angel222k

[angel222k]

✨ I remember reading info on the Kabbalah a while back & in the act I fell asleep as I was reading it… “suddenly” and all of a sudden I open my eyes and it was a huge “holographic” tree with different colors I visualized. I didn’t really realize that this was the tree of life that I was reading about (at that time).. a really great spiritual experience 💫 zodiac / chakra knowledge goes deeper than you think, education is infinite. @spiritual-happiness @spiritualgateway @traumasurvivors @traumasurvivorshelpingsurvivors @griefsurvivor

[angel222k]

I really want to share my story, I had a lot of bad things happen to me. I used to blame myself for others actions, or that I put myself in danger or a place of being hurt. No…none of it was my fault! I want people to know who has ever been a victim that it’s not your fault!!! The grief the trauma it’s all a lot to go through. Facing it head on this past July 2024, I had feelings of suicidal ideation, and I never would take my life, because I have two small children that need me , I am their only provider, but the pain of suppressed feelings/ emotions, as well as unprocessed grief at times is unbearable. I am trudging the road to a happier state of mind, in efforts of becoming the best version of myself. The old me or my old self lacked setting healthy boundaries, was very much a people pleaser, and when the fight or flight response would ever come up I would freeze instead. I would like to reintroduce myself, because now I burn bridges when I need to, I bluntly say how I feel, and act accordingly, I know my worth, as well as what I deserve.

If anyone loves to read may I suggest you read the book called “The 12 Laws of Karma” written by Manhardeep Singh. It’s a short book, but it will change your life, as well as provide you with inspiration.

@traumasurvivors @traumasurvivorshelpingsurvivors @trauma-blog @griefandbruises @spiritualitychakra @spirituality-blog

[angel222k]

First, I really wanted to share my story in front of a large or small audience in hopes of it to be apart of my healing, to inspire others, to help uplift, for people to relate, and to minimize the stigma of addiction and mental health altogether. I lost the love of my life, my best friend, the father of my two small children to the disease of addiction, as well as mental health. I was with him for 15 years of my life and I made the horrific phone call on April 10th 2023 to 911. I will never forget that day I found him, my alarm never went off, I was always used to Andrew (my fiancés name) waking me up in the morning for work, I thought it was really odd. I walked in the kitchen to see him sitting up right, slouched, against the kitchen island. I thought he was joking, messing with me. Andrew loved to fuck with me and he had all of the jokes. I realized he wasn’t breathing, he was blue and gray. I remember I started screaming, unaware my two children were in the next room sleeping, as I called 911, on the phone with the dispatcher, I administered Narcan,and attempted to give him CPR. I already knew deep down when I found him it was already too late…! The roller coaster of grief and trauma is a big deal. Loosing someone you love is a big deal. My life as well as my children’s lives were highly affected by his death, and our lives still are affected till this day. @endthestigma @addiction-can-be-overcome @addiction-to-sadness @grieving-corner @griefandbruises @traumasurvivors @trauma-blog @traumasurvivorshelpingsurvivors..🖤. $uicideboy$ was my music therapy, I want to spread awareness, I want to make blogs about how difficult grieving is and not only that a grieving mother of two small kids trying to keep going and keep my life from shredding to pieces.