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/*•° How I like to imagine Snape in his dorm room coming up with charms/spells/jinxes/hexes to use against his bullies.

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I think Severus would be good with animals

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I will sully the good name of pencils if I have to

The Marauders should call each other Tape Measure, Pliers, Wrench, and Pencil. Tape Measure for Moony, a retractable ruler, because Perfect Remus knows the rules yet has no spine. Pliers for Prongs; pliers look vaguely like antlers and James needs nothing less than pliers to ply his head out of his ass. Wrench for Wormtail; a wrench in the Light side's plans and can be a play on "wench". And Pencil for Padfoot; as a 40-something year old man who still uses insults like Snivellus, he gets the lamest tool in a tool box.

The Marauders are tools, is what I'm trying to say.

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Severus Tobias Snape. The Half-Blood Prince. Snivellus. Names hold weight.

I kindly wish violent diarrhea on any character who has called Severus 'Snivellus' ❤️

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Snaters and Marauder stans, I want you to picture something with me for a moment. Lily Evans is accosted by two wealthy pureblood Slytherin girls in the locker rooms. They take her clothes and her wand while she's in the shower. No one is there to lend her a robe. She has to walk all the way to the Griffyndor dorms, naked.

Everyone stares and laughs at her body. The two Slytherin girls call her names and Scourgify her body, since she clearly thinks the halls are shower rooms. No one steps in to help. Mary McDonald is there telling the Slytherin girls to stop...but Mary is not helping by covering up Lily or alerting the teachers. Mary almost cracks a smile, before smothering it and yelling, "Give her back her robes!"

Then Lily, cornered and at her wit's end, lashes out at Mary. Mary scoffs and says, "Fine. I won't bother anymore. And you need to take better care of your skin." And walks off, but not before telling the Slytherin girls, "You're as bad as Lily."

This is the level of assault, degradation, and injustice that happens in SWM.

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THIS!! EXACTLY THIS!! It astounds me how people sometimes brush over this. The sexual assault took place publically. People were laughing. He was suspended in the air, so even people at the back of the crowd had a good view. Hell, people in the castle could glance out a window and perfectly see what was happening in the courtyard. And if you didn't manage to catch the live show, you can bet everyone at school will describe it to you in explicit, embellished detail.

It's a nightmare. A living, horrific nightmare. Worse than The Prank. Fifteen year olds are already insecure about their bodies. Imagine being violated and exposed in such a way, your body used against you, each scar and pimple displayed, genitals and arse and belly seen and mocked by everyone for two years.

And already Severus' social standing was iffy because he's a low-class boy in a bigotted school. If he had had any respect before this, James and Sirius good as killed and buried it with SWM. The studious kids who might've been neutral about him won't touch him with a six foot pole now because he has become an eyesore and a joke. Those studious kids are the future Healers, Aurors, Lawyers, etc, and they will always remember how back when they were in school that Snivellus kid was "pathetic" and "flashed" the whole school. It's horrible and sick, but this is how these things are regarded in life.

And I can guarantee you Severus was getting no invitations to the Slug Club after this. Which means no connections in the Potioneer community, no future sponsors. Nothing but exclusion and vicious ridicule by people he had to sit next to and share meals with every day.

You know what's the worse part? Lily was one of the people who mocked him when he was at his lowest.

Lily, whose furious expression had twitched for an instant as though she was going to smile

“I won’t bother in future. And I’d wash your pants if I were you, Snivellus.”

“I don’t want you to make him apologize,” Lily shouted, rounding on James. “You’re as bad as [Snape] is.”

I can't believe this girl is treated like the paragon of empathy and good morality. Her old friend is being publically humiliated and sexually harassed and she:

1) Almost cracks a smile.

2) Tells him oh what a great bother it is to be constantly helping him and how she won't do it anymore.

3) Calls him the same name his bullies use to break down his confidence and sense of self. A name Severus himself has probably gone to Lily to complain about before, when they were 12 or 13 and comforting your friend over their bullies' namecalling was things friends do.

4) Tells him to wash his underwear before leaving him there. He's poor. He wears his mother's and father's hand-me-downs. He probably has had the same three pairs of underwear for years and he has to rotate between them, and laundry day would render him naked. There's nothing shameful about this. Lily knows these things. She knows the living conditions of his house. His rich bullies have mocked him for years over his hygiene and clothes. And Lily uses the same insults when Severus is a kicked-down cornered animal, lashing out.

5) Tells Severus he is as bad as James. Severus is as bad as his sexual harasser? Severus is as bad as the rich boy who bullies his peers for no reason?

You expect your bullies to beat you down and string you up. But you never expect an old friend would beat you down too.

While Severus' worst memory is already bad enough considering the damage to a person's emotional state... I just realized that it's not just that. What about social damage? What happened to his reputation after he was sexually exposed against his will in front of his classmates?

