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@strawberryxdreams​ // Jack and Jay moodboard. 

          “He kisses me with the desperation of a dying man who believes the magic of eternal life is in this kiss.”

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@shcnshi​ // Jack and Shanjie moodboard.

         “For the two of us, home isn't a place. It is a person. And we are finally home.”

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[ FIVE KISSES ] send for five times our muses almost kissed and the one time they do. // anton & hana

@voraxiia

Frenchie doesn't know how to parse through the tension settling in his chest every time he looks at Hana, but he knows that once his eyes are locked on the other man, it's hard to ignore it. He watches Hana laugh, libertine and sweet, while he's halfway draped over someone else's shoulders and something ugly and vicious settles in the pit of stomach - it wants to climb up, to take over his chest and set words on his lips. Anton takes a sip of his drink, washing away the bitter taste at the back of his throat, before getting up to get another bottle of wine.

He doesn't notice the sound of steps behind him over the loud voices filling his loft and, when he turns around, he's caught off guard, a small flicker of surprise running across his features.

"Merde... Don't sneak up on people," he says and his tone is light and teasing, despite the way Hana's face, so close to his own, feels like a gift he hasn't fully earned, one that he wants to take and unravel beneath greedy fingers. "Could've given me a fucking heart attack," he chuckles, low and intentional, as he leans in to speak those rumbled words close to Hana's ear, his breath pressed against the other's neck, their shoulders almost touching. He catches Hana's gaze at the edge of his vision and the tension in his chest grows and grows, so loud it takes over his thoughts and makes he want to push in, until he shares the same mouthful of air with Hana and can tell the rhythm of his heartbeat through his skin.

He doesn't, insteal peeling himself away from the other's figure, and continuining in his walk towards the living room once again.

It feels suffocating, however. The tension, the want, the unexplainable need, mad and unreasonable and demanding. He almost gives in to it again and the alcohol burning his throat can be punished for it, possibly. They are in the club, a celebration of sorts - they have gotten one of their guys out of custody, all charges dropped, their slates clean. So he drinks, settled in one of the booths, surrounded by his men, distracted by Luca's words in his ear, gaze caught on the movement of the people in the club, the undulating bodies bathing in the darkness and the kaledeoscopic blue and purple lights. Hana is nowhere near him, he's not with him, he hasn't even talked to him and yet... He makes Anton restless. He gets up and throws the rest of his drink down his throat and he joins the heaving mass of people and he... Dances. He dances to get rid of the tension, he dances to ease the restleness.

Before he knows it, other silhouettes join him and he's now smiling, feverish and drunk and... His shoulder catches onto someone else and his hand instinctively goes to grab the other person, an apology in slurred French sitting on his lips.

"Oh," he breathes, liquour heavy, and a slow smile starts pulling at his lips. He's still holding onto Hana and the man seems almost as surprised as he is, before the bass travels through him and the music pulls him in again and they are dancing. Anton's hands are heated and possessive on Hana, pulling at hips, fingers splayed against fabric, digging into soft flesh. Anton's breath is thin in his lungs and his eyes are stuck onto Hana's features and he wants to pin him in place, under his weight, under his gaze.

Before he can do that, Hana leans in and says something unintelligible over the pulsing music and Anton doesn't know what he said, but a second later the warmth of Hana's body is gone and he doesn't return for a while. In the end, Anton takes a bottle of water from the bar and locks himself in the back office, away from the memory of Hana's lips so close to his own.

Frenchie has let Hana in, despite knowing how dangerous that can be and despite the way his unwaning want swirls in his chest still. He's teaching Hana how to cook, of all the things - innocent enough, but Frenchie now finds himself dreaming of chocolate covered eclairs and bouncy cupcakes and thick, velvety sauces and of Hana. Always Hana. He's never close enough, he's always slightly out of reach and, no matter how much Frenchie runs or chases or doesn't... He's not anywhere closer. He dreams of Hana in a field of flowers and he imagines himself as the clouds, the rain kissing his skin, the sun enveloping the entirety of him. When he is himself again, however, Hana's mouth escapes him and his face is always turned towards a horizon he can't see...

