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This is so true and so fucking sad y’all 😭

theo at the start of 6B

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Venting Post

Living in an apartment building is fucking suck specially if you’re a downstairs Bcs I can’t fucking tell if my upstairs neighbours are re-arranged their furnitures or fighting or fucking at 8 fucking pm.

So imagine when you’re in your bathroom trying to shower and you start to heard banging when you’re butt booty naked covering in soap (literally just happens to me) or when you’re trying to sleep and hearing banging noises (also has happened to me) and you can’t fucking tell your neighbours off Bcs it happens like 1-2 times a month and it’s starting to drive you insane

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Just scroll through tt and some1 say that AO3 gonna get banned and deleted??? HUH????? Like just in the USA or like…Can someone please explain Bcs I’m so confused rn😭

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This is definitely something they would absolutely do 😭

The Missing scene after the hospital 🫶

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Bcs Theo backgrounds never was clearly explained give TW writer like a tons of ideas on how he childhood and his times with the Dread Doctors are like, so it make its very interesting on how ppl writer ffs about his background/childhood

theodore raeken: missing persons

( okay so i kinda had an idea ,, and then went through the whole teen wolf timeline to see if it would work ,, so here it is !!

theo’s backstory !! it started off way more messy headcannon format & then it got kinda a real story vibe ,, def thinking about making it an ao3 one shot eventually )

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TW: very sad & hurt my feelings

don't imagine:

eight year old theo raeken...

who sleeps at his best friend scott mccall's house almost every single night, stiles is almost always there too.

theo and his friends where they all watch movies together until ungodly hours of the morning. stiles loved star wars, theo will never forget that. they had gone as luke, han and chewy for halloween that previous year. melissa went as leia. scott has always been more of a indiana jones fan himself. theo would watch either, anywhere where harrison ford was theo didn't mind being.

in this little trio, who were all raised in the mccall house, where they were given eveything they needed. sometimes when theo thought about her, when he needed to remember the good things in life. he never quite knew how she managed. expecially with scott's dad who floated in and out of the picture.

yet, it always was melissa who gave scott extra lunches to take to school because theo and his sister, who were often forgotten by their parents usually were left to fend for themselves and a fourteen year old girl rarely had the funds or mind to give a growing boy a nutritious lunch. these packed lunches always with the crust off because that's the way theo liked it. melissa always remembered.

theo had three favorite places: scott's bedroom, the corner next to his bed where theo's blow up mattress was. the bridge in which tara and he crossed everyday on their way back to raekens from school. his final place was actually beacon hills elementary.

theo always liked school. theo was good at school. he didn't realize this until mellisa had pointed out an exceptional report card. he didn't think it was much of anything to be proud of.

he liked recognizing big words from english class and novels that would help him when his mom watched jeopardy. she would watch the show every night. sitting in a daze in the raekens dark living room. not paying much mine to the eight year old, until he started blurting out the answers to her favorite show. she beamed at him. he loved his mother's smile, she had the same dimples as tara.

so yeah, when a seventeen year old theo raeken spent months filing the names of anyone ever involved in the mccall pack, current members, deceased and ones that just fell out of beacon hills. he remebered some names.

theo raeken grew up in beacon hills, and beacon hill wasn't to big of a town.

theo rembered issac lahey a quiet boy who had been in his thrid grade class, jackson whittemore who was a grade older than them and everyone knew him because he was was offered a spot on the middle school lacross team, he knew erica reyes who he rembered for her epilepsy and it made him hate himself a little less for being the king of the heart condition, he even remebered names like derek hale- who was in the same grade as tara. theo even rembered the name malia tate as she was small girl who did go to beacon hills elementary, who was always startled and always walked a bit faster than everyone else through the halls. or even lydia martin, a girl stiles had a crush on. she talked to theo a lot, lydia used to call him teddy, he didn't know when it started but he let her do it purely to spite the fact that lydia gave theo a nickname and never bothered to acknowledge stiles.

theo rembered all of them, i mean for years of his life all he had to rely on was his memory to make sure it was real.

though during the line memories turned bitter and he was left with the sour taste of resentment.

so it was weird to think despite it all, that year was one of theo's best. he never felt like he belonged. sure he had scott and stiles before but gaining friendship & being labeled as an "inseparable trio" by the sheriff station deputies, whenever they rang havoc through their office made theo's mouth crack a toothy grin. he felt like he had a family.

that was until the air started getting colder in beacon hills. theo started hearing the voices. though, even so much later in life he never could quite pin point how it started, like his brain couldn't truly decipher what was going on. some of it felt like dream, though the dreams and the thoughts. sometimes they didn't feel like his own and made him so scared he would leave the day feeling nauseous.

