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z3n-ash · 2 years ago

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Our Boyfriend

Pairing: Remus & Sirius with FTM Partner. (polyamorous)

Warnings: talk of LGBTQ+, Love, Caring, fluff, crying, anxiety

Being your boyfriend's partner was amazing already. Remus was good at being calm and collected and always had chocolate if you ever got just a bit hungry. Sirius was more short-tempered and would stand up for you while Remus would hold you close to him while Sirius told off the other person. Sirius was also good with physical touch while Remus wasn't he was better with emotions and quality time.

You had only come out to your best friend Lily and she hasn't even told James which you appreciate. But you are so tired of being what other people want you to be so that's why you are going to tell them so you no longer have to be in this tight floral dress. You hated looking at yourself.

So here you were sitting next to a tree with music playing in your headphones drowning out the world when your best friend and her boyfriend came up to you. Feeling a hand on your shoulder you jump slightly and turn to see it's just Lily and James. Taking your headphones off you smile a bit up at them. "hey guys what are you doing?"

"We came to hang out with you of course," James said very unconvincingly which causes you to raise a brow and he sighs as Lily speaks. "I was already on my way to you but this idiot had to follow because your boyfriends are looking for you"

Sighing you rest your head back onto the tree feeling how the bark digs into your head just slightly. "I can't look at them right now or see them." James's eyes widen. "are you all in a fight?" You shake your head "no absolutely not it's just" Lily notices what you're trying to say and she gives you a knowing look and tells James to go entertain the rest and he nods and walks away.

"what's going on y/n" She sits down next to you and holds your hand. "I just, I'm having a rough day. I hate being in a dress and I hate wearing girl perfume and my long hair and my voice and chest. It's just a bad day." Lily nods and pulls you close to her hugging you. "it's ok y/n. However, I think you should talk to them about it. If not now then later tonight." Nodding in agreement she pulls away and smiles at you. "great until then let's go for a walk"

Standing up you look down at her and hold out your hand. "well we better get to it shall we." She laughs and lets you pull her up and you both walk and talk about anything and everything as you both walk around Hogwarts.

"Why are you so scared of telling them?" she asks and you shrug. "it's not that I'm scared its just. they are so used to me being their girlfriend that what if they can't see me as a boyfriend and eventually just can't take it. They wanted a girlfriend in their relationship and that's what they expected from me and now I can't do the ONE thing I'm supposed to do." Taking a deep breath causes you to stop cause your anxiety is starting.

Lily pulls you into her arms and hugs you close to her knowing you like being close to someone when your anxiety gets bad. "hey its all going to be ok" She pulls away just enough to see your face and smiles. "do you not know how much those boys love you. They may be absolute idiots but its clear they would do anything for you"

Nodding you smile and look into her eyes. "I really do love them too they are one of the best things that have ever happened to me. You all are so important to me" Lily nods and kisses your cheek "we all love you. James does too, I've known you since we have been children you are like a sibling and best friend combined so never question our love"

Smiling you nod once more. "I think I'm ready to tell them. I have to, and I have to get out of this stupid dress" Lily laughs as you do before her eyes trail behind you. "good because they are here" She lets go of you and walks over to James as your boyfriends walk up to you slowly.

Remus allows some room for you to breathe not wanting to crowd you as Sirius comes up to you and pulls you close to him. He doesn't hug a lot of people but when he does its tight so you lose your breath. "ok ok you can let go now" You laugh as Sirius backs up and apologizes.

Remus looks up at you once you get quiet as you look at Lily and she nods encouragingly. Taking a deep breath you kind of take a step away from them and wrap your arms over yourself. "what's going on love" he asks as Sirius is waiting very patiently. "im- I have something to speak with you guys about"

Sirius looks at you "do you like someone else!?" Your eyes widen and shake your head. "NO! absolutely not. You guys might though after I tell you".

"please tell us what's going on and why you have been avoiding us all day," Remus says. You take a deep breath and close your eyes. "I'm trans. I feel like a boy" You slowly open your eyes to see them both standing there taken aback for just a moment before they look at each other and Sirius starts smirking and Remus smiles a little as they look at you. "that's what you were so scared of telling us?" You nod.

"why? You have to know we both love you and won't leave you for being yourself" Nodding you mumble a little before speaking. "I know you loved me it's just. When you both asked me out you wanted a girlfriend and expected a girlfriend. Not another boyfriend."

Remus and Sirius both walk close to you and hold one of your hands. "Darling Remus and I asked you out because we wanted you. Gender didn't matter to us we wanted you." You look up at them and smile as they pull you into a hug and you close your eyes before then pull away and comfort you.

As you all do so Lily is looking at the three of you with adoration. She's just really happy you all found each other and that she has tears in her eyes. "Lily are you alright?" James asked from beside her "yes I'm fine I'm just happy for him. He deserves this" James wraps his arm around her waist and kisses her cheek. "yes he does but let's go to our room now and leave them three have their time" she nods and waves at you before leaving with him.

Remus looks at you as you tug on your dress from how tight it is. "you want to change into one of my sweaters?" You let out a dramatic but well-deserved sigh. "yes please this is so tight" Sirius laughs which causes you and Remus to look at him and he stops but smiles as he says proudly. "I will cut your hair"

You smile knowing he was good at cutting hair even though not many people didn't know because he chose to let his hair grow out. "sounds great. Thank you both so much" They both kiss you one at a time. "thank you for being a great boyfriend"

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