They have set times and scheduled days and Anton takes some solace in knowing he doesn't need to torture himself until their next appointment rolls around. He's thumbing through a book, a cigarette between his fingers, and Bulldog is enjoying the breeze perfumed with sunset from the open window, crooning softly. He doesn't expect the rapid knock at his door or the way his shoulders jump. His hand reaches for a gun, pressing it against his back, tucking it in the hem of his jeans, before he

"Une moment!" he says in loud French, indicating his presence, in case someone thought he might not be here. He puts out his cigarette and carefully pads towards his door, an attentive look in his eyes. When he opens the door and finds the shaking figure of the other man, he feels all his walls crumble down, worry taking over his features.

"Mon chou, qu'est-ce que c'est? What's wrong?" he is quick to utter, arms opening fully, welcoming Hana in his embrace. He is shaking and barely holding back tears, until something gives in and he starts softly, quietly crying. Frenchie closes the door and ushers him in, on the couch, still holding him gingerly. They don't speak and Anton doesn't ask any more questions - he lets Hana feel his emotions while he fights with the weight of his anger. Hana doesn't need anger right now, however - he needs Anton's hands slowly pressing into him, his fingers delicately running over his pulse, he needs open and gentle and trustworthy Anton. So that is what he gets.

When Hana has settled some more, Anton opens his mouth again to ask, a furious edge in his gaze, but Hana shakes his head and takes his hand and Anton feels the entirety of himself flutter apart. He breathes and pulls Hana into him and his lips settle a barely there kiss in Hana's hair and Anton doesn't ask anything and he doesn't kiss him again. He simply lets Hana be.

Hana doesn't tell him anything about the episode and he goes back to being sunny and warm and brilliant. He does get himself comfortable with showing up at Anton's door at all hours of the day and night and Anton can't deny him. Every time, he opens the door and takes his hand off his gun to instead grasp Hana's palm and pull him, until there is no space for them to breathe, to think, to be. The wanting is still there, but it is softened by how often they see each, it's tamed by genuine care and Anton learning all sorts of things about Hana. He learns Hana looks beautiful in the morning light and that his cheeks flush when he drinks and that his words trip around his mouth when he's nervous of flustered. He learns he likes the sound of Hana's voice in almost all intonations, but especially when he's reading out loud for him. He learns the warmth of Hana is pleasant, not overwhelming like how some people's can be - his is gentle and reassuring and balmy.

He learns all these things and the wanting wanes, but not all of it - a part of him still wants to press possessive hands against bare skin and to sink his teeth into soft flesh and for Hana's body to wrap around his own, tense and wanting.

He kisses Hana's palm instead. It's soft and short and barely what he wants, but it's enough for now.

Until it becomes unbearable and not enough anymore. The need slowly digs away at his patience, his level headed nature shaken by the ferociousness of his want. He doesn't expect it to take over so completely, but one night they are dancing, as they've done before, a slow song in the background, French words and a guitar echoing through the loft. He looks down at Hana and the man smiles and, for some reason, that is the moment when Frenchie sees himself so clearly leaning in and stealing Hana's breath off his lips. He licks his own lips, slowly, voice barely there as he whispers Hana's name, and he smiles and Hana watches him intently. His palms are pressed against Hana's waist and they pull and Hana's entire body seems fluid yet solid with tension and surprise.

Anton finds Hana's gaze one last time, before he gives the other man not a moment to gather his throughts as he presses his mouth against Hana's. It's needy and wanting and demented and Anton can feel his chest struggling to contain his heart, but he leans in further, until Hana finally melts into him and Anton has to embrace him tighter to hold him upright. It feels like months of desire crushed between their lips, and teasing touches and knowing smiles and lingering gazes - they all are but the ghost of unrequited attention now as Anton kisses moans off Hana's lips and they shake softly in each other's grasp, adrenaline galloping through their veins.

When they part, Anton's breath is hot and everything feels like it's made of sunlight, warm and fuzzy and unexplainable.

"Finally," he says and the rumble of a chuckle settles in his chest, his forehead pressed against Hana's and he watches the other man's eyes crinkle because of the radiant smile crossing his kiss bruised lips.

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how unfitting of the name he was blessed with , Fuyumi positively loathes winter , curling in on himself even as they finally went indoors , where the heater was on . though he’s trained to always remove his coat once inside ever since he was taken into the clan by his mentor as a sign of respect , already folding the article of clothing up neatly for it to be put away before he can think about it , he’s regretting his decision soon enough , trying to hide the faint trembling of his fingers from the cold until the other men leave them to their own devices .

