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best m/f dynamic is a flamboyant bisexual show-off desperately in love with an extremely practical girl who’s difficult to impress 🤩

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the whole chi cheng x guo cheng yu dynamic is so delicious to me (and us all, of course) specifically because i don't think they should or will end up romantically together, just the two of them. like they have their person right now. it's finally happened where they've snagged someone that makes them better versions of themselves. does that negate the devotion they have for each other? does that negate the charge that passes back and forth between them throughout their formative years, their bff break-up, their reunion? NO.

chi cheng saying that guo cheng yu is the most important person to him while in a long-term relationship with his then-boyfriend doesn't have to mean they've been pining for each other all along and have been lying to their new beaus. it doesn't have to mean they are actually the ones meant to be the endgame couple. which is what you'd expect from a lot of romantic media with a reveal like this.

you can kiss your friends!! you can experiment with and fuck your friends!!! and that could still mean that you are not meant to be partners.

the possibilities? the touches and moments between them that weren't caught on video? endless, limitless, and delicious. they can be important to each other, the devotion can be there and be complicated but it's so much more interesting for them to accept the weight of those feelings AND pursue wu suo wei and jiang xiao shuai genuinely, without the bond between them being an obstacle (to them, at least).

in other words, poly, of course, but also childhood into adulthood friendships would be weird if there WEREN'T something more serious hiding underneath to the uninitiated.

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And there it is. The truth finally revealed.

No, Guo Cheng Yu never really slept with Wang Shuo. And easily could have cleared his name. But imo, whatever vague reason he's stating for not telling Chi Cheng, he did it FOR him, as I already insinuated earlier. But it was not altruistic at all.

The little fucker was already scheming and lying. If not this stint, he'd make some other bullshit, because he couldn't take the closeness between the Schrödinger lovers. Or the utmost importance they had in each other's lives. Above all and everyone else, and yes, above his jealous, possessive ass, too. It was only a matter of time, and Chengyu knew it. The break up was imminent and unavoidable.

So he made sure to provide Chi Cheng with an outlet for his anger and frustration. WS was gone - there was no other to direct those emotions at. So Chengyu decided to be that for Chi Cheng. Because, after all, Chi Cheng was also the one he loved the most, just like the other admitted earlier.

They are inseparable. Not even that apparent "betrayal" was enough to break them apart. So GCY simply decided to play the long (long, LONG) game - and be there for Chi Cheng, and help him however he can, with whatever he needs - to punch, to hurt, to snarl, to hit, to get back over and over - anything to help alleviate the pain.

And he never allowed himself to move on either. Talk about "we are in this together". All the boytoys were just tools in his scheme, and they were all for Chi Cheng. Only when he saw Chi Cheng falling for Da Bao did he allow himself to fall (and he fell HARD and HOPELESS) for Xiaoshuai. Sure, he pointed out the lovely, kind, and humane personality that has bewitched him. But had Chi Cheng not moved on, the kind and sweet doctor would have been thrown in the chipper. Because he did like hi, from the start. But Chi Cheng would still have come on top.

Now, when they both have FINALLY people important enough to prioritize, probably not. But back then? Oh, the sweet doctor was gonna turn into shark food, no matter what.

There was no way for Guo Chengyu to ever fall in love until he had to make the regular sacrifices to the altar of the angry and hurt deity he was serving. So he didn't.

And for SIX YEARS he was sharing Chi Cheng's misery, channeling it however he could, and NOT. LETTING. GO. of Chi Cheng, come hell or high water.

But why not telling the truth, and just being there for Chi Cheng, then? Wouldn't that be healthier? Sure, if you communicate normally, which they don't, because the things between them exist, but are not verbalized.

But most importantly, he couldn't, because as it is, it seems that this betrayal was a one time deal. One mistake. Do you condemn your most beloved for one betrayal, however major? Not if it's Chengyu, who is ready to devote his entire existence to repenting for it. For however long it takes. YEARS. Chi Cheng probably thought he can hurt GCY back enough for him to let go. He was so, so mistaken. GCY literally turned himself into a whipping boy to ensure Chi Cheng won't let him go.

But why, why not just clear his name, and remain there for Chi Cheng even without proper communication?