though this all came in spurts. his birthday was that november, and that was magical. he spent the weekend with stiles and scott, theo's mom actually made the point to bring the three of them bowling. the boys pitched in on buying theo a big millennium falcon lego set because he was always doing things with his hands, something he picked up not being so most athletic of the bunch. they also got him big poster of han solo just to spite him. he blushed and yelled at them for stupid gifts but they knew by the smile on his face he loved them.

he loved so much because despite the fact that they were poking fun at him ever so lightly, they were good natured and they held thought. they really thought about theo enough to know what he liked. he never had that before.

so the voices started getting louder again around christmas time. it was weird for theo, the happiest time of the year filled him with such excessive dread. it didn't feel right. theo's life changed that month.

then one day scott and stiles get sit down because something tragic happened. tara raeken is dead. the details are fuzzy and they don't really understand how, seeing as these boys are just in fourth grade. they are horrified, it's one of the only other times they've experienced death besides with stiles mom. though claudia stilinksi was sick, sometimes sick people die. learning about tara left a bad taste in their mouth. she was young.

they try and call, bike past is his house. they don't hear from him. they go to her funeral, scott and stiles, high on anxiety attached to their parents just trying to sneak a peak of where their best friends may be. he's gone, that's the conclusion they come to, he's gone. they don't know how it could have happened, they just know that he isn't there. why wouldn't he be there?

they try and talk to the raekens but haunted by their daughters death, they paid less attention to theo than before. they barley give them a straight answer, melissa explains what grief can do to a family and not to blame them but is equally suspicious.

just take a minute to think, while scott and stiles are scared and searching for their best friend, theo raeken, barley nine years old is given a heart transplant. alone in a dark and cold sewer hidden deep under beacon hills, horrified and a failure, that's what the dread doctors tell him. a boy who keeps quiet, does what needs to be done and has to survive. doing absolutely everything he can to be kept around, the second he heals (which theo recognizes is abnormally fast) the doctors are straight out of beacon hills.

the doctors eventually find his parents too, who leave beacon hills, he doesn't exactly know what happened to them. he doesn't everything he can not to think about the possibilities. he hopes he has a chance, survival instincts flourish but the ideal of living isn't quite the same as surviving.

one day, the doctors inform him he has absolutely nothing to go back to, he figured this he just be didn't think they would actually tell him. they never told him much.

they are far away from beacon hills- much farther than he assumed. he has no sister, and his parents are gone.

he is alone, and he is finding out that now, he has one more secret to hide. the poor boy has claw and fangs and often thinks about using them to rip himself apart, i mean he deserves it right? he just watched his sister die, to go down with the last living part of her, his own heart.

while theo is expecting his fate, stiles and scott and stuck in months of confusion. missing posters of the boys face are strung up everywhere they can reach, once his parents are gone. they know they need to do everything they can.

mellisa feels like she's been punched in the gut, so she helps her boys. she calls every hospital in the county, and then she starts reaching out to some of the bigger hospitals in the state. spreading word of a missing nine year old like wildfire. she spends nights after her shift arguing with noah stilinksi, he has been looking to. he tries to bargain logic with her.

"yeah it's strange he never said goodbye, he wasnt at the funeral- it's weird, yes, but his parents left too. their daughter just died melissa. maybe they didn't want to stay."

melissa knows, yeah that makes sense. theo had to of just moved with the raekens but something about it doesn't feel like it makes sense.

he would have said goodbye to her. she knows it.

other people in beacon hills were actually thinking the same thing, something wasn’t quite making sense.

those other people being some who can sense unrest in supernatural frequencies. a family who makes it their business to monitor the supernatural. the hales.

though, talia hales supernatural concerns didn't often revolve around fourteen year old girls who drown, shes curious. the girl, was in dereks grade. the mother in her falters but it doesn't get strange until the police reports reveal the fact that the girls heart was gone, she was found. gaping chest wound, lying in the river.

so she starts to suspect somethings wrong. she's seen the raekens case, something about it doesn't make sense. sure, the death of a teenage girl is overwhelmingly tragic but there isn't much to investigate. though talk of the raekens is getting loud, she comes to find out this is because of the raekens youngest, who was nowhere to be seen days before the funeral.

she knows the hunters are back in beacon hills. so wonders if the two correlate. so she starts asking questions.

talia, with her daughter in tow see two boys standing outside the sheriffs station, stopping people when they walk in to show they a poster. it's theo raekens missing poster, though there isn't much official about it. it seems like the sheriffs department couldn't issue anything official, so as she walks up to the boys seemed to have made dozens of copies themselves. there information seems formal enough.

she catches their anxiety heighten as talia hands the poster over to laura who stands behind her.