His cheeks are pink with the remnants of the angry cold outside, the entirety of him slowly shaking away the freeze, fingers tingling under the touch of warmth. He takes off his coat and one of his men is there to pick it up from him, before they all file out of the room, one by one, at his curt words. His hand goes to undo the button of his suit jacket and he turns on his heels, gaze settling, with a shimmer of surprise, on Fuyumi.

"Ah, I did not realise you were still here," he breathes and his lips quirk upwards imperceptibly. "Would you like to have dinner together?" he asks, the warmth of the room settling inside him - or perhaps it is the way Fuyumi looks right now, melted snowflakes in his hair, shoulders gently lifted as if the wind from the outside is still chasing him. A soft furrow comes to his brows and he nears the other man, watching his expression and posture.

"You are aware we do have blankets in the house, correct?" he says and, if one were to listen close enough, they might find a tilt of amusement in his voice.

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❣ Ethan

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Pros:

This man feels like stability ugh He is reliable, calm, relaxed and he likes when people depend on him. He will pack your lunch for work for you, he will make sure to pick up milk and toilet paper on his way home and he will never leave you waiting, because he's early as hell and you can guarantee he will do what he said he would.

He is gentle and loving, but not in a suffocating way necessarily. Rather, his type of love is quietly intense and laid back at the same time. When he looks at you, you will feel it for real. But he won't make a big deal out of it in public and he's not necessarily into big gestures or public displays of affection. Rather, he will graze his hand against yours and give you a look and a smile, and you can literally see into his soul ugh I find that so attractive lol

He does commitment right - if that's what you're looking for, he's more than happy to build a life with you. He wants that... He wants to wake up to you every day, he likes knowing he's coming home to you.

Bonus one, but he's active and so talented on the ice and he will literally put on shows for you ugh

Cons:

Not as spontenous as he could be, which is not everyone's cup of coffee. He likes his habits and comforts and he likes the people in his life and it takes him a while to make space for new things or new people. This also might translate into dating and the fact that he might take a while to warm up.

He can be broody and negative or even moody and low sometimes. Definitely can be jealous and possessive and combined with his hang ups around losing people or things not working out and you can get pretty nasty behaviour out of him.

He's not a talker... He doesn't talk about his feelings much, just keeps everything inside until he crumbles... You'd think that with the fact he's been in therapy he would have an easier time with it, but he hates being seen as weak or feeling inadequate, so he just... Tends to ignore things until they're too big to ignore.

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❣ jaume, valentin, and roger (if ur up for that)

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Pros:

Very generous and adventurous - there is rarely a truly boring moment with him, he's always up for something that gives him an adrenaline fix. And he has the wealth to back up his impulsivity - you could be waking up in one country and by dinner you'll be in a completely different one lol

He is... Hot. Not just physically, although he is a gym rat and he does look entirely too good for his personality lol But in the way he can act sometimes, he is dominant, ambitious and works tirelessly to get what he wants. Very determined and his stubborness can be both frustrating and endearing. When he pours his energy into you, you really feel like this man is unstoppable and it's almost intoxicating to be wanted by him.

His capacity to be loving and soft and protective is hidden, but it's there - if you manage to get him addicted, there is this side to him that is intensely romantic. He will shower you in gifts, he will make sure you have the best sex of your life and he will treat you like you deserve the world and he is ready to give it to you ugh

Cons:

Sincerely... Some of the above apply lol He is a stubborn ass, he is arrogant because he knows he's hot and rich, he is impulsive and has a short temper that always gets the better of him, his dominance easily turns to being rude and domineering and even violent.

He is closed off and runs away from committment - he doesn't really 'date', he just happens to fall into patterns with people lol He doesn't do relationships, not like that... And he kinda ruthless, he doesn't care if you have feelings, he will leave your ass oop lol

He genuinely looks down upon on people which is one of his most unattractive attributes - there is no reason for him to be such a dickhead, but he is lol

Pros:

Incredibly smart and charming - he could genuinely dazzle even inanimate objects lol He is a great conversationalist and talking to him is always exciting. His mind moves fast and he has a beautiful vocabulary and those things make him a genuinely fun person to have as part of a conversation.

