoul:re is when all of kaneki’s loved ones rest around him after he was freed from the dragon and were waiting for him to wake up. the sheer love everyone has for kaneki in this scene just genuinely makes my heart soar in happiness, especially with some of their reactions

my favorite one being saiko still calling him “maman” after everything that’s happened because she just loves him like a parent that much. it makes my heart warm

and then when kaneki actually awakens, after going through the sea of sin and accepting his flaws and need to be wanted, alongside the fact that he’s taken so many lives in that endless flood alongside rize, there’s immediate serenity to him. there isn’t tiredness behind the eyes like one eyed king, there isn’t emptiness like black reaper, there isn’t fear hiding behind happiness like haise. there’s just calmness, he’s grown past and defeated himself, and what’s left is someone who has discovered innate peace

what makes this so soft and genuinely beautiful is not just seeing the reactions of his friends and loved ones at kaneki somehow still being alive after everything that happened as dragon. it’s kaneki himself staring at this room full of those he loves more than life. touka of course because he was his primary thought for becoming dragon, but everyone. tsukiyama, nishio, hinami, akira, banjo, saiko, all these friends and family members he had grown to utterly cherish and adore, surround him and look at him with utter relief or emotional shock at how he’s somehow still here. and all kaneki can do is just look around in wonder, wonder at all those whose lives he’s made an irrevocable impact on

whether it’s saiko bursting into tears and cuddling onto him like a daughter to her beloved parent

nishio grabbing his face and chastising him while his eyes shine from tears of both anger and relief

and touka just leaning her weight into him and just feeling his warmth and presence, knowing he’s alive and safe. that he’s still with her, even after everything that happened as dragon, after the fear and anguish she felt when she found his detached arm with her parents ring she gifted him

it’s just such a beautiful moment of relief and reprieve, a final calm before the storm of the final battle against furuta and his forces. it’s one of my favorite moments in the story, and it’s one of the many reasons post-dragon kaneki is my favorite incarnation of him. more than his WHAB persona in OG, more than black reaper, more than the one eyed king

dragon kaneki is just a beautiful soul, and the incarnation of kaneki that is his most wizened and thoughtful. and i love how ishida portrays this

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MASK OFF

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Three Wise Monkeys 

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Special Class Hoji or my father… I’m a failure of an investigator, aren’t I?

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And :re quest is now fully translated!

The blurb on the back of the book:

"Ghouls" that eat people and the [CCC] that hunt them.

The two races that existed in Tokyo were still at odds with each other today.

The Q that loves holidays and loves games.

A conflicted girl in "Aogiri Tree".

Making sweets for an elite group of investigators.

A camera girl who infiltrates the garden of gourmets.

Ripples at the CCG Arts Festival...

Everyday life that was never depicted in the main story.

The long-awaited novel version of the [:re] series!

Marude's Profile from the inner book sleeve:

Marude Itsuki

[Special Investigator (50th Term)]

10/25 | Male | Blood type: O

Size : 177cm/66kg

An elite who has gained experience under Washuu Yoshitoki since he was a newcomer. He learned the key points of investigation and command from him. When he first joined the department, he was on the front line of Section 1, but he retired from the scene after the team he led died.

After being transferred to Section 2, he demonstrated his skills and rose to the rank of Special Investigator. His hobby is a motorcycle, which supports the heart of a person who is single. For several years now, he has been careful to keep Suzuya Juuzou away from his beloved motorcycle.

Chapter 1: Quinquies

Chapter 2: Union

(Already translated by @poclee-blog)

Chapter 3: Effort

Chapter 4: Sponse

Chapter 5: Tension

(Already translated by @kenkamishiro)

[Part 1] [Part 2] [Part 3] [Part 4] [Part 5]

Chapter 6: Request

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Made an arcane fan animation hehe

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hngh. okay first rant post I just think amoneki is so insane especially for how much they care and respect for each other right up until the very end like???

okay first of all there's obviously the way that they outright say (even if it's not directly to each other) that they don't want the other to die

Also the fact that Amon tells Kaneki to take a Break. In the middle of a fight. (Which also adds him to the pool of characters that are trying to tell Kaneki to tell him to just let himself rest for once (who he does Not listen to))

Also the fact that when Kaneki deals his first (and only) potentially fatal blow to Amon Ever, instead of feeling betrayed by the fact that he was trying to avoid attacking him before or thinking "Oh so this is where he finally tries to actually kill me" Amon just calls Kaneki strong. He Cut Off His Arm and Amon's first thought is just to say that he thinks he's strong, even if this should technically be a sort of betrayal to all their previous encounters and a Contradiction to what Amon observed at the beginning of this fight about how Kaneki really wasn't planning on killing him (it's like even though this happened he knows deep down that it wasn't with a real killing Intent).

