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I’m scared.
my crush has a not so good home life.
and he has been acting weird.
somethings wrong
I’m scared.
(Note- my crush and I are really good friends)
#am i just crazy#crush quotes#i want to cry#worried#im going to regret posting this#im worried#why am i like this#im sorry#i love him#i need him#what do i do
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it’s freuking 10:36pm and every single thought on in my messed up loud mind is him.
Every single one. I can’t stop thinking about him
#heartbreak#i love him#i love you#please#love#heartache#love quotes#love of my life#help#why does this hurt so damn bad#i just want him#i just need him#but he doesnt need me#okay bye
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*whips*
Im in love with someone who doesn’t love me back
Im in love with someone I can’t have
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a break down of social anxiety bc it gives me a mental breakdown
i don’t think people comprehend social anxiety very well so I’m going to attempt to elaborate.
Social anxiety is not someone just being shy or petty or attempting to seem cute
It’s not some excuse to have other people do things for you or do get your own way
It is the overwhelming sense of fear and lies constantly swirling around in your mind
It is the feeling of anxious plaguing you to the point of being unable to certain tasks
It is not some shy innocent girl in a sweet little flower skirt
It is the inability to breathe and the feeling of your heart rate escalating
It is the feeling of not being able to breathe
I made a list of some of the weird things that social anxiety DOES do
⁃ hold on to a piece of trash for hours bc you don’t want to get up to throw it away bc people might look at you
⁃ waiting for someone else to turn in their test even if you are already don’t bc you don’t want people to notice
⁃ deny the offer of food or water bc you don’t want to seem like a bother
⁃ taking money out of your wallet before the cashier asks so you don’t have to hold up the line more than you already have
⁃ have difficulty ordering food, making appointments, and talking to ppl you don’t know bc you feel like you are going to screw it up or offend them even if it is just “can I get a to go box please?”
⁃ mentally rehearsing the word here in class or your order at a restaurant then getting thrown off if they ask you things you haven’t planned
⁃ hiding your fingertips or face in public
⁃ fidgeting
⁃ leg bouncing
⁃ editing the crap out of everything you say mentally
⁃ attaching yourself to people and not wanting to leave their sides at school, in class, or at social events bc you will feel uncomfortable with out someone
⁃ always having a crutch, ie a phone or necklace or book or something
⁃ over thinking mistakes that everyone else didn’t even notice
⁃ feeling off or tired even if u aren’t sick
⁃ have panic attacks
⁃ always think you are annoying the people you care abouts
⁃ fearing the everyone you care about secretly doesn’t like you
⁃ having irrational thoughts and doubts such as the above bc your brain tells you that all the time
⁃ n u m b n e s s
⁃ Not rlly trusting people and when you do you want to text them and talk to them a lot bc you like being around them
⁃ Not text them bc you feel rlly annoying
⁃ being seriously exhausted after social events and school
#anxietty#anxiety is through the roof#anxiety is the worst#am i just crazy#anxitey#anxious#social anxiety#mental health#me irl tbh#i might regret this#im so tired#i hate this#tbh#me tbh#ya yeet#so yeah#yeet#i need you
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*finger guns*
Today was my last Monday of school and I could not be more happy.
No more tests
Homework
Mid week break downs
Fake friends
Annoying projects
Stress bc of school
Anxiety bc of school
And it means I've completed another year
It is finally the end of school
#school#i hate this#yay#its over#im fine#please#im going to bed#im so tired#im sorry#im sad#anxiety is through the roof
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I TEXTED MY CRUSH
FROM 10:30 PM
TO 3AM
AND WE TALKED ABOUT EVERYTHING
WE PLAYED TWENTY QUESTIONS
WE TALKED ABOUT LOVE AND ROMANCE
ABOUT GIRLS IN YOGA LEGGINGS AND GUYS IN TIGHT WHITE TEE SHIRTS
WE TALKED ABOUT STORIES AND OUR FURTURES AND ALL OF THIS STUFF
WE GAVE EACH OTHER ROMANTIC ADVICE
WE TALKED FOR FREAKING EVER
AND HE HAD WORK THE NEXT DAY AND I SAID I COULD LET HIM GO TO BED AND HE STAYED UP TO TALK TO ME
UNTIL 3AM
EVEN THOUGH HE SAID HE HAS FEELINGS FOR SOMEONE ELSE
IN A WEIRD WAY IM OKAY
BC I LOVE HIM
AND I JUST WANT HIM TO BE HAPPY
AND SOMEONE IN AN REALLY ODD WAY
I FEEL LIKE I DONT NEED TO WORRY
BC WE WILL HAPPEN EVENTUALLY
MAYBE IDK
MAYBE I'M BEING NIEVE
IDC
UPDATE- HE HAD TO BE TO WORK AT FIVE AM. THAT MEANS HE HAD TO BE UP AT LIKE FOUR. HE BARELY GOT LIKE A HOUR OF SLEEP!