Because Guo Chengyu wasn't just part of the problem. He was, essentially, the problem. The love Chi Cheng has for him IS the reason the unstable little fucker went berserk and insane with jealousy. So if GCY were to let Chi Cheng realize that was NOT a one time mistake, that was NOT just a single bad decision when drunk - but a SISTEMIC, EVER PRESENT issue - what then?

What if Chi Cheng were to decide to fix the issue radically, and try to break them up, and separate himself from Guo Chenguy? So that his next lover won't have this presence that always remains above - literally, and figuratively?

That could not do. So he did what he had to do. He stayed, and took the blame, and took the hurt Chi Cheng would liberally inflict, making sure Chi Cheng "wins" every time, and always has the upper hand, as long as they were still together.

And who knows? Hatred might turn back to love, given enough time, an piling enough sacrifices. And as I said before, nobody - NOBODY - beats Guo Chengyu at the waiting game. And Chi Cheng didn't let up either. As I said, truly the unstoppable force meeting the immovable object.

And, as we saw, Guo Chengyu was right. It took six years, but he won, and won all the fucking places. He kept his relationship with Chi Cheng. He saw him move on. He got to the point where he was allowed, too.

And now he has Jiang Xiaoshuai, who he doesn't have to sacrifice to Chi Cheng. And he has Chi Cheng too, who he doesn't have to sacrifice to the risk of being removed for presenting a level of importance in Chi Cheng's life that's hard to accept for most people.

True Queen's Gambit indeed. Absolutely masterfully executed.

(In chess, the Queen's Gambit is an opening where White sacrifices a pawn (c-pawn) to gain control of the center of the board. It's called a "gambit" because it involves a calculated sacrifice to gain a strategic advantage.)

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I feel like we're almost in an era of like, reverse queerbaiting. Used to be that you'd be tricked into watching a show because the story implied there'd be gay rep, but now they're using gay rep to trick you into thinking there'll be a story.

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every time you leave the house w some aspect of your physical appearance challenging norms but honoring yourself, you get a little firmer in your conviction that you have the right to exist and be a body however tf you want

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I get no notes because as soon as someone finishes reading my post they are compelled to put down their phone and experience the wonders of the world around them with fresh eyes

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since it's hard to find aro flags at pride I made my own flag this year

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if someone is talking about how much they love their parents do not jump in and start venting about your issues with your parents. if someone is venting about their issues with their parents do not jump in and start talking about how much you love your parents. peace and love amen swag city

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Some of you think feminity is a lack of masculinity and it shows

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probably the biggest humbling realisation you could have growing up is that, most of your thoughts don't make you more superior or cooler. they just make you you.

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sometimes being aromantic means being a ball of resentment. because what i am if not my endurance. not a singer, or a dancer or a talker. not a looker, not even looking. waiting to meet someone, anyone the least bit like me. fulfilling the designation of being a social creature in all ways except the most sought after. a chill, cool personality but not fun. not that cool when you think about it. not out because I don't want to weird anyone out. not out because I don't want to shut anyone out. I wish I could scream it out so someone would come running to me from behind the hundreds walking with phones in their faces. being aplatonic means collecting trash by the shore. awaiting a cold splash from head to toe every day you wake up.

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“If you’re worried about the financial difficulties that come with being nonpartnering, you could always just get married platonically for tax benefits!” Respectfully, I would rather Saw (2004) my own foot off than be married, and the fact that the state uses legal and financial incentives to promote monogamous romantic relationships to the public is not enticing to me but is, in fact, an active deterrent to me. I won’t fault anyone for trying to game the system to get by, but I have no interest in feigning alloromanticism or romance favorability to gain the benefits that may come with the government giving its stamp of approval on my personal relationships.

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Arguments with your mom can never just be about one thing it always has to be about your entire life and her parents and your siblings n shit under the guise of like, somebody needing to do the dishes

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Biiiiig fan of the whole 'Just 3 old friends getting together to drink and reminisce about the past because we're all capital F Fine' thing where they joke about their weird tangled relationships and brush off the cheating thing and laugh about childhood trauma and get stumbling-drunk and have more physical contact than they've had with each other in years and laugh some more and then say goodbye and part as Old Friends who are FINE and then everyone's face changes as soon as they're out of sight of the others.

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discourse from the year 2043: getting a song stuck in your head is immoral because it takes money away from the artists that would get paid if you were actually listening to it

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we smoking nothing. we have nothing