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THIS! So much this... ❤

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What it's like with severe anxiety and depression:

I'm so sorry for all of the things I haven't done. I swear I'm not just lazy and irresponsible. I just get so overwhelmed. I try so hard to overcome my anxiety, but it's crippling... If you take anything from this, please, let it be that I'm trying. I'm very aware of how little I have to show for it. I seem to never get anything done. Just please look a little closer. Take just one step in my shoes, and feel the weight of the anxiety and depression that paralyzes me. Be as amazed as I am that I haven't given up yet...

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I hate when I have to ask myself if I'm sick because of anxiety or actually sick...

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I enjoy watching anime. Inuyasha has always been a favorite of mine. ❤

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Is a werewolf's favorite animal a wolf? What if it were a cat?

That sounds like a great character for an anime... A werewolf boy who just absolutely adores kitty cats.

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When I get really upset, I sometimes feel physically ill.

 Does that happen to anyone else? I also have to stay away from negative energies or they begin to affect mine.

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Agoraphobia has taken over my life...

This is not who I thought I would grow up to be.

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This is Dexter, my little ham-ham. ❤

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My babies, Diablo(dog) and Nyx(cat).

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These are the furbabies I spend my days caring for. 

(Top to bottom)

 The black cat is Nyx. I named her after the Greek goddess of night. She’s 5 years old, and I’ve had her since she was a kitten. My friend and I rescued her from a bad situation. 

Same with the dog, Diablo, a miniature pinscher/chihuahua mix . A little over two years ago, that same friend was staying out in country with her ex, and the neighbor was going to shoot this poor, innocent, little dog because some of their chickens had been found dead. My friend wasn’t about to let this dog get shot by some heartless asshole. So, she scooped him up and was going to take him to the shelter, but she decided to stop by my place first to tell me what happened, and to see if I wanted him. I had just moved in with my boyfriend, who is now my husband, and his roommate. We had been thinking about getting a dog, which we would have adopted from the shelter, but we hadn’t gotten approval from our landlord yet. Upon hearing what he had just been through, we decided to take him in. The landlord also approved. Diablo has barely been away from me since he came here. He has separation anxiety, and when left alone in the house he gets into trash and litter boxes, and almost always urinates (even after being walked). We haven’t tried crate training, but I’m afraid it might be too late for that. So, this contributes to the many reasons why I’d rather not leave my home. 

Moving on, the tiny rodent is Dexter, the dwarf hamster. I named him after a character from the cartoon Hamtaro. I got him a few months ago. I had many hamsters and gerbils growing up, but the one dwarf hamster I had died 2 days after bringing him home from the pet store. I did lots of research this time around, and found out that was because we used cedar or pine bedding back then. That kind of bedding has chemicals in it that can make dwarf hamsters sick. I didn’t know any better as a child without the internet to use for reference, but I’m a pretty decent pet mom now. Dexter is happy and thriving. 

Finally, the tabby cat is Reba. She’s my brother’s cat; and no, he’s not a huge country fan. He’s a huge Phish fan. He named her after the Phish song, Reba, not Reba McEntire lol He adopted her shortly before he moved in with my husband and I. I guess technically she’s a rescue, too. She was a stray that my brother found. He took her in because she had been declawed, and he didn’t want her to have to fend for herself outside with no front claws. She’s his cat, but I make sure she’s taken care of when he’s at work. 

That’s what I do, since my agoraphobia keeps me from going out and working. They sure do keep me busy. I just thought I’d introduce them into my blog, because they are such a big part of my life.I’d like to have more pets, but our landlord says we’re at our maximum. Our house and yard is rather small. Someday, I’d like to get a big plot of land and have a farm. Pipe dreams... lol

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Yes, this too. I remember who I was before I was this mess of anxiety and depression, and I miss that. But that’’s just not me anymore, no matter how much I wish it was.

I wish people would understand that once you’re mentally ill, you will never be the same as you were before the illness. It is impossible to go back to feeling the exact way you were before, because it changes everything. People need to understand when I say I am doing better now, that doesn’t mean I am the same as I was before. I never will be. And that is okay.

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Yes, I feel this too. I also feel that no matter how hard I try, nothing I do is never enough. Because of my mental illness, I can’t work, and I just feel like a burden on my husband and my family.

reblog if you feel/think this way too :)

so i feel all this stuff and i just wanted to know if i was alone in these feelings or not. hey maybe if i’m not we could all start a lil support/friend group ? (please reblog or dm me if you feel/think any of these too) (also if y’all could explain why i feel/think this stuff that’d be great.)

• always feel like your friends and family hate your guts, even when they have no reason to and probably don’t actually hate you and actually love you very much

• feel like your thoughts are a bunch of strings that are easy to break and lose track of and are all tangled in a big ol knot

• overthink every single thing a person says about you, even if it’s positive

• always tired, no matter how much or how little you sleep, no matter how much caffeine you intake, you’re always exhausted and ready to sleep whenever and wherever

there’s probably more but my mind is pulling a blank right now 🙃

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I love foxes!

Big boop (🔊)

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This is my husband Damien and I. These pictures were taken on our wedding day. We got married on October 31st 2018, in the park where we first met in 2011. We had a gothic wedding on Halloween, and we celebrated our first anniversary this year. ❤

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I relate so much to this!

Fun Agoraphobia Things

- The rare occasion when you do try to make plans and the other person ignores you - School in general - Needing to get your hair cut but the people at the salon want to Talk - Yes netflix, of course I’m still watching this, what else would I be doing? - Getting paranoid every time someone messages you - Getting paranoid every time you message someone - Never answering other people’s messages, but panicking when someone doesn’t answer - *anybody laughs* Fuck what did I do now - Public restrooms? Funny. - When you don’t like the weather so there’s DOUBLE reason to not leave the house - When something bad is happening at your house so you have nowhere to go

Feel free to add your own!