I mean, we've seen it happen in real life. When a person's nudes get leaked, when their personal life gets exposed, the public in general doesn't side with the victim. Reputations get ruined, people lose respect and opportunities, because they get marked by what happened.

Maradeurs fans are always saying "you can't blame them for everything bad that happened to Snape!". But honestly... The things they did may very well have damaged Severus' chance of getting a normal, respected position after school. We can't pretend that kind of exposure has no effect on how other people see you.

The psychological damage something like that can cause, the humiliation, the guilt, the rage, the shame of knowing you’ll have to walk out of your room the next day and face the stares, the whispers, the laughter, the hushed comments, but above all, the faces of your aggressors, living as if nothing happened, completely oblivious to your personal hell. Just going on with their lives like it’s any other day, laughing, joking, acting the same as they did the day before the horror began. Throwing out comments—only not whispered, loud enough for you to hear—because for them, destroying your life is hilarious. To them, it was just another joke, just another day, even though you will carry it with you for life. Even though you won’t ever be able to get it out of your head.

And the worst part? You can’t tell anyone, because your teachers pretend nothing happened and the headmaster looks the other way, so all that’s left is to swallow the shit and keep going—somehow—because you either survive or you die.

Yeah, I think it’s a pretty horrific image, like with any victim of abuse who gets blamed while their abusers walk around free and untouched. But in this case, the abusers have an entire fandom defending them to the death, which is sad but also eerily similar to the thousands of people who always show up under news stories about abuse, questioning and blaming the victims without rest. The only difference is that this fandom claims to be progressive and about fighting for rights and all that, getting outraged over nonexistent slurs, while actual abuse means nothing to them. Honestly, every single one of them deserves a solid kick in the mouth.

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I love that words rhyme. I love that this is a thing that exists. In every language, humans will find a way to dance with words.

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Found one of you lovely people in the wild.

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I give myself

to every drop of blood you've taken.

My heart remains the same.

And I'm

an utter fool

to give myself

to you.

Coronation — Nostalghia

Regulus Black, the boy who sold himself to the devil.

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You want to see the layers and complexity. They only ever repeat one line:

Talking about Snape as a kid clearly abused, neglected, growing up with domestic violence. —But he bullied children, didn’t he?

Talking about tiny, shy, clumsy nine-year-old Snape, just trying to make a friend in Lily. —But he bullied children, didn’t he?

Talking about eleven-year-old Snape, so excited to reach Hogwarts thinking he’d finally be safe, only to find the same bullying and trauma waiting for him. —But he bullied children, didn’t he?

Talking about how twenty-year-old Snape begged for Lily’s life, did everything he could to keep her family safe, and wished he’d died instead. —But he bullied children, didn’t he?

Talking about the Half-Blood Prince, the brilliant kid inventing spells, surviving the world on his own genius. —But he bullied children, didn’t he?

Talking about him stepping into the Shrieking Shack, reliving old trauma just to save kids who hated him. —But he bullied children, didn’t he?

Talking about the Unbreakable Vow, how he risked everything for Draco Malfoy. —But he bullied children, didn’t he?

Talking about the Battle of the Seven Potters, and how Snape risked his cover and his life to save Remus Lupin from certain death. —But he bullied children, didn’t he?

Talking about twenty years of double-agent hell, protecting the son of his worst enemy, walking willingly to his death to give that boy a chance. —But he bullied children, didn’t he?

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Severus Snape only did one thing wrong and was feeling responsible for someone who never gave a single damn about him.

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"But Snape joined a supremacist terrorist group!!!"

You know what Snape didn’t do? Sexually abuse anyone by exposing their body against their will in front of a crowd of people. And you know what else he didn’t do? Pretend to be a hero and never own up to his crappy behavior because in fact, he spent 18 years regretting it, unlike that four-eyed glasses-wearing jerk you all adore, who went around stripping and humiliating people and never gave a damn.

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The first time I read Snape's Worst Memory, I couldn't sleep. I stayed up 'til 3AM torn up about the sheer cruelty of that scene and how it was never addressed again.

No one helped. Worse, they revelled in his pain. Laughed at him. Even Lily cracked a smile. Lily was heartless enough to be amused by the public humiliation done to her old friend. It got worse and worse and worse.

And it was completely unprompted. The bullying was because Sirius was bored and James wanted to grab attention by any means necessary. James even said himself that he's doing all this because Severus, well, "exists." These kind of statements are enough to plant suicidal ideas in Severus' head—if he wasn't already contemplating it after the Marauders made sure his life was a living hell since he was eleven years old.

No one was punished. Not even a detention. Not a fucking apology from either Sirius or Remus during the entire run of Harry Potter. And as grown adults, they still fucking called him Snivellus. The bullies got away scot free, the ring leader got the girl. And died a heralded hero.

