akireu-13

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Safe Zone, 2025. acrylic on card

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i just need to have more rules for myself. more rules and limits. surely that will help me

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in case you didn't know i'm proud of you. every single crumb of effort counts. i could never know the full picture of your suffering but i know the depths that psychological pain can reach, i'm pleading with you, hold onto yourself & live for as long as you can. whatever it takes

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“Hand me your hand, let me look in your eyes as my last chance to feel human begins to vaporize. Maybe it’s the heat in here, maybe it’s the pressure. You ought to head for the exits, the sooner the better.”

Autoclave by The Mountain Goats

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[transcript: 1. isn’t all that rage so ugly? and isn’t it mine, still? good god, isn’t it mine? 2. i hurt someone. and then one day, i suddenly have this thing that takes all that rage, and holds it, tells me it’s right, that it’s me. it didn’t stay in my leg because of some ghostly master plan. it stayed because i wanted it. 3. and i am this great unstable mass of blood and foam/and no emotion that’s worth having could call my heart its home. end transcript.]

ashe vernon//the magnus archives//the mountain goats

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" i am this great unstable

mass of blood and foam

and no emotion that's worth having

could call my heart its home "

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i had autoclave stuck in my head during the plane ride home so i just kinda rolled with it

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Oceanographer's Choice // The Mountain Goats

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from the housetops to the gutters, from the ocean to the shore

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I held onto you with a desperate strength

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game shows touch our lives - the mountain goats // unidentified man 3 - sarah charlesworth

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Game Shows Touch Our Lives, The Mountain Goats [x]

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buttered toast would be nice

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yoy all just hate me because I'm cold and distant and don't put effort into any relationships and off putting and frustrating to try to help or make plans with and I don't text and I don't call and I don't like doing much and I constantly make excuses for it all

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im so bad at maintaining online friendships!! im sorry to everyone i’ve had a lovely chat with but havent followed up with!! im a very isolating person and i still consider you my friend i promise !!!

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When will it be my turn to be put down like a sick dog