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96.7 kg today!

Yesterday I was so hungry. It's not a hunger that I wanna binge on, it was just pure pain due to my starving. It was like a physical pain and was so hard. I didn't eat anything, only coffee and water. Today I'll go the same, then in the next two days I'll be doing a liquid fasting. Then on wednesday I'll start eating not so heavy things. I wanna see 95 on my scale. Aaaaa why is it so hard.

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if u ever think ab food go look at urself in the mirror. works every time

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This feels like a religion more than an e4ting d1s9rder, everyone talking to "ana" asking to be thinner and listening to what she's telling us(including me)

We sound more like a bunch of Schizophrenics then 4nor3x1c 😭😭

But I'm lowkey here for it, ana is more fun than half people I know. Everyone is just so fucking boring

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Heyyyy, it's been awhile idk why I don't update here.

I'm losing weight!!!

My current weight is 97.65kg. Isn't it unbelievable? I FINALLY REACHED MY FIRST WEIGHT GOAL!! It was 98 kg.

I basically don't eat and do water fasting ( I can drink coffee as much as I want and warm water with a few drops of lime) but that's all I consume.

I did it like that for the last 4 days, yesterday night I ate some bad stuff now my stomach hurts but I'll continue doing the same for the next 4-5 days. If I can do it, I believe I can weigh 94 kg. Woah.

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I'm so fucking tired of being a fatass.

It's so ugly and not aesthetic. It looks ugly and disgusting. Whatever you do looks bad. Smoking outside, walking, running, carrying bags, wearing clothes especially in a cold weather. Everything is just bad.

How long do I need to starve to be happy in my own body? One month? If I don't eat for a whole ass month, will I look better?

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Helloo guys. I've lost 12kgs in June and July as you know. Then I stopped trying to lose weight and things were stressing so I ate. Then I said like ok I'll get back to it in September but it didn't happen. But I started again in October. Today is my second day of starving. I started working in a restaurant. I still have so many things to do. But at least I am not eating so that's good. I'm 101.0 kg today. I will be starving tomorrow too. Then I'll eat for like a day and keep going like that. I hope I can reach my first goal (which is 98) asap! Then I'll try so hard to reach 87 but it'll be better I hope cuz I won't be crying over 3 digit numbers.

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I fucking hate being obese. I hate it with my last breath, with each vein, with each second I'm spending. I wanna die just because I'm disgustingly fat. I fucking hate everyone and everything. But I hate being fat the most.

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Reblog if you are an active 3d account in August 2024 so we can all follow each other 💗

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I'm 100.2 kg and lost 1.05 kg in one day. I won't be eating today. I'm feeling weaker. Today's the fourth day. I'm still so so fat and ugly. I wanna reach 98 kg and save that weight for some time

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why tf is this taking so long take this fat off my body right now

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It's the third day of f4sting. I'm so disgusted by the food. It's so oily, if I'd eat it then I'd wanna v0mit so badly and feel so nauseous.

That's the reason I like f4sting, cuz now I feel how bad eating is for me. But when I'm not f4sting I somehow very much enjoy everything goes down my throat.

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101.25kg today. Lost 550grams.

Let's goo

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I'm 101.8 😳 lost like -750grams in one day.

Idk how but I'm losing weight yay.

Today and tomorrow will be fasting. I really wanna be at least 100kg at the end of this one.

I need to start looking at what I've written about that. I remember I was so excited and really wanted to see 98kg. But now it's been awhile and I kinda forgot lol. But AAA I'm so close to reaching my first goal weight.

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Uhm I'm 102.55 again. Lol. Idk how but I lost weight. It's so weird.

I ate too much for two days before yesterday. Yesterday I ate 3 croissants with coke zero. And somehow managed to keep losing weight. Hmm. I'm fasting today again. Now in the gym. I'm so close to actually getting under 100kg. I don't wanna binge until that. Girl it's only fucking 3kilos. I wanna go lower. I wanna continue this fasting until I see two digit numbers. Please, I want more strength in me. So that I can do it without eating. My body is finally helping me. Thx body. I'll treat you better when I'm skinny. You'll be happy too.

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I wanna d13 so bad again. Fuck. Please. I don't wanna get back to the beginning. I'm freaking out. I'm not safe. I don't have anyone for me. My therapist left me. I had to leave but he's gone now. Fuck. I don't wanna suffer. My whole life has been miserable. I can't lose weight. I'm gonna die ugly. Never seen or experienced love before. Maybe it just means that there's no such thing for me. Apparently I can't lose weight so why am I trying to lose weight. I just can't. There won't be any changes. I'll always be ugly and invisible. Fuck fuck fuck fuck

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Yesterday I ate a lot, my stomach still hurts. I'm 103.0 kg again:(

My body hurts I wanna work but I also wanna sleep. It seems like it'll be a difficult day.

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23 July 2024

I'm 104.1 today. It's the second day of f4sting. I've eaten a lot for two days before this time. So I gained a whole ahh kilo. Whatever, I ate enough so I'll see how far I can do this time. I'm pretty stressed but it's okay.