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Until deemed acceptable

The peril of hanging on The fear of being held back The demons that honesty lead onTo a truth that needs to hideUntil deemed acceptableWe speak in volumesHow we speak says volumes I woke in the middle of a stormHoping to sleep some more I wish not to catch the wrath Of mobbing raindropsSoftening the asphalt roadThe same I avoided for so long Held this breath in forlornTorn by this pitch deck to…

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Doubled double

We were taughtWe were told thatThe creative and rational thoughtDon’t exist on the same planeDifferent rulesDifferent gamesSimply segregateThe misanthrope to the articulateBeneath the surface-A disorientationThe pair cracks a codeTo a gut feeling strong enoughTo bet your kids’ home The voice, yes I hear itLoud as the yearning you drownDoubled the double since snake eyesPassed by the crawl

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Strung

High-strung zen… I don’t have to change These strings I just need to change Thinking That this could the batch of 6That sees me play great as I Dreamt it to be It’s either too late or too lonelyThe bottomAs seen from the top Let this neck ease the strain a bitFrom the high strung Vibration, reverberation pit

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Rudderless

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Quaint Room inside this wide world

A space occupied By shared thoughts byYou and IKilling timeFinding a reason to smileIn between wordsI'm sorry for ruiningWhat's expressed as misguided lustDampened the little trustFounded on ornery crustFeeding my soulBut this quaint room at the wrong side of the worldWide enough to hideThe truth is the worst place to lie

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Quick View

While I am stillOn your waveIn betweenFar and fewSilence derailedThe purviewA walkthroughOf all that happened since then What else in This quick viewGuaranteed pain?

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Loyalty for a Losing Bet

Public opinionSwayed to thinkingThe gut feeling I feelIs the punch to the gut I seethe Still unsureStuck in the same holeMade bedAccepting fate Projecting that this losing investmentWill pay off in some major eventThe helplessness Knee-deep in mudWhen you are joined,But don’t enjoy things liked,By pigs

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Endings

Sometimes the end is the only placeThe only time where weFind answersor accept themBecause there’s no other way to take itConclusion doesn’t care what you understoodOr whether it understood youNever will treat you fairlyFast or slowAbruptly fadingIt will make sense in the endBut it will be too lateI just wishedYou trusted me with your faithWe would’ve gotten resolveInstead of regretMore time than…

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A Parody of self

At least a clown can distinguishWho he is between Putting on the white make-up The red nose and the rainbow wigThe job and the gigWe all get caught in the lie That we inject our brainsMotivation and restraintTo prevent internal nihilismDrifting towards chasm of schismMidday to reflectThis parody of selfAs dopamine high, fleetingConfidently designed To receive rejection as A building block for…

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People Left For Dead

The people that you loveThose few that can make you feel aliveCan make this senseless life be worth livingCan be so coldwith egos just like youWhile I Wish to never be deliberate or unconsciously Be as unavailableBe so unawareBe so certainThat they can take you for grantedGive you enough air to breatheTill the next time the wantFor attentionAffectionWarmthBut it’s a choiceTo be coldstaring at…

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Inflate My Time

Music: chaotic vibrating peace I wish to inflate my time A price to pay for wakingSluggishly Every blink burns 3Minutes closer to an agreed line One of the many crossed out cosinesYou keep fightingAn allyYou seem confusedOr refuseTo understandThe side you’re on Is not a choice orA birthrightAssigned by the randomness that includes lifeHow the universe operatesExpanding as it conflatesWhere you…

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That Takes A While

Took me sometime to figure out I Was crossing a harrowed invisible line Blindsided, the blinking lights The fleeting thoughts escaping Through a barrage of “Whys”But it kept on pouring The wrong reply In this storm It may take a whileWe take our stance, defend, minimizeThe exchange is never to enlightenAs it is confusing, vilify What I thought was done rightthe list is now up to number fiveThe…

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Reeling

I was told be careful Which button to push As one could shut it off And what’s lostHas nothing left to loseAfterglow and clot But we’ve doneEverything except an honest conversation Or some kind recognitionAbout what fireworks do in a sable skyAbout how you and IFelt emptyimmediately by the afterglowI was too greedyDigest the slow Admission of what can’t beYou lie stillStill you lieI’d trade all…

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Sun setsYou say you never get tired of sunsets?You must then understand of this conceptPerpetually yearning for youMisspentDays are misspent but should it endIn a glorious glow of golden orangeClosest to a distant truth Then maybe this timeWhen we are aware of this momentThat can be openly appreciatedWithout the guilt love force you toMost times when love yearnsNot to be as lonelyAs lonely as…

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Underestimated Getting Over

Underestimated the getting over it Partly because the wholeSeemed too little afarWhen running away from itBut I was running in a circleThis is the first roundThe sky, this bubble, I was sure, sure that itHas a gaping holeDeemed that the scarWill not turn green or purpleThe fear set forth and abound Underestimated getting over itI was sure it was a switch, once flippedWill have this place lit…

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Out Come

The many times I lied Will never be equal to the admissionAdmission is the absence of dual circumstanceDriven to the edge of reasonSeated at the throne of boredomThe mind runs the svelte echelonMaster plan cumbersome Maybe I should just turn my back Last second cowardice to the plan of attackI forgot why, so out comes the obvious lie

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When the Heart Rambles as it Yearns

I am just one lost sleep away from succeeding To push on and keep on digging Never mind what I am looking for I found it in you Eddie Vedder singing with his uke About dreams dreamt and never truly fulfilled The sun just gave its most important direction Follow it rise Be fulfilled when it sets Celebrate the night When in absence It led you to an end That promises to begin again But…