He doesn't even think about himself or that he might Actually Die he's just thinking about Kaneki even right then and afterwards

(ohhh my god I hate Amon (/affecionate) I have so many Thoughts about him especially thoughts Specifically about how he has a sort of idealized version of Kaneki in his head from the few times they've interacted I could talk about it for Hours (but then I'm gonna be here for ages and I will get So off track) )

And it's also about the fact that. In his final thoughts/words in tg Kaneki opens up with Amon's words; these are his words that have been stuck in his head ever since he first heard them and they are some of the last words he clings to before he's "erased". (When I first saw that line near the opening of the final chapter I almost lost my Shit) Like,

It's about how even up until the end they're thinking about what they said to each other at that first encounter by the river

It's about how much impact they've had and Continue to have on each other even when they're basically Dying (and it's partially the others' fault)

It's about the actually Insane amount of parallels and the flipping of their situations between their first encounter and their last (in the original series)

It's about how neither of them deal the killing blow in an "unfair" fight (when the other is basically disarmed) but once they're on equal grounds that's the closest they've come to Actually killing the other and even then they don't want that to Actually happen and both hold onto that same thought

It's about how the natural thing would be for them to just fight and/or kill the other without a thought but they don't because "This guy's Different"

Enemies to It's Complicated. Enemies to you-have-impacted-my-worldview-in-irreversible-ways-and-I-wish-I-could-just-sit-down-and-talk-with-you-but-can't

Enemies to I-should-hate-you-because-you-(technically indirectly)-caused-the-death-of-someone-I-cared-about-but-also-your-words-won't-leave-my-head-and-I-want-to-know-more-about-you-also-I-don't-want-to-kill-you-but-you're-not-leaving-me-much-choice

Amoneki divorce has me so fucked up

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Also, your 'Amon stays in the CCG and works with Haise' AU is fantastic and should have been canon. Poor Amon misses Eyepatch terribly (he still has QUESTIONS damnit!) but doesn't want to get Haise (or Akira) in trouble, so he can't really say much, but he and Haise get suspicious of the CCG being corrupted. They investigate together, but they have to be discreet and they HATE IT, the CCG is supposed to represent justice! Inner!Kaneki drops hints and nags Haise in the background constantly.

YESSSSS GOD AMON AND HAISE NOT INTERACTING IN :RE WAS SUCH A MISSED OPPORTUNITY TO ME I WAS SO GENUINELY SURPRISED WHEN THEY NEVER DID

In the context of my AU I think Amon would feel so let down by the emergence of the Quinx project. He's spent all this time investigating the CCG's suspicious sides and almost uncovered what they were really aiming to do and then it just gets. Announced, just like that. That they're putting ghoul organs in people to use as weapons. It feels wrong. Everything clicks terribly into place. But he can't say anything. And Eyepatch is gone already (or so he Thinks) It all feels anti-climatic, somehow.

Then he meets this new investigator, who shakes his hand and greets him cheerily. He's being mentored by Akira. They are to treat him as a human unless he loses control, to which they'll treat him as a ghoul. It's Eyepatch. It's Haise Sasaki. Amon has to stomach the thought of both working with him and potentially having to "erase" him if he remembers who he is. He likes Haise, even if he's different from Eyepatch, but Haise might not be around forever, for one reason or another. He's never had to kill a co-worker or friend before. (I think, similar to Akira in canon :re Amon would be assigned a big role in leading squads when the CCG has to keep Haise under control. It only makes sense, he's done significant damage to him before, in half-kakuja form no less, and managed to escape this guy even without a weapon. And he's also like, one of the Only Guys who has ever killed a ghoul with his bare hands before.) Still though, the thought of killing Haise, whether it be with a quinque through the heart or the snap of a neck, is nauseating.