There is a poeticism to how he loves - he loves people like they were created especially for him, definitely the type to believe in soulmates when he meets someone he falls for. He worships and turns the whole act of courtship into something that feels almost like magic. Even in building habits or doing 'boring' things with you, he finds flair - it is quite a spectacle!

He will memorise every part of you and remember every interaction, every contour of your body, every word you ever say - he is incredibly attentive with his partners and he pours his entire being into being with you, filled with so much passion and need and want it feels almost suffocating.

Cons:

Ha... Good luck getting him to ever date anyone lol He is indescribably heart broken - actually, broken in general lol He doesn't trust love, he doesn't seek it, it hurts... So he keeps things light, because he never wants to experience the loss of love again.

He is generally cold and cerebral and sometimes even cruelly detached - he can put on a mask quite easily and he knows how to diplomatically exit all manners of situations. He also knows how to hurt people... That brain of his, all the attention he can pour into people, all the things he's memorised about you... Yeah, he is the type of guy that will say something so devastating while wearing a tight-lipped smile...

He is a lot to handle - a lot of insecurities, a lot of trauma, a lot of contradictions, a lot of wonder and beauty and yeah... If you're lucky, you will feel grounding to him, slowing him down. If not, he will take you down with you...

Pros:

Oh my fucking god, everything lol I'm kidding, but Roger is genuinely one of the warmest, kindest people you'll ever meet. He is generous and gentle, but also exciting in a sense, built for thrill and sensuality at the same time. He loves like he does everything else, with so much zeal and passion he can shatter your entire world before putting it back together a hundred times better than it was.

He is such a romantic - if you want someone that always seeks your touch, someone that will love you unconditionally, love you like he can't breathe without you... Look no further, this is the man for you lol He is vocal about his love and he will make you feel like you're in a romance book! There is no lengths this man wouldn't go to to please his partners - truly such a pleaser (wink wink) lol

He is confident, attractive, charming, but at the same time there is a disarming earnestness about him... Sure, he can dazzle the entire world with a smile, but when he smiles at you, it's different. He can withstand hundreds of journalists and make everyone pine after him with a few words - but he will be tongue-tied around you and he will stumble over his words, because he still can't believe how lucky he is to get to talk to you! He's very loyal like that ugh

Cons:

Too stubborn for his own good, sometimes. When he sees a challenge, he can't help himself, he wants to conquer it - not always the most helpful trait to have, although it's served him well in his career.

He is a bit... Not realistic? Lol His feet are not entirely planted on planet Earth, his upbringing and current life a tad unconventional. He doesn't like things to be pointed out and it's easy to hurt his ego by mentioning that it's a bit ridiculous that he believes he can jump the queue sometimes or doesn't fully know how to do his taxes or budget... If you're with him, you need to understand his life style comes with him. That includes a lot of travel, a lot of fans and press and generally what being in the public eye gets you.

He is jealous and possessive. He doesn't really confront you about it, however, he sulks lol The sulking is honestly one of his most annoying traits... One second he is sunny and affable and loving and the next you're meeting a glacial shoulder and curt words and a slightly arrogant, annoying, petulant child lol I truly wish it on no one lol

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❣ ace, steve, and anton

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Pros:

He is very supportive and enouraging - he will always be there to support you when you need it and cheer you on as you're following your passions!

He can play guitar and dance quite well, so you can expect him to be serenading you or slow dance with you - definitely a romantic!

He is physically strong and doesn't tire easily (wink wink) - this man can help you move and he will carry you to bed when you fall asleep with him on the couch, regardless of how tall you are or how much you weigh - he's built for farm work loool

Cons:

It doesn't take much to break his trust - lie to him once, even innocently, and he will be having a whole identity crisis about y'all relationship lol

He tries to please everyone, which is impossible so sometimes he burns himself out trying or he gets overwhelmed, sometimes at the detriment of his romantic relationships.

You can't just hit it and leave it with him... If he thinks you're only interested in a one night stand, he will be disappointed and even bitter.

Pros:

SO charming and loving - he will kiss the ground you walk on and look good doing it lol He does wonders for people's confidence and he genuinely sees his partners as otherwordly and wants them to feel cared for!

