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everything is truly so terrible but i just remembered doreen ketchens playing clarinet for her infant grandson and then i was kind of okay again for 36 seconds

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the narcissistic urge to make an autobio comic about my health journey this year vs. the reality that no one needs to hear about a random white girl's aching pelvis in this day and age

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I recently had the experience of discovering The Vitamin after being hospitalized twice. It's HUMIRA I have ankylosing spondylitis. I did my first injection two weeks ago and it's like night and day. If you have persistent inflammation, "IBS" or joint pain at a young age get your ass tested!!

My deepest darkest fantasy is that I collapse on the street and I am rushed to the hospital. They perform a bunch of tests and find out I am severely deficient in some kind of vitamin. Then I start taking the vitamin and I become the happiest cleverest person alive because all my problems were caused by this one deficiency

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no! "sapphic yearning" will kill the patient

she needs hardcore lezzing out in order to live

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hey can someone explain why autoimmune flareups happen more when its rainy whats with that. why does my immune system hate air pressure changes

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the beautiful

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and then they didn't post for a year... oops. Anyway enjoy this auntie shitpost from last year

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Cannibalism as a metaphor for I Was Hungry

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A very experimental art for me, i want to try some new style. ihnmaims radio drama got me in a chokehold, and i was possessed to draw this

Also I'm giving Ted zero gyatt cus that man did not deserve it

Note :

- the binary translates as "HATEHATE" on repeat

- the pair of punchcode tapes representing AM's talkfield, are from the original short story. The left one is "I THINK, THEREFORE I AM" and the right is "COGITO ERGO SUM"

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does anyone else remember being terrorized every single commercial break by the madagascar 3 trailer on every single cartoon channel in 2011-2012

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it is november, and yesterday it felt like it was supposed to be snowing. in boston, november used a winter month, not a fall month. it is supposed to be chilly; rarely capping over 45F. it is a sweater-and-jacket month. it is a "maybe a scarf too" month. in my childhood, november meant blizzards and sleet.

it did not snow. tomorrow the weather predicts a high of 76.

i have spent so many years of my life studying the longterm possibilities of climate change - the culmination of capitalism wreaking havoc on the bodies of people, animals, plants - but every so often i am still shocked by something small and personal.

in a hundred years, when someone goes outside in boston - will they know the feeling of "snow in the air"?

i know it's a learned feeling, a sensation that maybe only longterm experience can teach. a few years ago, i was walking with my friend who had just moved up from the south. i said it smells like snow and she gave me this look like - what the fuck. i said it feels like snow too, which didn't help. she looked up to the bright blue sky and then back at me and then back at the sky. 12 hours later, we had 3 inches. you can just tell if it's going to snow.

except i can't tell, anymore. i stand outside in a tee shirt and watch my dog dance around a lake. we're in a drought and the skin of the water has peeled back twenty meters. the lake is tamed, quiet, puddlelike and sour. my pokemon go app warns there's a weather condition in my area.

my dog gets too hot from running and sits in the water and i want to laugh about his long frame and how awkwardly he sits - and i can't. some simian part of my brain is scratching the walls. it was supposed to snow. it was supposed to snow, but now it's warm instead.

during the last full solar eclipse, the dogs and the birds and the crickets went crazy under utter darkness. we laughed at them then, promising it will all be okay in a moment. but some part of me is still locked in that long night: some animal sensation.

something is wrong, my body says. i can't afford eggs or rent. i go outside to watch a sunset and listen to birdsong. i don't bring a jacket. allergies are killing me this season, allergies i didn't have as a kid. everyone comments that halloween has started to feel strange, offkilter. that it's hard having "holiday cheer." my body thinks it's april, and then it thinks we're in september, and then june.

something is terribly wrong, she whispers. go outside. it is supposed to be snowing.

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And what happened that day?

Well, with trans swag they say

The Grinch, she transitioned 3 genders that day

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Turns out we got so many Volunteers lately that our funds can't keep up!

If you aren't familiar with Crips for Esims, you can read more about the initiative on the Disability Visibility Project here. And recently, they have even gotten added to the donation page for the original eSims for Gaza movement.

I've written a little bit about my positive experience volunteering for this group here. They're all good folks who are doing the best we can. Every little bit really does directly translate into more esims sent to people in Gaza.

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Hey yall, Im a broke af two spirit parent living with my Navajo trans gf and its Native Heritage Month. So if you're able to help us pay one of our bills that would be a very good way to materially help (at least one native) this month. We just need help with the car payment, it's $290

Cashapp: $CEOofAntifa

Venmo: CEOofAntifa

Paypal: here

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this is how you know Twitter is officially cooked