the taller one raises a brow, "have you seen him anywhere miss?"

she smiles, "miss hale- you can call me talia though. this is my daughter laura. we haven't seen your friend but we'd like to help..."

the taller boy nods, "well, i'm scott. that's stiles. how could you help?"

talia hale lies easily, "i've heard about what happened to the raekens and it sparked my concern. i have a friend, local sheriffs station who is awfully good with the police dogs. if you have anything that your friend owned i might be able to call i'm a favor."

a few days later, stiles had found her in the same spot as last time with a small black sweater. she smiled and told him she would do her best to help these two boys. not sure if her intrest in the case was supernatural based or because she didn't want these boys, who smelled like anxiety and exhaustion to fall down the hole of loss themselves. she wasn't sure where investigating theo’s disappearance themselves would leave them, she didn't want them getting caught up in the supernatural spiderweb of beacon hills.

though, talia hale looses scent and momentum on the case. literally and metaphorically. she finds herself near some suspicious tunnels, leading right under beacon hills but scent falls short. she's frustrated, and the time since his disappearance is lengthening but her families needs become increasingly concerning.

she's listens, she likes to know what's going on. so when she hears her sixteen year old whispering a bit more with her kid brother she raises suspicion. she doesn't trust peter like she used to, not after getting involved with the desert wolf.

paige dies months after that, dereks heartbroken and talia is trying to put together pieces of a story that turned her babies eyes blue. to young. beacon hills doesn't quite understand how another student is dead, with no previous medical history. this, the death of paige she knows is supernatural.

kate argent moves to town and in months, the hale house is burned to the ground. inside, theo raekens black sweater. tucked away in a room, where news clippings and missing posters caught fire the fastest.

so with no surprise, another tragedy is unleashed and it's the talk of the town. memory of theo starts to fade, like most things do in beacon hills. it's not anybodies fault but it still stings. though, theo million miles away hasn't felt much of anything latley.

it's been a little over a year. he hasn't cried in the past three months. he won't let himself. nobody is going to find him. he isn't going to het out. so he puts up his walls, as many as he can. he just has to stay alive a little bit longer. make something worth taras sacrifice. they had started to kill off more of the chimeras, more of their science experiments. he can't get killed, he can't do that to tara.

theo was always a fast learner. theo always liked school. theo was good at school. this wasnt exactly the same as math class at beacon hills elementary but he was picking up skills quickly. theo didn't quite recognize himself after that year. he wasn't that same boy, and that had to suite him just fine. he never had much of a choice in this. he just chose to try and keep her heart beating for as long as he could.

so theo raeken adjusted, he had to.

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I love stalking TW accounts specifically if they’re about Theo or Thiam bcs they’re give me idea to daydream about them and to make myself sad 😀

i think something that definitely fueled theo's envy of scott was that either one of them could've been taken by the dread doctors. they were (canonically) such similar children: same grade, same town, same dysfunctional lungs. the doctors easily could've chosen scott instead, but they didn't. they chose theo. it was THEO who got abducted, experimented on, and used as a tool. meanwhile scott grew up to be the infamous true alpha with a pack that genuinely loves him. and i think that drove theo fucking insane

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I’m literally obsessed with Thiam analysis specifically with their names, it’s just so so special to me like how their name means when you know their characters for example like Theo middle name Karl right? it means “Free man” but when have he ever been Free in his life?? Never….

theos parents named him "Theodore Karl"

Theodore means "Gift of God" ; Karl means "Free Man"

theo then goes on to never see his parents again once hes taken by the dread doctors. he grows up getting groomed and abused, getting turned into something "truly evil." he gets made into a machine, into their attack dog and they try and succeed to corrupt him.

and then he gets imprisoned underground. he literally goes to hell. and hes stuck there, in this time loop of torture. he was stuck in the operating theaters, the dread doctors keeping him on a leash and then hes stuck with tara. and even once liam frees him, he gets put into a holding cell. liam puts chains on him. hes still stuck, always chained down. captured by the hunters in s6b then getting put into a jail cell yet again. and on and on.

he goes from being called "gift of god" to scott telling him "you're barely even human" to the dread doctors calling him a failure to him being an atheist. he goes from being called "free man" to literally never being truly free. until liam.

liams parents named him "Liam Eugene"

Liam means "Guardian/Protector" ; Eugene means "noble/well-born"

liam, who doubts himself all the time and feels like he cant protect anyone. he tells himself that he failed to save hayden, that he failed to save brett and lori, that he failed to save all the people that got taken by the ghost riders, that he failed to protect scott, mason and the rest when gabe shot up the house. he thinks he isnt good at being a leader, when he actually really is and his friends are always willing to follow him. hes good at being protective, even if he doesnt believe it.

