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A good blog about self development and improvement. Share worthy

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“Cancer are sensitive not only with people they know, but with complete strangers as well. Cancer hates the idea of hurting people and when they hurt a stranger, it haunts them that they will never know the extent of the outcome of their actions.”

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Can anyone explain inktober exactly to me?

Ignore the profile my eight year old keeps taking over.

I haven't drawn in years. Little dabs of.art or crafts here and there. I started sketching and drawing but need to get consistent. Years out the game due to personal and never going anywhere further than two year college art classes. It is semi overwhelming in where to even start.

I started with a bullet journal. Now opening the sketch book.

Having hard time being consistent and finishing.

Any advice?

Comments?

Ideas to start?

I feel stuck with child like art.

Sorry for the photos not being so great I want to share an honest take of struggles.

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It’s okay to leave a friend if they become toxic, even if that friend is mentally ill

Yes it is! and before you judge or scream at me or do your ‘I disagree Tumblr’ thing hear me out

As a mentally ill person who is in the process of finding the right meds, getting diagnosed, and recovering from alcohol/drugs, I was and can still be toxic as hell. Before I realized that I had mental issues, I was a manipulative person, I made people feel bad for me just so I would get attention. And when they didn’t give me attention I would start complaining to them about how depressed I was and how they are leaving me, and that made them stay. Then slowly people started leaving me and I still didn’t accept I had mental/addiction issues. So I became even more toxic, clingy, and demanding.

I didn’t realize that, while I was demanding help from others, I was also causing mental harm to them at the same time. I was demanding they fix me, be with me, hug me when I needed it but I would not do the same back. I was to self absorbed and I wasn’t even trying to seek help. I made no effort to see a psych, get on meds, get a therapist but I still demanded they fix me.

Then they left. And I was devastated, they just blocked me and didn’t say anything. So I kept finding ways to contact them, which drove them further. I still didn’t try to find help myself until my very last friend ‘abandoned’ me. Then I was forced to open my eyes. I was toxic. I was manipulative. And I wasn’t a good friend.

It was hard, but I accepted that I was toxic, I started getting help.I got a psych, a therapist, meds, stopped drinking/getting high. I am still alone, but I can see they still care. They just want me to be mentally stable before they come back just in case I relapse and become toxic again. I hurt their mental health and caused a relapse in a friend struggling with mental health. So I accepted my isolation and am getting help.

yes, it sucks. And I hurt so bad I just want to text them and hug them and be with them. But I am thankful they left. I wouldn’t have realized that I needed help, or taken action to get help, if they didn’t leave me. I also realize that, for their own mental health, they had to leave or they would have mental health problems.

As much as it sucks, they have a right to leave if you are toxic, even if you dont realize it yet. It isn’t mean, it isn’t unfair, it is for their health to. Try to remember that sometimes people leave because their mental health is also important and caring for someone is mentally draining.

They will come back. They still care. They just need distance for both of your recoveries.

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Drugstore alternatives!

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“Measure your success only by what truly matters: your happiness and the happiness you bring to others. If today you laughed, felt inspired, or consoled a friend, smiled to a stranger, stood for a cause or inched closer to one of your dreams, then today was a resounding success.” - Beau Taplin • A  R e s o u n d i n g  S u c c e s s via

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“Scary, isn’t it? But what wonderful thing didn’t start out scary?” - Isaac Marion (via quotemadness)

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How supportive of you bob

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Hulk got pretty extra these days yassss ✨🔝

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I’m going to embrace this energy

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Maxine Sarah has a traditional art feel that reminds me of tattoos and old traditional American tattoos.

He uses simple drawings to present powerful messages

Amazing