abookloversjournal

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“I have late conversations with the moon; he tells me about the sun, and I tell him about you.”

—10:47 AM

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I apologize, if I am too loud at times.

I am sorry, if I open up most of the time.

If I story-tell.

I’m sorry. I just cannot keep everything in my head. They are piling up, they are crawling their way into every inch of my system. Completely banishing me from my very own habitat.

I’m sorry

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Now I believe.

That too much love is poison.

Too much feelings is suffocating.

That’s why he chose to breathe a different air, in a new environment.

My realization was too late.

Maybe it’s my turn to love him less, and love myself a little more.

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A few days ago, a friend of mine died.

There really are some things in this world which you’ll never be able to control.

Like how a simple wave turns into a tsunami, or how a simple deformation can destroy a whole land.

Life, no doubt, is a wicked thing.

[abookloversjournal]

A few days ago, a friend of mine died.

There really are some things in this world which you’ll never be able to control.

Like how a simple wave turns into a tsunami, or how a simple deformation can destroy a whole land.

Life, no doubt, is a wicked thing.

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Dear Tumblr,

Shall I call you my “friend”?

Hello friend. It’s been a while since the last time that I was able to sleep soundly. To take a rest. It’s not because of insomnia, it is not because of my current addiction to an Anime series (Haikyu). The only reason is this: For 4 consecutive days, I wake up immediately a few minutes after sleeping, simply because I cannot breathe. Me waking up is like my brain’s telling me that I am not breathing. Indeed, I’m not. I always find myself catching my breath afterwards, it was suffocating. It made me afraid. Now even falling asleep scares me. That happened four times while I was in the room alone. Up until now I do not know the reason why that happens.

It happened again, but now I was able to somehow think about the reasons why. I came up with two:

1. Because I am alone.

2. It’s because I am too tired

Still, I am not sure what the reasons are.

Still, I cannot sleep early at night. Do they even know that I sleep at 3am? No one knows. No one asks. Of course, I did tell someone... but it seems like no one cared.

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Why do I feel like I’m mourning for someone who died.

Why do I feel like I’m the one who died.

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You used to treat me like I’m the most precious thing in the world

3 years has passed now you act like I’m not even here.

I’m tired of broken promises. I’m tired of being left behind. I’m sick of pretending I’m okay. I’m sick of all the lies.

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If he’ll do it to her, he’ll do it to you.

Things my mother taught me (via poems-and-things)

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“What’s worse than being left?” “Leaving while you’re still deeply in love. And the worst is watching him move on and forget while you’re still holding on without him knowing.”

(via ninetysevenweeks)

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It hurts to know that you can put your lips over someone else and not think about how much it will pain me. Can’t you see my eyes welling up and my lips quivering? Can’t you picture my heart breaking in your mind?

Or is my heart not a concern of yours? (via illuminatewords)

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Have you ever cared for someone so much, that everything they do worries you. Sure it may seem weird and over protective but you just want them to be safe. When you truly care about someone, you wouldn’t know what to do with yourself. Because if anything ever happened, I would spend every waking moments wishing I could have prevented it.

I Care so much (via xmrgoodguyx)

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how do i say “i miss you” in a way that will make your heart ache as much as mine does

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Tula #10 (Tama at Mali)

Sabi ko kaya ko pa, Na lalaban tayong magkasama, Pero ngayo'y hinang hina na, Kakayanin ko pa nga ba? Mga hindi pagkakaintindihan, Hindi man lang ma resolbahan, Mas matimbang nga ba ang pag mamahalan, O hindi na aabot pa sa sukdulan? Ano nga ba ang nangyari, At tila hindi ko na ata mawari, Kung ang tama sa mali, Ano ang totoo sa hindi.

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Tula #9 (Hinala)

Isipan ay gulong gulo, nakatitig na lamang sa baso, Nauubos ang bawat segundo, Kakawari kung ano nga ba ang nagawa ko Upang ako ay pag hinalaan mo. Iyong hindi paniniwala, nagdulot sa akin ng sakit. Tanong na lamang sa sarili ay bakit. Nararapat sigurong ako ay pumikit, At hindi na subukan pang ipilit.

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Tula #8 (Demons)

You give me reasons to stay alive, to be strong and win this fight. You keep me steady when I want to dive, hold my ground so I won't flight. But I'm a ticking bomb, and my waves don't calm, The monsters inside, they can't forever hide. So I'm not asking for you to save me, the demons, just please let them be, Because they will do everything baby, For me to stay this crazy.

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Tula # 7 (Ship)

If all you do is sugar coat, Do you think this ship will stay afloat? Will you keep the anchor down, And just let the both of us drown?

Ocean deep, we are sinking, How do you explain breathing? Right now, here I am asking, Love, when did you stop coming?