liam, who struggles with his self-worth and self-harm because of his disorder, but his mom named him "well-born" all along. theres nothing wrong with him, even though he feels like there is.

and liam is the one to save theo. he frees theo, he argues with the rest of the pack why they need theos help. he makes theo feel like he can finally be free. and in turn, theo saves liam as well. multiple times, in more ways than one. they complete each other

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OMG OMG OMG AOWNSXLALJWN THIS IS GREAT 🤩🤩🤩 Awwww love this so much 😭😭

I just got this amazing idea but can’t write to save my life soo…can someone please write this!!!!😭😭 So basically this pic of Cody in full snowboarding gear right!??

And I hope that someone could write the puppy pack or the whole pack go snowboarding and Theo show off his amazing snowboarding skills !!! Ya get the idea!!

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Just scrolling through Pinterest and I saw some writing prompts that hit a little too close to home ˙◠˙

Seeing all these literally ripped my heart out of my chest ᴖ̈

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I just got this amazing idea but can’t write to save my life soo…can someone please write this!!!!😭😭 So basically this pic of Cody in full snowboarding gear right!??

And I hope that someone could write the puppy pack or the whole pack go snowboarding and Theo show off his amazing snowboarding skills !!! Ya get the idea!!

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So..to all the Thiam (specifically Theo) accounts I would like to say that I’m deeply sorry for my love bombs on y’all posts , I just so so desperate for Thiam (again mostly for my pretty pathetic with little to no self esteem princess Theo) content.

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Definitely isn’t just Derek and Malia but Peter too , like all three are just so creep out by Theo full-shift 😭

so full shifts in teen wolf are seamless, painless(iirc), and indistinguishable from their natural counterparts except for their glowy eyes.

theo’s full shift was partly engineered by the dread doctors and (we can assume) aided by him being half werecoyote. it isn’t exactly natural, so here come my headcanons: theo’s full shift is distinguishable from a regular wolf.

there are a few minute details that are just a little off, not enough for you to realize it, but enough that it pings something in the back of your mind. maybe his fur’s thinner than it should be, his irises a little too small, eyes a little human-like, his paws a little more similar to hands than they should be.

it’s juuuust subtle enough that unless he’s being Intensely Stared At in good lighting, nobody’s going to consciously notice, so it passes muster from the dread doctors; theo only really needs to full shift if he’s going to be, like, chasing teenagers around their high school after dark, so it’s never been much of a concern.

shifters are probably more aware of/sensitive to the feeling that Something’s Off, but since most werewolves can’t full shift, they don’t have any other references for what it’s supposed to look like, and they can’t pick out what’s different. those who CAN full shift definitely go “what the fuck” when they see him

in conclusion: theo’s full shift triggers the uncanny valley effect in derek and malia

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So…I did it…yeah I finished it all from the very first Thiam ffs to the current newly updated ones

{ my 4th time doing this, I’m just so so fucking desperate for Thiamヽ(；▽；)ノ }

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I don’t think that Cody Christian is the type of person that are on social media a lot, so there’s stuff that he wouldn’t knows and besides about Palestine didn’t also a lot of actors/actress (all others famous ppl) like wasn’t really aware of what happened there until like a year ago?

And also stuff about Palestine doesn’t show up on your social media unless you specifically search for it. And can you also pls provide some info that the director is a Zionist ? Bcs I have seen some ppl point in his post about the film on instagram about the director about a Zionist but I couldn’t find any info about it.

Cody Christian associating himself with a Zionist doesn’t surprise me as he produced the last film he shot a few months ago which is directed and written by a proud asshole of an indie director. He also has been silence about Palestine for a year now. The film is called SYNC if y’all are curious.

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Just doing my late nights routine aka reading bedtime stories (AO3) stumbles upon this fic and let me tell ya that this shite is funny as hell, but I’m not gonna spoiler too much but a head up that Both Theo and Liam are shameless as hell like shame are non-exist to them,although a little sad that the last update was in 2021.

when you crave someone (to be there at dawn) by likelightninginabottle and the lovely link : https://archiveofourown.org/works/27647591/chapters/67650041

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Jeff Davis is dumb as hell like why the fuck would you create all this chemistry scenes between characters cough* thiam* cough and just lets it go to waste???? like HUH??

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This fanart just filled me with so much joy 🥹

I had the chance to work with the most wonderful author on the story but in a home between water and sleep for Thiam Big Bang 2024 . Dear eneiryu I'm so so sorry that I managed to complete only one drawing. Your beautiful story deserves thousands of illustrations 💖💖💖 Love it! And love you!!