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Messing around with a saber that's too big for me. lol it's my font (like the software settings) but I can't properly use it until I have a shorter blade lol

Also, bro said I could post him using it so there's some of what it's supposed to be at the end.

It's electric and thunder sounds with a teal blade, but my mic is kinda crap tbh

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I've trained for 45 minutes and this is practice, go easy 🙃

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Beyblade X (IRL)

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I think we (as a society) should recognize that when somebody gives a reason for their apology, as long as they also say how they will improve and act on that, they aren't "just making excuses." It seems like an integral part of an apology to me tbh and, personally, I prefer a reason, otherwise it gives off the impression either they were being intentionally rude or don't actually know why they did what they did -and how can you fix something if you don't understand why you did it?

NOTE: This is NOT about people who use it as an excuse and don't change. This is about self-awareness and how it should be used it in an apology.

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EVERYONE gets candy if they made the effort to show up. Everyone.

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Since all the audiobooks I own are on my phone, I decided to make a little "bookshelf" for them!

ID: A poster board painted to look like a bookshelf with a tape recorder on the second shelf down and audiobooks painted on it.

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deadmallscroll

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I'm a store manager!!! :O

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I wrote a poem because I can't sleep:

dishes

by Silas

Danger danger,

Run away,

That's what all the people say

Let me live,

Gods let me live,

I never like the things they say

Danger danger,

People say,

They stare at us with big wide eyes

But little do they know,

the victims are the ones they villainize

Danger danger,

People say,

When I Iet slip my mental state

I'm not a danger anyways,

I'm not contagious

Just no fun

Danger danger,

Here I come,

Self sabotage for everyone

I'm broken up,

My mind is split,

There's thoughts that aren't mine inside it

That makes me scared on my behalf,

But horror flicks have turned them daft

Obsessed with Lizzie Borden, Michel Myers, Carrie,

Understanding nothing,

Brainwashed by the silver spoon

Hollywood is calling you to take my part,

In a story they've rewritten,

And interpreted as art

We're such a bother,

So they say,

If we can't show up to work that day

We're either sad or were too much,

But medications are a "crutch"

They sentence us to never be enough,

Citizen-judges as if that's okay

They say they want us to be okay,

But then they tell us

To play a game,

Of smiles and masks and quiet pain

I came up with a metaphor,

A last chance at an open door

I dropped the dishes on the floor,

Can I not do them anymore?

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Went to the hospital, it was a panic attack, didn't end up on a grippy sock vacation! Thank the gods! :')

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My therapist is convinced I have extrasensory perception. I told him I agree, but some things are definitely psychosis now that I see clearly on my meds. He said that's a smart way of looking at it. I like my therapist lol

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I cannot lose health insurance. I will not be able to get my medication and I will relapse. I need a job asap but no one seems to want me. I'm scared...

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NGL working one day a week has been extremely beneficial for my health and school, but also no moneys so idk

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I find it kind of stupid how 'half full' vs 'half empty' is framed as an optimist/pessimist thing. If it starts full and gets halfway drained, it's half empty. If it starts empty and gets halfway filled, it's half full. If you don't know the starting state it's both simultaneously.