Smart and attentive, it's genuinely fun to be around him. He can talk about a range of subjects and will always have an interest in your passions and share his with you. He also picks up on small things easily and uses them to surprise you, like oh, you mentioned you wanted to buy a particular book on a random Tuesday? Yeah, expect him to gift you it out of nowhere, complete with a personal note from him lol

He's ambitious and passionate, but also prioritises his partner's comfort and loves communication, so you get the best of both worlds haha He never assumes you're on board with something and that carries to the bedroom, where he definitely puts your pleasure above his own - we love a man who listens ugh

He loves building habits with you - he can be domestic to a fault and loves nothing else than feeling his partner is fully part of his life ;;

Cons:

He is in the public eye, but he's also quite private as a person, which can be hard to navigate if you're not used to it.

He gets frustrated and can be moody and even have a short temper - he requires patience and support and someone who can pull him away from work and the daily crushing feeling of overwhelming responsibility he carries...

He doesn't date easily... He needs to be friends with the other person to begin with, but then you add the fact that he chooses the people around him very carefully and the fact he's always so busy and yeah... He's tough to date lol

Pros:

Get you a French man who can cook - YOU KNOW that food is fucking stellar lol In all seriousness, cooking is definitely one of his love languages. If you have a sweet tooth, that's even better - let him bake you to bliss!

He is impulsive, but in a fun way! He will surprise you with gifts, travel, romantic gestures - if you think you know what to expect out of him, think again lol

He is truly a romantic at heart and if you get him invested, he is incredibly gentle and loving, despite the appearances. He is also very protective and will burn the whole world down, if that will make you smile.

Cons:

Girl... He's a CRIMINAL. The likelihood of you being unsafe while with him is very low, but do you really wanna bother with his duplicitous, gang boss ass?

He doesn't trust people. You won't get his name, you won't get to know him past what he feels like is safe to reveal. If you do, it's because he thinks you're everything to him and at that point, there is absolutely no way you can have a normal life lol

He can be very calculated and cold and, honestly, his consciousness is nowhere near clean. You have to be prepared for the reality that he is not just this artsy French guy who bakes - he might kill people, he might engage in torture, he might show up in the middle of the night smelling like sweat, gunpowder and blood. And you have to be okay with that...

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❣ ace

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Pros:

I hate to start this way, but come on... One of the definite pros is that he's exceptionally good in bed lol He's a passionate, loving, caring partner, but there can also be this quiet intensity and domineering vibe to him.

He's quite domestic and always wants to make his partners comfortable - he loves people completely, so them being taken care of is very important.

Incredibly loyal - he would never ever think about cheating on you, lying to you or anything like that. There is an implicit promise he makes and it's one that he intends to keep.

He's very handy! Legit will fix your entire house, help you paint, carry heavy things around the house and generally tinker with things to make your life better lol Also, if you like vintage stuff, he's good at fixing old stuff ;)

Cons:

Biggest one is that he's not honest with his parents about his sexuality, so that might put people off...

Can be a bit shy and oblivious, so him making a move is so slow... He is just a big himbo, deep inside lol This might also translate to not always speaking his mind, he is very much a people pleaser and doesn't get into conflicts.

Despite his work and what people might think of the lifestyle of a porn actor, he's actually a bit boring. Much more of a homebody than the partying type. Don't expect too much adventure from this guy, unless we're talking about exploring some hiking trail nearby lol

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❣ akari

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Pros:

Truly a gentleman - he treats people right, his love languages being giving gifts and acts of service. He is gentle in his nature, quite caring and loving, despite the facade he puts up lol

You can always count on him to have recommendations for restaurants to go to, books to read, plays to see etc. He's versed in a lot of things, so he is rarely truly boring.

Very stable - he's a dependable provider, he feels rock solid and wants to be a place of calm for his partners. He will always be there for you, regardless of what it is.

He is incredibly loyal, the settling down type, so if that's what you're looking for, he's ready to marry you lol Even if marriage is not in the cards, Akari is the type to dedicate himself fully to a person. He also works pretty relentlessly on his relationship - he's not the type of man to think that just because he's got you, the work is done. He is the type of man that even after being together for decades still brings you flowers for every date night that he's scheduled in both your calendars weeks ahead cause he's a planner lol

Cons:

Incredibly high standards, both for himself and for other people - I wouldn't want to call him picky, necessarily lol It's more so that if he is to invest time in a relationship, he wants to make sure it's definitely worth it and that the other person is the right one for him.

