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She's still getting used to being an aunt

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*sigh* me and may friends paid Theo Solomon to say in Wyll's voice that he's "in da club straight up jorkin it" so of course I have to infect as many people as possible with this newly created cursed audio

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gale just knows morena and tara bought this billboard for him alright original meme under the cut

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death and grief cw

i don't think i've gone into masses of detail on here anyway, but some of you might have noticed that hexquest, my very best friend toby, hasn't posted for quite some time. he passed away on the 31st of january this year.

the loss was sudden and unexplained. he had epilepsy, and sometimes this happens in people with epilepsy, but that makes it no more logical and no less painful. i spoke to him an hour before he died. i didn't know until the next day when his sister sent me a message that is forever burned into my brain. i hoped it was a shitty joke. a prank from his uni friends. it wasn't. it was the start of the deepest, darkest descent i have ever found myself trailing down.

his family are wonderful and don't deserve any of this. he was such a light, such a joy. i don't think it was just him that died at the end of january. when he left, he took a very fundamental piece of me with him. i have existed in greyscale ever since. the support of my friends has kept me going, and i shan't be giving up (he'd be so angry), but it's a chore now. getting up, living life the way i did, all of it is so draining and feels so useless now that he isn't here anymore.

i find myself feeling this particularly heavily today, as today is the year anniversary of our first in person meeting. i ran across the train platform for him to scoop me into a hug and laugh into my shoulder that he fucking got me, just like he said he was going to get me. he told me i had more of an accent in person. he didn't stop talking. neither did i. it was the best night, and i was so sad when it ended.

if you had told me then that, in a matter of months, he'd be dead, i wouldn't have believed you. i think about what griffin mcelroy said about exits all the time, and it's so true, so painfully real. this exit was abrupt, clumsy and unfair. i miss him like a limb. i miss him like a sense. i love him and will forever.

none of this makes sense but i've been trying to shove this uphill on my own and it's so fucking exhausting, i needed somewhere to put it all, somewhere i can pretend no one will read it. if you did read it, thank you. i'm sorry to have darkened your days with my grief, but im not yet at the stage where it has gotten easier to handle the night alone.

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tiktok brain is like a prion disease to me

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"Hello, 👋

I'm Noor from Gaza, a mother of three children. My home was demolished during the recent war. We are currently enduring great hardship, and I desperately need your kindness. Could you assist me in reblogging my story or providing support to rebuild our lives? Your support means a lot to us in these challenging circumstances."

♥️🙏

my own income is very limited at present, and i don't have a big following, but here's the gofundme link for anyone who wants to help noor. please spread this as much as possible! 🩷

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Marcille is so funny to me. she's such a bait and switch. when we're first introduced to her you see this cute girl who's totally distraught at everything Laios does and you think she's gonna be the tropey token girl in the party who does the healing and stays out of the fights and has to be the designated Team Mom. but that's not Marcille at all. she's only on healing duty because Falin isn't around. she's a frontline attacker and she's constantly thinking about murder and explosions.

dungeon meshi really said "so there's this incredibly powerful black mage whose signature spell is "explode your skull" and she loves necromancy and is wanted in 5 countries. she can heal in a pinch but when she does it, it hurts, because there isn't a gentle bone in her body" and then she looks like this. i love her so much

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"No climate justice on occupied land"

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uQuiz where I show you a bunch of shades of a color and you have to identify which one belongs to a specific pride flag

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we love Karlach

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this is the chilchuck situation . to me

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Stealing the star✨

I disappeared for a while, right? Mostly because of work and vacations and such and such—— but its all over，now I'm back and picking up my brushes again!

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The important thing is that Marcille did not learn to blaspheme against the natural order to save her girlfriend. She just happened to have studied the art of spitting in God's eye for wholly unrelated reasons, and when the opportunity by chance arose to employ that skill in service of girlfriend-saving, she was ready.

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don’t stop talking about what’s happening

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supporting Palestine isnt political its called being a fucking human being and not a pile of toxic sludge. if you support genocide in any capacity and dare to consider it "only political" you are less than dirt.

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HAPPY WYLL WEDNESDAY EVERYONE ⭐

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i wanted to show everyone my favorite tiktok