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i realized, i am actually the bad guy here

yesterday one of my best friends told me that the reason I'm always so anxious with people is because I think all of them would be as bad as the things i myself do

it really hurt when he said it, but he's right.

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my mind just won't shut up

i feel like i'm going crazy

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i am just so fucking exhausted.

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I'm literally saving a shit ton of money by not buying any food. So happy my roommate doesn't give a shit and doesn't ask any questions about me not eating

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so i really hate working out but today i feel actually great about it??? Like i pushed through and i was so surprised how strong my body can be.

So for all my lazy fellows:

You can do this!

If i can push through, you can too. Let's get all pretty and dainty together <3

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wish I wasn't so goddamn fat. I have enough thigh for at least five people, just wanna cut everything off so bad

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I'm really struggling

which is great for my weight loss, I've only eaten once this week and it makes me feel great. But im really scared of work and people and everything rn. Kinda wanna kms but kinda don't since there is a chance of everything getting better soon.

Just gonna stick with starving as coping ig

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just realized I really suck at something i thought i was pretty decent in. lol

self-esteem go byyyyeeee

p.s. I really fucking hate myself

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At this point I don't even have to actively tell myself not to eat, my family makes a great job of that.

Talking to anyone of them makes me want to die and nauseous to no end.

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what to do when you're lazy af but want that tiny waist™? easy, squeeze the shit out of it until it stays that way

Also I'm a hoe for books so I can stay in bed and read while my organs are crushed

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Please, reblog! IIt’s called self defense. Apart from having here, in the US, one of the highest cases of homicide and rape in the world and high rate of GBV, think about how this could help your mother or sister

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how am I supposed to be ready for "adult life" when I'm not even ready for life itself?

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Today I'm extremely suicidal but very calm. I guess that would be the most dangerous combination possible.

No matter how I think about it, it just makes sense for me to kill myself

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Reblog this for suicide prevention.

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My whole family telling me my dreams for the future are invalid, which is the only thing that kept me alive, is not helping with severe suicidal thoughts

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Listening to my dad telling me for half an hour straight what a fuck up i am has to be my new favorite hobby

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I simply don't enjoy existing.