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Never thought I’d be tagged in one of these but hiii!!!

Last song: Burning Pile by Mother Mother

Fav color: White

Last book: Safekeeping by Karen Hesse

Last movie: uhhhhh idk I haven’t watched a movie in years. Not a movie person

Last show: Ninjago: dragon’s rising

Relationship: I would say it’s complicated but I ain’t got no one rn

Last search: does vaping make you feel high(I was researching for a fic, I swear)

Current obsession: too many(mostly rats smp)

Looking forward to: watching the world burn😁

Always open tags

@dynamic-k

Ten People I’d Like to Get to Know Better

tagged by: @orphiclovers

last song: It’s all been Christmas retail crap or if you count the radio on the drive home playing Avril Lavigne

fav color: this pale seafoam green for things or white for clothes

last book: Eclipse by Wilder (poetry)

last movie: Deadpool & Wolverine

last show: N/A

sweet/spicy/savory: sweet and savory 

relationship status: 4 people proposed to me this year. 1 meant it fr 🥹 (engaged irl) otherwise I have a harem on AO3 going.

last thing i googled: how big is a wintermelon?

current obsession: cooking and Infinity Nikki

looking forward to: I’m planning a road trip with the girls later this week!!

Tagging: @auuwmk, @ssunfish, @ajhaijma, @stoneclaw, @quiteboared, @kiwiandmint, @dgeneralacc, @rex44201, @readingdreaming4951, @thottykunikida

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You know how Grian doesn’t have eyes? Just black, empty voids? As you can probably guess, they weren’t always like that. After disobeying the watchers, they forcefully gouged out both of his eyes.

Although he is blind, he can still “see” in a sense. He doesn’t know why, but he can see. Just not from where his eyes once were. What he sees is like viewing himself from someone else’s perspective.

Almost like he’s a character in a game. Sometimes he swears he sees a hot bar alerting to his hunger and physical health.

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Guys, Joel should be a comet shaped like a car—

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@dynamic-k I totally called this like…a while ago

GUYS I-

I just woke up and i saw this-

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Okay, but consider this, since I'm just a bit crazy and we adore Second like he's our own child-

The way Chosen is seen, like in those sayings of black and white, he'd be gray. Not good, not bad. In the middle, with his own beliefs(like Technoblade). He's not a specifically good or bad character.

On the other hand, we have Dark. Completely evil. Bad from all angles, only mission is to destroy.

When it comes time for them to right their wrongs and turn themselves in for the better, this difference truly shows.

Dark, the person most opposite from good, has a pretty easy time changing to be less evil. This is due to the fact he's a complete opposite of good. All he has to do is flip the switch.

Then there's Chosen. Chosen is closer to good, but because he's a set middle of it, it's not as easy. He can't just flip the switch to be good, he's gotta do more. Seek out his own evil parts and replace them one by one. Keep his good parts and make sure they're in check. But it's not easy.

Because of this, Chosen may envy Dark. He may just absolutely hate his friend just because he has it easier, he doesn't have to worry as much, or fret about simple things like Chosen does.

You know...cause I'm just sick in the head.

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For the writers and whoever else

Licking your wounds can help. It's instinctual in animals for a reason.

Licking can remove dirt and debris from the wound, decontaminating the area. This is useful, but also not very safe if there's something sharp in the wound, since then it's just going on your tongue. Saliva contains bacteria-preventing components as well.

And, the most obvious fact, licking your wounds closes them.

But, do not do this if you can. This is not safe in everyday situations. If normal medical help is possible, it should be seeked. And, as always, it's better to not do this to a larger wound.

If you were wondering.

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I will never recover after finding this au

coping with this au rn i think ill finish up one more short comic for it this weekend lmao

other parts: vic+tsc cg+tsc

au idea by @illmoraineakoi

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NOOOOOOO MY SPANNERS!!!

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RAHHHHH fan fic :P

you have no clue.

YHS!Grian/Xelqua: I wish I could control wasps and bees to sting my enemies.

Xisuma: You’re too young to have enemies.

YHS!Grian/Xelqua: You don’t even know.

Okay we have a schedule guys. Tuesdays. Thursdays. Sometimes saturdays, and probably sundays.

Ok, so i have decided that for this one-shot im swapping his name situation. Xelqua is his birth name, Grian is his witness protection name that he doesn't get till later.

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Xisuma had been in the past for around a week now? And it wasn’t that bad, honestly. The worst thing had been getting used to the way everything used to be. 

He was living in some small house with three teenagers, Taurtis, Sam, and Xelqua. Sam is the one who let him stay at their house. Which Xisuma admittedly did find a bit weird, but the other two didn’t look stressed, so he just went with it.

Currently, he is alone in the house with Xelqua, a young teen; he thinks the boy is around 16. He has fluffy wings that are obviously too large for him, and Xisuma thinks he is adorable! ANYWAY! The other two had rushed out of the apartment an hour ago, claiming it was'school-related’ although it definitely looked like Sam had a knife in his back pocket. 

