aleysha-andbrayden

[aleysha-andbrayden]

yep so here is the deal

there is no reason for me to have this anymore. no one talks to me anymore i just post shit for no reason what so ever. soooo this is the last post i will ever be posting again...not like you guys care but any who that is the deal.

aleysha and brayden will be going bye bye forever at 10 pm tonight. 1 more hour

[aleysha-andbrayden]

and just when i thought things were going to finally let up

Hahaha damn was i wrong can i just tell you how poor i am i work 2 days a week i make barley $70 for those 2 days i also am suppose to receive $70 each week for child support, which i have not gotten yet 2 weeks later. My car is on its last leg wouldn't doubt if it doesn't make it through november. My phone doesn't work either it freezes my screen doesn't work it certain sections i also wouldn't be surprised if this doesn't make it to the end of the month. I don't have the $ to fix my car for when it breaks i also dont have $ for a new one and same with my phone. When my car breaks i am so fucked it isn't even funny i have no way to school no way to work no way to anything. Also i have applied every where and no one ia hiring or if they are they aren't interested in me. The hours i go to school have fucked me over when it comes to jobs. I am $10,000 in debt i can barley afford food in my stomach and gas in my car. Thankfully Brayden has everything he needs thanks to wic and reusable diapers. But it's coming time for he needs new clothes and i can't afford to buy any. I can't afford any my weekly spending total is almost $300 because i have so many bills and past due bills. That's $1200 a month i make $280 a month and i cannot find any where to work name it i have been there and applied. I am on my last leg i was driving home from school yesterday contemplating if i should just go head first into a tree or telephone pole because i am clearly doing no one any good. I am a failure of a mother i hate school i am not doing good what so ever i barley have a job and I'm not even making ends meets. I could just sign Bray all over to my mother and he would be all set for life because I'm not doing anything good for him. I am barley home because i go to school everyday. He barley even notices me when i come home, he obviously is attached to my mother so what good is it that i am around he doesn't even notice me. One more bad thing comes my way and i think that just may be it because i cannot do this anymore. Nothing but bad news ever comes my way and you know what they say god makes life hard for those who can handle it well you know what that is the most fucked up thing i have ever heard. I think people who's lives are nothing but bad and difficult should get a break every so often because if i don't get one sooner than later then it's just going to be to late and i will be gone. No one needs me not even my son 3

[aleysha-andbrayden]

i really want to change majors and major in business and then i want to go to bar tending school. i don't know if it's smart but it is something i have always wanted to do and majoring in radiology kind of really sucks.

[aleysha-andbrayden]

is there no one who can handle all of this?

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story of my life #butidontmind #usetoit #unfortunatley #brayden #screamingbaby #nosleep

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after math of lunch time #messyboy #blueeyes #mommyslove #mommasboy #cutie #fivemonths #brayden #instacutie #instababy

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growing up too fast #littleman #sobig #brayden #son #child #fivemonths #mommy #mommasboy #family #moose #instababy #instacutie

[aleysha-andbrayden]

praying the saying "like father like son" is highly over exagerated

and "like mother like son" is a total impossibility -__-

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oh no its ok brayden momy so totally planned to only get a few hours of sleep I love the teething stage, said no parent ever my child is miserable. teething jell every 15 or so minutes motrin every 6 aw yeah so much fun. I should just bring him to his father's and say here you go you go...but nope unfortunately I cannot...well I could be idk how it would go.

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#nailsdid #glittery #instanails #thankyou @sammi_babi08

[aleysha-andbrayden]

oh yeah, and i almost died not once today but twice. 10/19/12 something felt weird about today, and i did not like it. i had that feeling like my end is near, and these two near death experiences are signs that i can't keep dodging death.

shit that isn't good or what i wanted to be thinking of.

[aleysha-andbrayden]

time to just crawl into bed and stare blankly off into the darkness and pray something good in planning to come this way.

[aleysha-andbrayden]

jademk replied to your post: going to take a shower and ball my eyes out while the baby sleeps and no one is home.

I’m here if you wanna talk, hope you feel better after a good cry <3

i couldn't get a good cry out, i dont know why but i just can't cry i'll have like 2 tears and that's about it. so i still don't feel okay :/ and my car is shitting the bed so nothing is getting any better for me. and i don't have the money to get it fixed saying i just dished out $300 and there is still something wrong. and i sure as hell don't have the money for a new car saying this car isn't even paid off yet :/

[aleysha-andbrayden]

What happened between you and the baby's father if you don't mod explaining. Why II aren't together

no i don't mind explaining at all but be ready for a lengthy story. okay so chuck (braydens father) and i dated for 2 years and lived together since 6 months of dating. i was like a second mother to his two other children. him and i were going places in our relationship and i thought i had everything i ever would need. but then i got pregnant. things with him and i were ok at first he started acting a little weird when i told him but nothing that i took into consideration. but then a week after i told him he didn't come home from work one night and wasn't answering any of my phone calls or texts. so i called him one last final time left a message saying i was going to bed the door is unlocked and dinner was in the oven then i said good night love you, and fell asleep. well the next morning he wasn't home either and dinner was still in the oven so i know he didn't even come home. that last was the last time i heard from him, i came home after work to find him gone all my stuff on the front porch and the lock on the doors changed. he also changed his phone # i went many months without hearing from him until around december when he texted me on a new # stating the child was not his he wants nothing to do with it and i am dead to him. i never replied back to him and i never did reply back until bray was a month old letting him know that i was perusing child support and his son was born...no answer. i now have child support, chuck has all his rights to his son but he has yet to even meet him. he doesn't even reply to my texts and calls if i do try and contact him. i made a lot of effort for him to meet bray but he never replied back. so yeah that is the story between my son's father and i.

[aleysha-andbrayden]

Girl, my stomach is a mess after having my Nathaniel and my booty has weird looking strechmarks (closer to my lower back so the panties hide them at least) and they look like Cheetah spots. >

i know how you feel with the booty stretch marks, i call my ass the purple zebra. they're our well earned stripes :)

[aleysha-andbrayden]

brayden and auntie emily #throwbackthursday #tbt @emilyswatson555

[aleysha-andbrayden]

a nice #autumnday #qcc #nofilter