#love of my life#i love him#love#crush#crush quotes#crushes#texting#i need sleep#no regrets#happy#as long as he's safe#priorities#heartache#ily#okay bye#❤️
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I'm currently texting Grayson about our crushes. We are talking about how our crushes make us feel. Talking about how our crushes make us feel like nothing else we have ever experienced. His crush isn't me. Little does this idiot know I'm in love with him.
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sleep deprived me
Sleep deprived me posted that last post
I honestly don't regret it bc it felt so good to get it off of my chest Oml.
I love him.
The stupid.
The annoying.
The kind.
The funny.
The smart.
The sweet.
The protective.
The understanding.
I love every part of him.
Just FYI.
Hehehehe
#idk what this is#i need sleep#i need sleeeeeeeeep#no sleeep#cant sleeeeeep#hehehe#i might regret this#um hehe#im funny#i love you#i love him#peace✌️#lol 😂
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I'M IN LOVE WITH YOU
I LOVE OUR STUPID CONVERSATIONS
I LOVE OUR END LESS BANTER
I LOVE THE WAY YOUR SMILE IS MORE OF A SMIRK
I LOVE YOUR LAUGH
I LOVE THE WAY YOU STAND AND TALK
I LOVE YOUR EYES
I LOVE YOU STUPID JOKES AND PICK UP LINES
I LOVE YOUR FACIAL EXPRESSIONS
I LOVE YOUR BROKENNESS
I LOVE EVERY PART OF YOU
I LOVE YOUR HAIR
I LOVE YOU
I LOVE EVERYTHING THERE IS TO YOU
THE STUPID RECKLESSNESS
THE SHY GENIUS
THE LOUD IDIOT
THE SIMPLE SMILE YOU GET
YOUR EYES
GOSH IDIOT
I FREAKING LOVE YOU
I WANT TO TELL YOU SO BADLY
I WANT YOU TO KNOW SO BADLY
I WANT YOU TO JUST KNOW
I WANT YOU TO FEEL THE SAME
I WANT YOU TO TO FEEL THE SAME WAY
I WANT YOU TO KNOW
I FREAKING LOVE YOU
I'M SCREAMING IT
I'M THINKING IT
IM EXCITED TO GO TO THE HORRID SCHOOL JUST TO SEE YOU
I'M IN THE MIDDLE OF A PANIC ATTACK AND REMEMBER OUR CONVERSATIONS TO CALM DOWN
WHEN I'M SAD I NEED YOU NEAR
I NEED YOU
I'M IN FLIPPING LOVE WITH YOU IDIOT
#i love you#i love him#love poems#love#love quotes#crush quotes#crushes#crush#school#anxietty#anxiety is the worst#i want you#i need you#im so tired#ily#irl stuff#why am i like this#idk#idk what this is#am i just crazy#i just#i needed to get this off my chest#i need answers#hug me please#did you know#please#i love everything about you#i do know why#i love you so much
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anxiety attacks✌️
You know that moment where your heart drops when you almost fall down the stairs
Or you lean too far in your chair
That's what anxiety is like
Every single time the teacher calls your name
Every single time you think you messed up
Every single time you go out to a social setting alone
Every single time
Every single day
Anxiety
Is
Not
A
Joke
Or
Just
Someone
Freaking
Out
It is real
And it sucks
So if someone with anxiety trusts you enough to tell you
Or ask for you help
Help them
Listen to them
It's a big step
because anxiety sucks man
#anxiety is through the roof#anxiety is the worst#social anxiety#anxiety disorder#trust#help#listen#mental health#mental disorder#im going to regret posting this#maybe#idk#idk man#idk what this is#im so tired#kthxbye
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i miss my best friend <3
I miss my best friend Audrey so much. We haven't talked as much as we normally do. I saw her last week but we didn't get to hang out much. I invited her to a school even tomorrow but she cant make it. I miss her more than anything. I wanna talk to her. I wanna hang out with her. I love her so much. I wanna be watching shows and laugh g so hard we can breathe. I miss her. She doesn't have Tumblr so she will never see this, but I want her to know how much I care about her. I love her. I miss her.
#best friends#social anxiety#not a pro just using tags#bsf#might delete later#i might delete this later#i might regret this#crying#lol kbye
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I don't know what this is. I'm rebloging from my art and poetry account. If you like this ish go give it a follow😉💕
I don’t know what this is but here it is *sips tea*
I want you
To want me
Like I need you
Baby I need you
I want to be near you
I want to be held by you
Please tell me you love me too
When I’m with you
My anxiety is far gone
When I see you smile
I feel my cheeks go hot
When I meet you eyes
I want to get lost
In the ocean of color
I want to
To point me out to your friends
Saying, “Yeah. That’s her.”
When you kiss me
Kiss me slow
When you know you love me
Tell me so
I don’t know what to do
I wouldn’t know where to go
If I didn’t have you
I want to be by myself
Well by myself with you
I don’t know
If I’m making any sense
But isn’t that like us?