Always fucking busy... This man doesn't take breaks!! He will try to make time for you, but he also needs you to understand he has a demanding career. He can't go on vacation whenever you want him to, he can't 'leave work early' or whatever... He needs planning to make it work, but he will put in the effort.

Not a good cook... Don't expect romantic dinners cooked by himself lol

He takes himself a bit too seriously sometimes - sure, he can have a laugh and some fun, but things are usually on his terms and uh yeah, you better not embarrass him in public lol

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❣ jack pls

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Pros:

Loyal to a fault and holds his partners in high regard, like once he's committeed he's committed.

He is quite honest and direct - he'll never lie to you, hide things, try to sugarcoat things, you can always expect him to tell it to you straight.

He is very protective of the people he cares about - he will get angry and fight the entire world on your behalf if he needs to lol

Exciting as a partner, but equally stable - he is rebellious and a tad adventurous by nature so yeah, he might convince you to get a tattoo or he might get a tattoo of your face/name on his body when he's had a drink, but he also appreciates domestic bliss and acts of service is truly his love language ;;

Cons:

He has very strong convictions and if there's no shared ground or if he can't share his mind or his opinions, that puts him off and he bails.

He really doesn't think he's anything special, which translates into him needing reassurance to know he's a good guy and he is cared for.

Can be quite closed off to begin with and there are parts of him he doesn't let people see - they are painful and ugly...

Despite the fact that he's worked through a lot of his issues, the reality is that he still struggles with anger and despression - he can be ruthless without realising it and has the capacity to hurt people, unintentionally, which is usually followed by guilt and depressive spirals. Because of that, he might avoid things that trigger him and, while he can be open about some things, he might have a hard time expressing all his feelings.

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ind. sel. low-activity multimuse ft canon & original characters from different medias as scripted by GENIE / 27 nav. / ask. promo done by the amazing @740th

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🎄  ─  decorate a christmas tree together Emery and the family because I die

🍎 ｡:*• ─ IT’S CHRISTMAS TIME ! 

Mason has been unable to stop smiling the entire day and, despite the fact that his cheeks quite literally hurt, he will take the ache if it means he can spend every Christmas like this. It started with a very valiant attempt from Emery to put up lights all over the outside of his imperfect house and they had a small scare when the man slipped on a piece of roof that just decided to fall away. All was saved by hot chocolate made by Mason which they drank together as they admired Emery's beautiful handiwork. If Santa wanted to find them, they would not be missed - the sheer brightness of those lights once turned on would be enough to blind Santa, honestly.

They turned inside to finish up a few things for Christmas dinner with Benjamin overeager and wanting to taste everything. By the time dinner rolled around, they almost finished an entire puzzle and, if not for a few missing pieces, they would had the entire effect of the picture of a penguin riding a reindeer. Mason is pretty sure that's not accurate to real life, but he's not about to ruin the magic.

The last thing left on their loose to-do list is the Christmas tree and the decorations are a patchwork of things. Some of them are from his parents, beautiful baubles and ancient Christmas lights, other they are gathered over the years by Mason, like the silver tinsel that has definitely seen better years. This year, however, they have added to their collection Emery's own decorations, some of them silly like five ginger-bread men (he lost the sixth, apparently) made out of felt and stitched intricately to resemble the iconic cookies.

Mason watches as Benjie chuckles in surprise every time Emery lifts him to put yet another matchless decoration in their tall tree, fondness taking over his chest at the image of the two laughing and conspiring and pretending the position of this bauble or this piece of tinsel is essential to the final look of the tree. He brings around more hot chocolate for the men hard at work and hangs back, simply enjoying how comfortable Benjie is around Emery and how the man sometimes gives him a warm, almost emotional smile. When Emery confessed he never really did Christmas properly, Mason wanted to make sure the man would get to experience it with them - the full nine yards, the cookie decorating and the Christmas tree and the eggnog.

With a final star placed atop the tree, the two inspect their work and Mason chuckles under his breath when he watches Benjamin mimic Emery's stance by placing his hands on his hips. He has been doing that a fair bit lately, Emery being his son's personal hero.

