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[xomegancrossox]

302 days ago I had my first kiss with a boy I really liked, I considered him my best friend and someone I wanted to be permanent in my life, he encouraged me to talk to him should I ever feel alone, he understood my anxiety, he asked me one day just before the day we got together "what would be your ideal date if you had one" and my response was "I don't know maybe something like bowling, getting food and then spending time with that person on the beach at night hugging each other tight" and then on October 30th 2021 I did indeed go bowling, get food and then go to the beach with him and hug him very tight and he kissed me, 302 days later that person is no longer in my life, we don't text, we don't call, we don't see each other, I spent 193 days with someone I very much loved, but on the 194th day that person I loved didn't love me anymore. It was the worst day of my life, I felt my heart breaking into small pieces, I saw the tears roll down his face, almost as if he didn't want this either, but none the less he still stood by his decision of us no longer being one. I can't help but feel so lost, 194 days I'd had someone by my side, someone who showed me what it was like to be loved, and in one moment it was ripped away never to return. My love, I miss you.

[xomegancrossox]

Fe wnes i oroesi'r rhyfel, nawr rydw i'n byw gyda'r geist trawma

Przeżyłem wojnę, teraz mieszkam z sukami traumy

J'ai survécu à la guerre, maintenant je vis avec les traumatisées

I survived the war, now I live with the trauma

[xomegancrossox]

He broke my heart, but I'd still go back to him, I'd still help him, I'd still comfort him, I'd still do anything and everything for him. Dumb love? Denial? Pure stupidity? No, I just know what it feels like to be alone with no one to help, I won't let someone else feel that way no matter how wrong they did me..

Fe dorrodd fy nghalon, ond byddwn yn dal i fynd yn ôl ato, byddwn yn dal i'w helpu, byddwn yn dal i'w gysuro, byddwn yn dal i wneud unrhyw beth a phopeth iddo. Cariad mud? Gwadu? hurtrwydd pur? Na, dwi'n gwybod beth yw'r ffi

[xomegancrossox]

Torrodd cymdeithas ein harddegau a'n plant. Torrodd cymdeithas ein pobl ifanc a chael gwared ar y blynyddoedd y dylem fod wedi'u mwynhau. Mae cymdeithas wedi drysu.

Society broke our teenagers and our children. Society took away the years we should've enjoyed. Society is messed up.