Complicated yet simple
Imperfectly perfect
Yeah
That’s you and me
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hey everyone ✌️
life is stressful
I can't take anymore
why do I need to know this
I feel like I'm at war
I'm being pulled this way
Being pulled there too
Nothing makes sense anymore
I just want to be next to you
I think about giving up
To just stop caring about the world
Live on my own
maybe go around the world
or even just stay home
but just to have the freedom
to make my life my own
I fit the mold of who you want me to be
I try and be every version that you want to see
I try to be the perfect daughter
The supportive friend
A loving family member
A good student
But it gets hard
Every single day
Sometimes I don't even want to say
Hey?
Let me crawl under my blankets
Please let me rest
Being who every wishes me to be
Is extremely exhausting for me
A'las this is not so
I need to be
Who you see me to be
I need to stand up
And continue to do so
Even when I'm about to fall
#yeet#so yeah#im fine#im so tired#anxiety is through the roof#poetry#life#life quotes#poems on tumblr#poems#might delete later#feelings#school#why#why do i do this to myself#not a pro just using tags#i want you#i wish#help#crush quotes
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hey idk what this is but yeet *throws self on bed*
I'm sorry that I love you
I'm sorry that I care
I know you don't want me too
I'm really well aware
I just can't help it
I love every part of you
The sad
The depressed
The funny
The kind
I want to call every part mine
Maybe that's why you don't feel the same
You feel you're too broken to be loved
Well I'm here too tell you
I'm a mess too
I love you oh so dearly
I express it rather clearly
But we are both too emotionally blind
Maybe I should make a sign
I don't know much
About emotions and such
But this much I do know
I love you oh so
I care a little too much
And treasure every touch
Remember every conversation
And even thought this is a new sensation
I know
I
Love
You
You calm every storm
You conquer all my fears
Just oh my dear
I need you near
My mind grows louder
My anxiety grows stronger
When I don't have you there
Some how some way
Having you here
Makes me feel
Pretty Okay
#idk what this is#poetry#crush quotes#poems on tumblr#love poems#might delete later#idk man#i love you#i love him#social anxiety#calming#wth is this#idk#im sorry#yeet#so yeah#not a pro just using tags#im going to bed
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anxiety hits hard y'all.
So I actually had a pretty okay day today. I had a lot of moments w/my crush and I saw my friends and ish then I get home and anxiety is like
just landing on my pretty okay day ready to mess it up. I got a head ache and took a bath to try and get rid of it then I get out and anxiety is like talking all of those lies like
"Your so annoying."
"People pity you."
"Why are you like this?"
"What if everyone leaves you?"
Etc etc. You know, anxiety ish. And I texted most of my friends + the person I want to be my person a text like "sorry if im like ever annoying or anything like that and ish." Most of my friends said, you aren't annoying love you." but my friend Res replies with,
bailee
u
are
not
at
all
not even a tiny bit
not a smidge
not even an inkling of annoyance
and it kinda just rlly got through to me. idk. I hate anxiety. My mom doesn't know. She would just say it's cause by my phone or your being dramatic or your not an anxious person. And idk my friends know but they don't relate in the same way that I do. Well except for Res. it's so stupid and weird. like I will literally hold trash in my back pocket so I don't throw it away in front of people. or I won't ever be the first to do anything. I won't get up and grab a paper in class before anyone else, get in line before anyone else, etc etc. I try not to talk infront of crowds alot. Even though I have a loud voice, when I talk I'm only talking to my friends I'm not taking infront of a large group. I probably apologize too much. Idk. But social anxiety is just crap. I wanna stay in bed. I want my crush to text me. That was random and odd. Okay. Bye now.
WAIT ONE MORE THING. I'M RLLY CONFUSED. WTH WTFRIQ ok so when I was using the tags bc Im extra i typed anxiety and the tag "anxiety is fun" came up and if it's Sarcasam then heck yeh but if it's not a whole lot of ppl are lying k bye.
#social anxiety#anxiety disorder#anxiety is the worst#anxiety is through the roof#not pro just using tags#ya yeet#idk what this is#idk#idk man#why am i like this#crushes#lol kbye
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"get on the dang roller coaster Fred!"
Writing Prompt #830
“I’m not strong enough. I’m scared, I change my mind, I—”
“C’mon, it’s too late, we already paid. We’ve been waiting for this for so, so long! You’ve already committed, so it’s time to follow through.”
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I socialized B
guess what? I went to a lit social event tonight. It was pretty lit. now I'm sister sleepy. and when I get sister sleepy I get sister delusional. sooo my stupid self decided to post up on my Tumblr yeeteth. im sleepy. im tired. hehehe. I wanna snuggle with my crush. i want him to hold me. i think i love him. we compliment one another. i think i wov him alot. Non-sleepy me is going to regurt posting this but like IDC at the moment b. he is so kewt. like sis 😓😍😍 and he has rlly pretty eyes. and he is just so adorably stupid. Hehe okay imma shut up before I admit any other embarrassing fact hehe.
#crushes#social anxiety#im so tired#sleepy#hehehe#regret#no regrets#not pro just using tags#um hehe#lits#im going to bed#im going to regret posting this#im going to regret this#delusional#i need sleep#mwahaha#mwah#happyvalentinesday#idk man#idk what this is#im going to sleep#lol kbye
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