"I'll get the lights," Mason offers, placing his cup of hot chocolate on the table, before getting up to turn off the other light. Kneeling on one knee, Emery plugs in the tree lights and the whole thing comes alive all of a sudden, an avalanche of colour, shimmering haphazardly.

"Wow," Mason says, smiling, joining the two in admiring their work because... While it doesn't and it will never look like those elegant trees in shop fronts or magazines, it's everything Mason would ever want. It's a beautiful expression of their histories, both apart and now together, and it makes Mason soften with affection. He can feel an arm wrapping around his shoulders and he leans into the warmth of Emery, not realising he has gotten so emotional as to actually tear up, but he is quick to bury his blushing face against Emery's shoulder.

"Sorry, it's just... Really nice," he says and Emery bends to pick up Benjie who is quick to give his father a hug and an excited grin.

"It's the best tree ever, dad!" he declares, before turning towards the tree again, watching mesmerised at the lights move and shift.

"Thank you," Mason whispers against Emery's jaw, placing a kiss there and meeting his gaze, before turning to stare at the tree again.

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💋 ─ be caught standing under the mistletoe // is hana & anton still a thing or ... 👉👈

🍎 ｡:*• ─ IT’S CHRISTMAS TIME ! 

Anton can't help but smile as he watches Hana's frustrated expression - dicing onions still gives him a little trouble, yet he has made strides in conquering the skill. There's a small pout on his lips that Anton simply wants to kiss away. He slowly comes up from behind the other man, hands covering Hana's as his lips gently place a kiss against his nape.

"Like this, yeah?" he whispers as he guides Hana's hands with slow movements. The sound of the knife hitting the board is the only thing disturbing the silence and Anton loves moments like this, when he can focus on every small detail about Hana, from the way he breathes to how he has that look of intense focus in his eyes. As soon as the onion is done, Anton put the knife away on the board, earning a curious gaze from Hana as he looks over his shoulder at him. A playful smile curls Frenchie's lips and he gently pulls Hana away from the cutting board and towards the door of the kitchen, where he lets the man turn around, a chuckle sitting in Hana's chest, still not knowing what game Anton is playing.

"Ah, look at that, what a coincidence," Anton grins, finger pointing above them towards the mistletoe he put up just to have an opportunity to do this. Hana starts chuckling, but Anton silences his mirth with a kiss, which is welcomed by the other man with a small whimper. Hands make their way into Anton's hair and he pulls Hana closer, uncaring that his tresses will smell like onion for days and that they still have plenty of steps to get through to finish up Christmas dinner.

[ambivalent-auguries]

🌟  ─  drive around the city to see the christmas lights // yamato & fuyumi

🍎 ｡:*• ─ IT’S CHRISTMAS TIME ! 

The sharp shapes of the city are softened by plush, thick blankets of snow that have been thrown across the landscape. Yamato would usually not be driving, but he wants to share this only with his right hand man and there is a secret desire growing in his chest to watch Fuyumi take in the lights adorning the city. All of them twinkle softly, a glow encasing the streets as they drive through them. Without a word, he takes a slight detour and he can see the curiosity filled gaze of the other man, yet Fuyumi doesn't question him, an implicit trust built in their relationship.

Yamato parks the car along a quiet road and turns to Fuyumi with a small smile:

"Shall we explore on foot?" he says, and he doesn't need to even ask, truly. Fuyumi is already unbuckling his seat belt, a certain excitement in his expression. Yamato joins him and they slowly make their way towards a few steps which they climb. As they do, the destination Yamato had in mind comes into view and soon they are stood before an enormous Christmas tree.

"I thought you might want to see it," he says in a low tone as he watches Fuyumi's expression basking in the light radiating from the Christmas tree. Yamato can't help but think he is gorgeous, his features softened further by the shadows and the beautiful glow of the Christmas lights and the affection he sees settling in the lines of Fuyumi's face are enough to make Yamato a tad breathless. He has to force himself to turn his gaze back to the tree and they stand close to each other, watching the lights twinkle in and out of existence, going through their intricate sequence.

Under the guise of the darkness, Yamato's warm fingers reach for Fuyumi's slightly cold ones and he lets his hand encase the man's, silently, basking in the glimmering light and enjoying the feeling of warmth that settles in his chest.