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I'm trying so hard to enjoy things. To analyze passages from Chain of Thorns and type up Matthew headcanons. To write Dead Boy Detectives fic and rewatch the show. To listen to Taylor songs that aren't I Hate It Here and sing them in my car. To play Kirby and lose myself in it. To focus on reading articles about British historical figures.

These things are all so important to me. They are not frivolous or trivial to me. Anyone who has spoken with me knows these things are vital parts of who I am.

And yet, everything has felt so pale and gray in these past couple of days. I feel like I'm doing these things to go through the motions of normalcy. No matter what I do, I'll be met with 10,000 mini Andrew Tates telling me personally that they own me, rapey slogans, anti LGBT sentiment that extends to mocking suicide upticks, and screenshots of MAGA texts to Black communities threatening to take them to a cotton plantation. It's really hard to enjoy even my brightest and safest points of light in a climate that makes everything besides people's immediate safety feel like extraneous life add-ons.

This is what Trump has normalized. Catastrophic survival mode.

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Night walk

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i don’t know if they told u this but life is just trying to be the best person u can be again & again & again

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Fiona Apple’s 1996 album “Tidal” — liner notes

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i can’t believe how normal everyone is being…

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i’m so numb and depressed.

i haven’t been able to find a single fucking silver lining in anything.

i’m truly at my wits end.

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Plan B has a shelf life of 4 years

Plan B has a shelf life of 4 years

Plan B has a shelf life of 4 years

Plan B has a shelf life of 4 years

Plan B has a shelf life of 4 years

Plan B has a shelf life of 4 years

Plan B has a shelf life of 4 years

Plan B has a shelf life of 4 years

Plan B has a shelf life of 4 years

(Also, you can get 4 months of over the counter birth control (progestin-only pill form) at Costco for $50. Or 3 months on Amazon for about $45.)

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1,179 suicides today. 2,114 yesterday after the election (source). please check in on your friends and loved ones, even online friends. check in on them even if they seem happy and okay. if you’re considering attempting, don’t. I know this world is fucked up, especially right now, but for what it’s worth, the fact you are still alive means you’re a fighter and a survivor. you’ve made it this far and if no one else tells you, I am proud of you for being alive. it takes fucking strength and courage, and look at you still being here. give yourself some credit because you are so much stronger than you think. yes, everything fucking sucks right now. but you will get through it even if it doesn’t look like it right now. it will eventually get better. I really truly believe that, no matter how hopeless or cruel things are right now. I truly believe you will survive and will get to genuinely be happy and truly safe. just please hang in there.

U.S. suicide hotline: call or text 988 (available 24 hours)

U.S. trans lifeline: (877) 565-8860 (when you call, you’ll speak to a trans/nonbinary peer operator. full anonymity and confidentiality)

Substance Abuse and Mental Health Services Administration (SAMHSA) National Helpline: 1-800-662-HELP (4357) – provides 24/7 confidential support and referrals for individuals and families facing mental health and substance use disorders, including panic attacks and anxiety.

LGBT National Help Center: (888) 843-4564

Trevor Project: Call (866) 488-7386, text START to 678-678, or chat online.

take care of yourself and each other. please stay safe ♡

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Reminiscences of a Journey to Lithuania (Jonas Mekas, 1972)

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Abbott Elementary – 4.05: Dad Fight

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masks off.

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ABBOTT ELEMENTARY (2021 - ) I 4.05 - Dad Fight

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Check your ballots and tell your people to check theirs. There is a process to fix errors (usually signatures not matching; common with younger voters who tend to sign their ballots nicer than their driver’s license or whatever form they signed to register)

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is there a recount happening or not. i don’t wanna get my hopes up.