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[you-belong-to-satan]

✨️ Having anxiety but being too anxious to call up and make an appointment to get help ✨️

[you-belong-to-satan]

Few weeks ago I began to try to take care of myself more and it was going well until recently, it's all been fading away. What's the reason? Why did it go so well only to get even worse than it was to begin with?

Day by day I feel worse about myself and it makes me wanna disappear. I miss the feeling of excitement or being into anything.

"I'm living, quietly bleeding. I'm bleeding, quietly living." ~Suicide Room

[you-belong-to-satan]

When I was younger I always thought I would have my life sorted out by now. "When I'm an adult I'm gonna get a good paying job and buy a house. Gonna travel all around and have fun and party with my friends all night long".

Now I spend my free time on a sofa, in a small flat, living paycheck to paycheck. Barely affording goods such as food and heating. I also no longer have any friends...

Who will tell younger me that life is not as easy as it seems?

[you-belong-to-satan]

Another day feeling like shit, I can't recognise myself recently. I have no motivation to do even the slightest things. I feel guilty.

In the last few weeks something shifted in me, I no longer feel okay, it's more like meh. I don't know what to do with myself anymore.