The CCG higher-ups are suspicious, obviously, because Amon is the only one who truly knows Everything about Eyepatch, and he might screw with Haise's memories. They're keeping an eye on him and make sure they don't get too close, unless Amon needs to confront Haise, since Haise, even when losing control, just can't seem to hurt him. Not really at least (if it ever does happen he feels So Guilty) ((Also sidenote but Haise probably visibly winces when he first meets Amon. His head hurts and he's not sure why. He feels melancholic and he doesn't know why. He feels a flood of relief. But he doesn't know why. He likes Amon a lot and wants to get to know him. The white-haired ghoul in his head seems particularly fixated on him, won't stop looking at him. Haise somehow knew Amon's name before he was even told what it was. He surmises that it's just because Amon is so well-known in general. (He knows, deep down, that it might be more than just that)))

Haise has small recollections of memories, but he can't tell anyone, obviously. Sometimes he has nightmares of flower fields and battles under the rain. When he and Amon get closer he tells him a little about them. "It's probably nothing" he laughs, unsure, but Amon knows what they really mean. He sees Eyepatch in Haise and it hurts terribly. He fears the chance that he'll never get to ask the questions he had, almost as much as he fears the chance that one day he suddenly will. The answers he's wanted for so long are so close that they are literally standing right next to him, yet they're so far.

As things move forward they definitely try to investigate and figure out the CCG's corrupt system together. But they have to be careful, on the outside co-workers (including Akira) make comments about how close they are and what a good team they make but within the inner-workings of the CCG they have their careful eyes on them. Maybe Akira's a little weary about it, tells Amon as such sometime and Amon says he knows (but there are things he can't tell even her.) Maybe one time Haise and Amon talk briefly, maybe after or during Haise losing control of himself and he says something and it sounds hauntingly like Eyepatch. Haise had looked at him differently during that moment. His voice sounded different. It was pained, but not in the physical sense. Maybe it wasn't Haise at all, actually.

Haise has a dream once about a man shouting asking him if he really is just a ghoul. Somehow he doesn't feel like it's for him. (But surely it means something to Kaneki Ken). Maybe, like in that comic I drew, Kaneki is incredibly relieved that Amon is alive, but also terribly jealous that all he can do is watch from the shadows LOL

Ough sorry I got SO carried away I've just been meaning to list out some of the details of my AU thoughts for AGES this has been living rent free in my mind for MONTHS it's one of my favorite thoughts Ever

It's insane, how many parallels are setup between Kaneki/Haise and Amon, yet Haise and Amon never meet once, even though Amon is foreshadowed constantly during :re. To be fair there is so much going on in :re already but still, man. Man,

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“now that it’s dead, i live in your head 

and i will haunt your fucking dreams–”

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and all the kids cried out ‘please stop you’re scaring me!’

i can’t help this awful energy

goddamn right you should be scared of me

who is in control?

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Jacki Li on Instagram

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Teeny tiny🤲

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regulus black needs to be claimed by the asexuals and the aromantics (and those that fall under that umbrella). if you're aro or acespec, like to claim regulus as a fellow aspec (and if you're alloallo but still think he's aspec make sure to like too)

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I feel like it would be useful if people conceived of causing emotional harm to others more through the lens of being the emotional equivalent to stepping on someone’s foot. Like obviously you can step on someone’s foot deliberately and maliciously, but most of the time if someone tells you you stepped on their foot you’re going to go “oh sorry I didn’t realise!” and stop doing it and try not to do it again. Getting caught up in how it makes you feel to be Someone Capable of Stepping on Others’ Feet would be a transparently self indulgent distraction from the other person’s pain, but also like… that’s just a status you hold by virtue of being human. Never ever ever stepping on someone’s foot is not really achievable, and therefore is not necessary to being a Good Person: what matters is that you do not step on others’ feet deliberately, and – most importantly – that you react kindly and calmly to any inadvertent foot-stepping you have been doing being brought to your attention, so that you can make best use of it as something that will help you reduce the amount of foot-stepping you will do in the future.