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My dad had a stroke this morning putting an end to his fight with lung cancer. Turns out there is a orange sized tumor in his brain. There is nothing that can be done that would make him right again. After his stay in the hospital he will be moved to hospice.

I feared getting this call for a while now. Life really has been having a go at my mom. Having to watch her husband and her mother both painfully slip away at the same time. Only a matter of time before my grandma goes. Falling and breaking her arm all while dealing with all this.

I curse the system everyday we were born into where we are expected to work every second of our life away and be cast to the side like trash as soon as there is a bump in th road. My dad worked himself to the bone. Never slowed down. Even during his chemo for his lung cancer he was working on cars in the garage when he still had some strength. Hard work doesn't get you shit.

I'm ashamed that I put it out of my head, that I couldn't take the pressure of losing my family home, my shitty job grinding me to dust, and the looming loss of loved ones.

I'm at a loss and don't know what to do. I'm 3k miles from all this and I start a new job on Monday. All I want to do is go back to bed and escape this nightmare.

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Apparently I make a dumb face when i play.

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My rats anytime I touch a box of cheez its

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My fashion sense has gotten pretty dumb over the years.

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I need to shave my lip

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he said just stop being american ♥️

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Here is a bad photo of me in a bathroom that smells like a dispensary.

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I've been after one of these for a long time. I thought I would spice it up a little so I plastidipped the white picguard and I am more than pleased with the results. Also! I copped a Sansamp bass driver over the weekend and now I have achieved the tone I've been after for years! I'm obsessed with this thing.

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This place is beautiful. This place is my home.

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I shouldn't be allowed out in public.

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I didn't realise I had two photos of me with this dumb thing I had to have.

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