Whatever, Xisuma was sitting on the sofa watching some David Attenborough documentary about bugs and whatnot. Xelqua had just been wandering around the house, doing random chores, so Xisuma didn’t notice when he turned around and the boy was leaning on the back of the sofa, deeply invested in the current segment about bees. 

The boy sighed, “I wish I could control bees and wasps so I could make them sting my enemies..” The comment itself made Xisuma extremely confused, mostly because Xelqua looked so serious. Xisuma just smiled, offering the boy a comforting pat on the shoulder. “You’re too young to have any proper enemies.”

Xelqua just mumbled something inaudible, folding over the sofa. “Pardon.?” Xisuma smiled.

“You don’t even know the start of it.” The boy repeated, sinking his head into the pillows.

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When the pain is so bad, you can't feel it, yet the adrenaline and fear reside.

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aaaaaaa I love how this comic makes the tensions during the fight look tighter than they were, and that was a heated moment

I am a child of divorce

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Sleep? Who's she?

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12 Seconds :P

i did this again-

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fic writer interview!

totally stealing this from @definitelynotshouting because it looks really fun and I haven't had a chance to yap about my own work in a while!

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How many works do you have on AO3?

32! used to be more but I totally deleted some of my old Umbrella Academy fics, sadly - could be around 35 or 36 if I hadn't.

What's your total AO3 word count?

334,360... uh, most of that is from two specific fics haha.

What are your top 5 fics by kudos?

You Say You Feel Hollow (and you know it's 'cause you are) (HC/Life Series | 775)

INCOMING MESSAGE - COMM RECORDS (HC | 725)

“Man is condemned to be free” (DreamSMP | 547)

I Still Feel Alive (when it's hopeless, I start to notice) (Lunch Club | 488)

Let's Call It An Arrangement (HC | 460)

if you remember my lunch club fics no you don't. also kinda surprised to see the range of fics here - some of my older stuff and then some of my newest too!

Do you respond to comments? Why or why not?

yes! the only time I maybe won't is when it's a second or third comment in a thread and I have nothing else to say. even a '<3' comment will get a response. I don't get many comments, so I take the time to respond to them all. also, I share details about the writing process and lore of fics if people ask. so 🔫😐 comment to get secret knowledge. (in the same vein, I always respond to asks here about my fics!)

What's the fic you've written with the angstiest ending?

oh, man... I don't tend to leave fics on completely horrific endings in any case, but I would say probably my boatem pirate fic, It's All Part of Being a Pirate (HC). definitely the fic with the least ambiguously horrible fate for just everyone involved.

What's the fic you've written with the happiest ending?

uh... it depends on your idea of 'happy', honestly. Trembling Jaws Can't Stop Stuttering (HC) is a gore/cannibalism convexian fic that doubles as polyamory negotiations. a lot of people say they feel quite comforted by it despite the violence, especially because of the hopeful ending, so I suppose that qualifies as happy. on the other hand, my alternate canon fic, “Man is condemned to be free” (DreamSMP) is ultimately hurt/comfort with a happy(ish) ending, but you have to get through a lot of literal torture and pain first. so... not exactly 'happy'.

Do you write crossovers?

no, but I do come up with ideas for them quite frequently. I'm just not really compelled to actually write them. my favourite universe to put my blorbos into at any given time is the hunger games. I also do get inspired by other media when coming up with my original ideas - there are definitely hints of shows and films I've watched in some of my fics.

Have you ever received hate on a fic?

not traditionally, but since I write a lot of gore and cannibalism that is quite graphic (and I do properly tag it of course) sometimes I get people commenting that they weren't expecting such graphic violence, or that it disturbed them. which... idk man, read the tags? it doesn't really bother me to get those comments, I usually just remind them that I did tag it all and they chose to click, but I hope they enjoyed regardless.

Do you write smut? If so, what kind?

my insane AU *ideas* definitely have way more smut in them than my regular fics (which have none). alas, most of those ideas are sealed away in the DMs of my most trusted confidant (you know who you are) and I am way too asexual to actually write it seriously. those ideas also feature more noncon, dubcon, and general abuse trauma than I would be comfortable sharing on my actual account. they are mostly very cathartic ideas that wouldn't get developed into full fics. I do, however, have a post detailing my headcanons for convexian as a trio on the asexual-autistic-cannibalism spectrum. and yes, those three things are inherently linked. that post and the fics that go with it are as explicit as my works get, really. sometimes I will hint at sex / make innuendos in one-off lines, though.

Have you ever had a fic stolen?

nope. I've had a few tumblr posts reposted on instagram, but to my knowledge nothing of mine has been outright stolen... sometimes I see people using very similar plots or styles to mine (particularly in the homoerotic cannibalism genre) and go 'haha it would be funny if they were inspired by my fic' but I'm not popular or egotistical enough to be mad about that.

