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made this for me and my bf sharing it here too now ig

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YEAH ACTUALLY I WAS RIGHT ABOUT THIS.

Saw a post talking about how booster packs are like, $7.. where the FUCK are you going? Yeah the thick packs are more expensive but the card shop I stopped at (and didn't buy from bc I had my heart set on a box with a bonus die in it that they didn't have) the packs were 2.99-3.99. yes plus tax obviously, but like. Not 7 fucking dollars unless you're getting ones with guaranteed rares or the after market 20 packs. Stop going to Walmart for your boosters find somewhere that's selling the thin packs and roll the dice like the rest of us.

And stop buying the whole booster boxes! Other people would like to play and I know you are selling your common singles at a markup or using them as fucking coasters.

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you say it’s my villain era and what you mean is that when you were six you panicked about wearing the right thing to kindergarten, what you mean is that in middle school nobody was eating, what you mean is that you spent high school prepping for college and college prepping for adulthood and adulthood fucking lost in the system.

what you mean is that you’ve been good. you were a good team player. you would have never considered yourself perfectionist - those are people more popular, prettier, more successful - but you carry any flaw like a secret in you, terrified someone will desert you for the simple reality of your personhood.

if you were good you could be loved. you could be loved if you were selfless and thoughtful and caring. if you bent over for every person, if you went above-and-beyond, it would absolve you of who you actually were. deep down, how horrible that you had needs. that you had boundaries, that you had desires. you learned young that you cannot afford to cut people out of your life - you would have nothing left. it is better to live in the service of others, to supplicate. to worship. you weren’t exceptional, you had to make up for it in some way. to prove to others you were worthy.

if they need you, it’s the same thing as loving you. if you are always-there, always-listening, always-friendly, you are filling a role. you have a purpose. you are living correctly.

villain era, you repeat. you mean: yesterday you finally told a man no. for hours afterwards, you couldn’t control your heartbeat. you mean: you’ve been saying positive affirmations on repeat, trying to teach yourself any new thing about how self care is necessary. you mean: three weeks ago, due to a scheduling conflict, you finally told a coworker that no, you couldn’t do them a “quick favor”. you have felt bad about that ever since. sure, it would have made you work late and it would have been extra stress - but you feel bad about it nevertheless.

you tell your therapist you have been leaning into evil. she asks what that means. when you tell her: sometimes i prioritize my own needs, she doesn’t find it funny. she looks at you a long time.

“and that’s evil?” she clarifies.

“well,” you say. “feels evil to me.”

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Im shifting into cunt mode

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Stop calling me gay boy call me bisexual boy so women know to hit on me

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The way “alt” is done nowdays is so exasperating. People (rightfully) talk about how dark academia and cottagecore and those trends that imo aren’t “alt” but are distinctive aesthetics are more in the business of looking like they’re someone who reads a lot or someone who bakes and lives in the countryside respectively instead of putting any emphasis on actually reading a lot of learning substainability or homekeeping.

And the same happens with the way alt anything is being done lately and that’s why so many people get so disproportionately angry and defensive when someone who’s actually into a subCULTURE corrects them, especially if that person doesn’t even “look” the part as much as their fake asses do.

No interest in actual countercultural politics, ideology, sentiment, praxis or even artistic expression or practice.

They want to look like they’re someone who’s into unfathomably obscure non-palatable music and ideas, without having to actually put any effort into cultivating their musical knowledge or identity. They want the whole VISUAL package immediately, but nothing else (hint: that’s why you get called posers).

Reminds me a lot of this:

[Image description: TikTok stitch in which the first video shows user @/dormence with text printed in front of them that reads “Did you know that there’s no “correct” way to dress for a goth club. The truth is that fashion is about dressing according to what’s fashionable. Style is more about being yourself. Tip: Allow yourself to be ok with experimenting and blending your favorite styles until you refine into your own symbol 🖤”

The rest of the video is of user @/awfullysinister speaking to the camera.]

Transcript:

Here’s a fun story for everybody. I’ve been involved in my local goth scene for about 10 years now, I’ve been going to clubs and shows and events for about 10 years, I’ve been a DJ in the scene for about 6 years.

A few years ago I got booked for a DJ gig for one of my friends’ club nights. I was late, unfortunately. It happens. I got to the venue about 30 minutes after the night started and I looked pretty bad… Worse than usual. I didn’t have my hair up, I wasn’t dressed nice, I had gym shorts on and a hoodie… I just had all my stuff with me in a bag and was planning on changing in the bathroom.

And there’s this guy there that was all dressed up. He’s got leather pants with straps, Demonias, he’s wearing a black buttoned down tshirt with a fishnet shirt underneath it, his face is full of makeup… He looked like a Chris Motionless wannabe, basically.

And as I’m walking in to walk toward the stage to put my stuff up there, then go to the bathroom to change, the Chris Motionless wannabe stops me. Like, he puts his hand out, like this, like, on my chest, and he looks at me and he goes “Oh, I’m sorry, are you lost?”

And I look at him like a deer in headlights, like… What…? He repeats the question, and I just stare at him and say “I’m DJing tonight…” and he returns the look.

Anyway, I just brush past him and I go do my thing. It was a great night, I had a great crowd to my set, everybody was dressed in all sorts of ways; some people were really dressed up, some people were just wearing a tshirt and jeans, nothing special, but they were all dancing, they were all having fun.

The Chris Motionless wannabe didn’t dance ONCE, and for what I saw, it didn’t look like he was having fun, it looked like he was just standing around trying to look cool. In fact, at the end of the night, one of my friends told me that a guy that kinda looked like Chris Motionless remarked about how he hated the music and wished it was heavier. I don’t know exactly what that means, I’m going to assume that he wanted to hear Metal.

That was about 3 years ago, and I have not seen that guy since. Not at any clubs, not at any shows… It’s like he just disappeared, and I expect that I’ll probably never see him again.

Anyway, the point is; sometimes the people that keep your local goth scene going, who are dancing the most at your local clubs, and who keep goth DJs like me feeling inspired to continue doing this, and to continue to seek out new music… Sometimes those people are just wearing a tshirt and jeans and aren’t all that dressed up.

And, sometimes, the people who’re dressed to the nines, who look the part and have a closet full of expensive brand clothing, just stay home all day, on TikTok, pretending to be better than everybody else, with cringey usernames like “goth daddy” and “goth king” and “goth goddess”. Sometimes - not always, but sometimes - those are the people I wish I never had to run into in my local scene.

Link to the TikTok

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“ I wanna ruin our friendship we should be lovers instead..”  Happy vday w the best boys. 

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put a load in this guy 🤣

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*lotions you* *lotions you* *lotions you* *lotions you* *lotions you* *lotions you*

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@polandspringz​ 

⭐BEST FUCKING FRIENDS BABEY!!!⭐

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im not implying anything abt Marik here I just couldn’t stop thinking abt this