Severus was dehumanised in every sense of the word. He was clearly already beaten down before they even touched him. But no, they wanted to crush him. For no reason. He was bound and helpless and stammering. Mocked for his looks and hygiene and his name. He was choked with soap. He was strung up like a lamb and stripped. And I legitimately could only sleep after I crafted a nice little revenge story in my head about how Severus gets back at James and Sirius for what they did to him.

I bet you come sixth year, nobody has forgotten what happened to Snivellus Snape on their last day of OWLs. The state of Severus' underpants are common knowledge. The shape and length of his prick—of his entire body—is common knowledge. The rumour mill must've done what they did best and skeeved the details to their liking to make Severus look even worse in front of the whole school population. He would walk down any hall, meet someone's eyes, and have to wonder if they knew—how much did they know—how much did they see.

Shit like that affects your job opportunities. Severus has good as lost any nice, respectable reputation. Lost connections he could've made with peers and sponsors. And don't get me started on the effect all this must've had on his mental state. It's no fucking wonder he turned to the Dark Arts if this is how the Light side treated everyone.

I'm just utterly disgusted with how Hogwarts brushes the whole situation under the carpet, doesn't offer Severus support or counselling, doesn't enforce anti-bullying rules, doesn't even punish the abusers. What a joke.

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It baffles me that even as Lily and Severus drifted apart in fifth year before SWM, she never once—just—worried about him? They clearly stopped hanging out, 'cause right before SWM we see Lily and Severus walking out of the exam near each other but not acknowledging each other. That's honestly so sad. She doesn't even glance at him. Severus from what we see is pretty heavily dissociating about something and is not doing well. He's wandering aimlessly, wilted and sallow. Yet even absent-minded as he is, he's still in Lily's vicinity. And Lily is right there, but she's occupied with a group of girls.

It bugs me. Didn't she ever wonder if he was okay? Didn't she look at how sickly and beat down he looked and just—worry? Think maybe I should check up on him? How are things at home? Even shallow small talk like 'how did you do on the test,' and 'how are your OWLs going'—just anything! He was your closest childhood friend! You know he's viciously bullied every day! Not too long ago he used to rant to you about werewolves, scared the Marauders were up to something—and then he's almost killed by a werewolf. Aren't Griffyndors chivalrous even to their enemies? Why won't you check in with an old friend?

I just wanna shake her shoulders. Lily. Babe. What are you doin.

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I know that you only to Severus/James or Sirius/Severus in only no SWM aus but what do you think would happen if James or Sirius tried to confess to Severus in 7th year after SWM DID happen?

severus should choke them to death with his bare fucking hands

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How many Marauders does it take

to make a man like Severus Snape?

Trick question!

Every last one of the Marauders

isn't enough of a man on their own,

let alone

a man like Severus Snape!

Remus with his rules

has the spine of a measuring tape!

Sirius is a loyal friend, sure,

who wishes it was the full moon!

Peter is a cheery lad,

happy as a sycophant!

James is quite chivalrous

and threatens girls into hanging out!

The Marauders are barely men;

they need more than broken rules,

a full moon,

sycophants,

threats and black mail

to measure up to a man like Severus Snape!

— the poetry I would write and sing arm in arm with Severus.

Me jumping into Hogwarts so I can call the Marauders "a spineless, pale, pathetic lot" to their face:

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I might get crucified for this but this is how I feel about snily 💀.

Girl was amused at the sight of him being publically humilated, and I don't need to point out other glaring red flags but I will. She didn't have it in her to forgive him when he apologised for calling her a mudblood (in the midst of being publically humiliated, sexually harassed, and dehumanised like a strung up piece of meat). And then, she forgave and married the boy who has been tormenting Severus since he was eleven (and who committed said public humiliation, sexual harassment, and dehumanisation). If this boy can "change" and be forgiven, why can't Severus, the victim who showed remorse and is her childhood friend, be forgiven too?

I'm sorry, but Severus is too good hearted for caring about her after all this, to the point of risking his life and dedicating the rest of his years atoning to her. They just canonically do not work as a lovey-dovey ship. They barely work as friends, I just don't see it. There's always been a big power-imbalance between them, with Lily being the "perfect, good, pure" one and Severus being the outcast, "corrupted delinquent" who constantly bows to her opinions.

Lily doesn't deserve to die like she did, or to be with someone like James (no one deserves that kind of torment). I get she was 16 and made bad decisions. She's a human who didn't fit well with Severus, that's all.

saw a jily art, so had to immediately go on pinterest and save 3 Snape arts to detox and stop feeling icky

there are enough things that make me want to throw up all around me, I really don't need to see James and Lily Potters on top of everything💀