yakiree

[yakiree]

i don/t dream about her anymore. i don/t dream about anyone.

[yakiree]

another night of sadness.

[yakiree]

why did i tell her that? it only happened a fewtimes…a new toy eradicated the need for any fantasies…it only speaks to my body, no need for mind.

[yakiree]

l recoil behind the tapestry

rich golds with silver asymmetric wanderings,

run to the registers

before it unravels

i cower behind them

and hope

shaitan rules a lesser hell

than the sheol

of my church

[yakiree]

sex then supper.

[yakiree]

“the great love of my life”

it feels like an honour until its

a curse

of/course

ofto accept

or bestow on others

but its just a liars club.

[yakiree]

who the fuck was i fooling? only myself.

[yakiree]

[yakiree]

Member of the “Dragettes,” a Kansas City women's drag racing team

Photo by Francis Miller for LIFE

[yakiree]

“drive me to distraction”

[yakiree]

endless blue

[yakiree]

words not written

are not real

derrida

didn/t

predict this.

i scream into the void

only noticed by an algorithm

or

pencil to paper

die obscure

[yakiree]

i fucking miss you so much it makes me angry at the wotld

[yakiree]

i realised over the weekend that i’m not getting back to california any time soon. trying to absorb that without feeling utterly helpless and doomed.

[yakiree]

how many things can i sell online?

i am surprised by how much

i can let go of

without caring at’ all

[yakiree]

i had a white knuckle grip on the present

and sobbed into the fur

of yr daddy’s dog.

[yakiree]

al-qualbi, al/hayyah