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Aaron Paul doing runway stuff all twinked up

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So much energy so much pain and no outlet to put it into so ill manically clean organize and move around my home and workplace until I’m happy I never will be ill do my makeup multiple times a day just to feel pretty when I lookinthe mirror I’ll give myself tattoos and piercings so I don’t do anything else to my skin I’ll find random people and spend days out of the house worrying my friends and family but fuck it I’m young rack a line smoke a nowl take a shot at the local bar in a city I don’t live in im not even 21 but fuck it I just met the bartender and they’re fuckin w me yeah there’s a rave tonight let’s go get a bag first tho and don’t forget hit up that one guy for those shroom bars I wanna float tonight maybe I’ll dance alone in my room or in rhe middle of the road with my headphones on and maybe a blindfold too fuck it I’ll dye my hair tonight paint my walls red and then be mad about it the next day god I hate that color it reminds me of I need to take a shower a long hot shower and sit there and cry but not because I’m sad only because the music is so beautiful I haven’t been able to cry for a little too long I feel like a detached man the water burns the scratches on my back from that hookup that I fuckin regret j miss the come up I miss the come down anything is better than this

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I WILL be giving into the delusions

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Just pretty enough to be lusted after but never loved.

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Ahaha I’m so fucked. I have a crush. A crush… it’s been years bro nah nahhh.

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Anything but this feeling anything else please fuck

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Idk what to do with myself I’m so fucking lonely

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Dyed my hair again again again

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Guys I’m sick also I kinda have a crush on this guy that I only met once

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Another tattoo

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No partner, no friends, no best friend. My family gave up a long time ago. Just shallow relationships and dumbass decisions filling my void. I want to get better, I’ve been trying for so long, I feel like I’m running out of steam man. My will to keep going is totally gone. I can’t keep trying when I don’t even think anyone will miss me.

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Horrible lol

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Guys I swear this is what happiness looks like

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Yes