Have you ever had a fic translated?

nope. that would be cool, but I'm in pretty english-centric fandoms right now. my aunt had one of her fics translated into five different languages, so I have a lot to live up to!

Have you ever co-written a fic before?

nope, but sometimes I will get ideas from other people or they will get ideas from me. @angeart and I have co-written our Ari AU (HC), but that is more of a detailed summary than a fic. also go read it.

What's your all-time favorite ship?

I mean come on. did you think it wasn't going to be scarian? (but grumbo, convex, and all combinations of those four freaks, are also up there)

What's a WIP that you want to finish but don't think you ever will?

basically all of them. Kingdoms AU (HC) will haunt me forever though.

What are your writing strengths?

like others before me I'm just basing this on the comments I get - I am apparently very good at getting character voices right (which is something I do try particularly hard to do, but I honestly think sometimes I get it all wrong). one of my other strong points is writing both abstractly and very literally, especially with gore. I like weaving together metaphors and similes with more blunt descriptions of the physical senses. it seems to work.

What are your writing weaknesses?

oh baby I am terrible with action scenes. pure action really stumps me, and it's what I struggle with most in my professional writing too. that and consistent characterisation (I think in fic maybe it's a bit less of an issue, people don't *really* care if a character is slightly inconsistent, but I bug myself with it... 'he would NOT say that' is my internal motto) also sometimes I dive way too deep into the internal world and forget about the external - especially when a character has to do something simple like walk down the stairs or some other quite mundane action. then everything becomes quite confusing and loaded in too much metaphor and weirdness, something I noticed the most when re-reading the first chapter of Kingdoms AU.

What are your thoughts on writing dialogue in other languages in a fic?

I did it once. badly. I'm monolingual and stupid and my opinion on this is just sort of 'do whatever makes the story flow the best'.

What was the first fandom you wrote for?

hamilton. i think. but I had ideas for my little pony and team crafted beforehand that I never wrote because i was, like, 10.

What's a fandom/ship you haven't written for yet but want to?

honestly just wanna write more solo grub (grian x cub). hashtag grub violence.

What's your favorite fic you've written?

one of my least popular fics, and second most recent. Who can really tell? (Life Series) is one of the works that feels the most polished and creatively challenging. perhaps I love it so much because it's unpopular, but I genuinely think my characterisation of listener!bigb was some of my best. it remains amusing to me that its sister fic is my most popular fic by kudos. if you're reading this, perhaps go give it a chance ? 🥺 I also have a huge soft spot for COMMS AU (HC), of course. but it feels unfair to judge an unfinished fic against finished ones.

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I don't usually tag people in these sorts of things, but if you wanna give it a go then definitely do! I totally stole the entire formatting and idea from shouting. I will tag @angeart a second time, but no pressure my partner in crime ;D

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Here’s a bingo card

my goofy ahh userbox hoard

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@dynamic-k a leak of the requested fic👀

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oh. i was summoned. well, i ain't got much

ima do the paragraph so you kinda understand

"She dropped the stick on the ground and continued walking, following their only lead. They came to what looked like a large bush. leaves and thorns wrapped around hard branches, creating a tightly held together fortitude of foliage. Stronger than the bonds between any of the groups of siblings. Or is that so?"

i have no one to summon. i literally have no friends on tumblr but the one who summoned me-

*cries in a corner*

Last line challenge

Rules: in a new post, show the last line you wrote (or drew) and tag as many people as there are words (or as many as you feel like). 

Tagging all my favourite people in this god forsaken blue hellsite (still better than twitter)

No pressure tag, obviously because I know some of you who don't write but I just wanted to tag you for the funsies, and because I love you

@apolloniosofrhodes

@alpinefury

@artemisdesari-blog

@iprefertheterminsane

@ellietheasexylibrarian

@nateneedssleep

@eom-02

@homohomohoe

@captainmaxatx

I am doing this myself because no one tagged me, thus I am free to ignore all rules. Here have this, which is my last paragraph:

"maybe there's a hell and a heaven. If so she hopes that down under isn't as bad as they made it out to be.

Maybe she'll be reincarnated. In that case she would love to be a cat. They seem so happy and loved and self assured. Everything she wasn't in her brief life.

Maybe there's nothing. She really fucking hopes so. To become a speck of dust, floating in the great nothingness. No hurt no pain. On the other hand there would be no joy either, but compared to this? The slow drudge of days until the inevitable? Yeah. Nothing sounds real fucking good

Or maybe, she thinks as a vaguely humanoid-faced truck rushes towards her, she is about to be isekai-ed. Because that sure as fuck looks like truck-kun.

And that is the last thought of the woman before her consciousness drifted among the planes of existence.

Her pastry, half eaten, rolls in the dirt as the truck driver desperately calls for an ambulance and a bystander performs a futile CPR"