yarimp3

[yarimp3]

unlovable.

I feel unlovable,

untouchable.

They swim in the oceans of light 

While i spiral down the deepest pits of hellfire

Go on, live without me.

I'll scream in agony;

in pain.

I'm screaming his name in vain.

While you bathe in the gracious light of heaven. 

[yarimp3]

apologize.

I say sorry too often,

Even when not wrong.

I apologize.

I get nothing in return,

So why should I try to please others?

[yarimp3]

tiresome.

I yawn;

I ache. 

For some time is delicate-

Yet for me it is discarded. 

Rest sounds like a symphony

But I’m constantly told that

I must wait for the future to take its course. 

I’m awoken from my slumber

By the blaring alarms in my mind. 

Before the sun is awake with the clouds,

But I lay awake at night. 

My eyes heavy, 

Yearning to sleep.

But… I sit awake. 

Time is delicate and so am I. 

So, why am I stretched like a rubber-band?

Would they stretch me till I snap?

Or do they transfer my soul to a new rubber-band, 

Fresh from the factory. 

Just to restart the cycle of suffering.

[yarimp3]

dad

If I were sleeping, you are

awake; if I am working, you are 

resting your eyes. You sip your

coffee while looking out the window. 

And I sit here looking at a blue-lit screen.

You're head has been pounding full of stress, 

and I've been sleeping deeply on the couch. 

You miss us but you don't notice

you've been tricked to stay far,

far away from us. We all miss you at home,

but we know. You can't leave her alone

she's too sick to be on her own, in her apartment.

The dog stares out the window, waiting

for your return. Come home soon, your wife says

with glossy eyes. The children miss you.

[yarimp3]

You

Embracing thoughts of tonight's dreamless sleep

The room is now so cold

Without you there's no light

No tranquility to be found

Memories flood my rotting mind

Your laugh as sweet as daisies

Your smile fresh as roses

Why can't I be at peace

Knowing you’re gone pains me

Reminds me of the summer

The first time you left me behind

Yet, I had you back by August

You don't listen

You take what you want

And leave me to rot

My face is pale 

And yours stayed rosy

I see you're in a new city

And once again I'm left behind

But who am I to blame you

You are your mothers child

She drove you mad and so you left

[yarimp3]

doom.

Why must I be doomed?

I love the wrong person. 

Every time I’m happy,

Or doing well,

Or feeling fine.

I fall for the wrong person. 

They’re a poison

That I can't get rid of. 

They seem sweet-

Then rip out my heart. 

So it seems

The rumors and legends are true.

I'm doomed.