someone hold me in my sleep
back to chest just let me weep
cursed drip from the ceiling leak
gives me no peace
please, stay with me here
steady breath behind my ear
a little love not an ounce of fear
heart is full and thoughts run clear
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saltwater sting
back to the basics in nature
feet deep in a cold path
on a warm spring night.
up to my ankles,
the waves pull me in
and push me out.
exfoliating with wet sand
the grains imbed
into every open cut
only washed out with salt water
legs shake with the sting.
I can't claim to be clean
but something in me
feels cleansed.
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The Fallen Deer Winslow Homer 1892
Fawn response
Floorboards creak
and eggshells crack
under my feet.
one wrong step
and I can't turn back
what if I say the wrong thing
and you'll hate me.
if my spine grows too
strong I backtrack.
retreating into the grass
frozen for a second like
a dear in headlights.
licking the dents of
the car that hit me
so it does not get mad.
if I try to stand up for myself
and in defence bite back
all backbone grown in
starts to retract
when your teeth are bared
I've done it again,
shown an undesirable emotion
do you hate me?
when you use my name
it makes me scared.
no no, it doesn't matter
water under the bridge.
I'll say whatever pleases
fawn for your favour if it
will fix any rift
that you caused.
but it was my fault
for reacting to who cut me first
with your claws.
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Sinner
Jesus on the cross
saw all the sins of humanity
every crime committed
in passion or in pain
Jesus saw me thousands of years on
committing sins in passion
committing crime in pain
He saw everything I've done
and what I'll do
and He still chose to die
maybe that means
I am worth something
to someone after all
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I just can't get it out of my head.
like a church bell ringing.
I could've given you salvation
and I would've taken you in sin
you were my salvation and sin
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Abstract painting by Shirley Johnson. Acrylic and dyes on paper
hickeys linger
under my skin
like mould.
spreading obscenities
through my body.
in the mornings
I can't breathe.
the ghost of both hands
crush me.
suffocating,
spotting every wall
on my body.
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poetic parallels
I try to find poetry
in the parallels
he wrote 'I love you more than I can say'
you wrote ' I love you more than you could know'
something is there.
poetic parallels, deeper meanings
I just cannot put my finger on it
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suffering through the lens of social media
I'm not an office siren
with doe eyes and Bayonetta glasses.
I'm not early 2000's fox
or deer or bunny pretty
not serving black cat energy
or subway/red dress girl confidence
my hair isn't old money dark coquette
cottagecore light academia.
tonight's girl dinner is fingers
and empty stomach bile
so I can try to be skinty girl core
in my healthy girl fruit smoothie gymshark era
but instead, I'm in my bed rotting era
not me being depressed
that's so not giving clean girl core
time for sad girl Sylvia Plath summer
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Residual sensation
your residualΒ
taste
and lingeringΒ
sensation
burn holesΒ
in my throat
where yourΒ
gripping fingers
sink into
my nails clawΒ
and clawΒ
inside and out
get out of me
get out of me
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Body
I'm not slender-framed,
my body takes up too much space.
how can I change?
why can't I change?
fat face is too oval and round,
not a single attractive feature to be found.
am I pretty now?
why am I not pretty now?
I don't want to roll over and give up
dress on, makeup done, getting drunk in the club
but I can't so I crawl deeper under covers
no one look at me
it's too embarrased to be seen
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Resting, Antonio Mancini 1887
my teeth rot in the bed I lay in
pressure sores
skin fused from my thighs to my soles
when those teeth fall out
along with hairs of tinsel grey
I store them, adore them
hoping when I rot and fall the same
I am too picked up, adored and stored safe
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In my head, I make up scenarios
that always make me hurt.
even quietly, alone to myself,
I cannot imagine being loved
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Eve
I too, like EveΒ
was tricked
withΒ tempting whispers
to drive my divine teeth
into bitter sweetness
unbeknownst to the devil
in disguise's
tongue in my ear
young and naive
to the consequences
and what this means
going forward
for my humanity
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photograph taken by me
can I kiss your tongue
before you let your words
knock me out
just so I can have a taste of love
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Cavern
you will never find a vacancy
past the boarded-up entrance.
no pink lush supple skin,
but a black hole that rots wood to the touch.
an empty decaying cavern
too narrow to navigate without guidance.
cobwebbed-filled womb,
and expired eggs.
surrounding flora hides any approach,
a sign for the most not welcome.
do not come any closer
do not disturb a cavity
that wishes to remain untouched by man
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down the gutterΒ and out the drain
my self worthΒ liesΒ trampledΒ
like a dead rat in the rain
onlookers watch
fed up, patiently waiting
for the rain to stop
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