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I’m home for the holidays, what am I meant to do with all this free time if not draw even more men in crop tops and tiny shorts?

pt1 - pt2 - ref from ashurgharavi on pinterest

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do you ever think about how a series of tiny choices like “I guess I’ll watch that show” can like totally and entirely change huge aspects of your life

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one of the coolest things about being a crafter is seeing an Object and going “🫵 I could make that”

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Alex Claremont-Diaz ☕️

Thank you to @kiwiana-writes for the prompt! It was my first shot at book Alex in TZPs illusive Shakespearen shirt he wore for world vogue. I loved getting to try something new!

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AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

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reminder to all 14-19 year olds girls. that grown man does not like you. you are a victim

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Girl who cares so much it makes her sick: whatever I don’t even care

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suck, and i cannot stress this enough, my cock to the fucking base

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yay water

time to drink water woo hoo yay

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Please fucking lie to your employer. Like they don’t need to know your mental health issues or what drugs you do. Ffs

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things that made me stop wanting to die that require no effort whatsoever

change the color used to highlight text on your laptop

move the pictures on your wall

stack whatever clutter is in your room into piles even if you don’t have time to clean it all

slightly vary your commute, even just by one street

change where you sit and scroll aimlessly on your phone even if it’s only to the chair in your room instead of your bed

drink water or juice out of a wine glass in the morning because nothing is real

shower with the lights off, without music

buy $3 flowers at trader joe’s—they look bad next to the more expensive ones but they look so good in your room

start typing things you don’t post into your notes. your thoughts can be worth documenting even if you don’t deem them worth sharing

wake up super early just once. you don’t have to make it a habit it’s just extra satisfying to go to bed that night

listen to the entirety of your favorite album from 2015

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bitch this is all you’re gonna get. this life, this face, this body. you better not ‘maybe in another universe’ your way out of everything. sit your ass down and face this. go make tea and have a picnic and read a goddamn book. kiss your loved ones, send that damn text, and hug your siblings. this is all you’re gonna get.

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I think that the train really was just trying to send Jane home, but the problem was, she didn't have a home, she was endlessly moving between places and never settling, so instead it just put her on an endless commute, always travelling, but to nowhere.

That's what trains are for, to take you home, to take you where you're supposed to be, but what is it supposed to do when there's nowhere for you to go?

Jane's character arc throughout the book is about deciding where, when, and who she wants her home to be. Like August says "time, place, person".

On one hand, she wants to go back to where she was before, but it's not really her home, she has connections there, attachments, but she can't really build a life there, that's why she was always on the move.

On the other hand, she wants to start a relationship with August, but she doesn't know if it's possible to really settle down with her. I mean, moving to another city is a big commitment, but another century?!? To the distant future? That's unthinkable, especially for someone you just met. And besides, she's not even sure if a relationship would last, most of her own have been short term. She also feels homesick for where she was before, she's not ready to leave it all behind.

So she's stuck between a rock and a hard place, between a place that was her home but isn't anymore, and a place that could be her home but isn't yet. When she tries to get off the train, it doesn't know where to put her. In the 70's? Now? So it just doesn't.

She talks about going back to "where she's supposed to be", but where is that exactly? Where and when is she supposed to be? She goes back and forth on this throughout the book, floating around the idea of her staying and what that would be like, but also saying she needs to go back.

She loves August, but she's also insecure about how much August loves her. She says that August will forget her by the time she's 30, and says that it's okay to move on soon after she leaves. She knows that she'll never love anyone more than August, but she doesn't know if August feels the same.

I think that in that moment on the tracks, when August risks her life in a romantic gesture to save her, that's when Jane is sure that August can be her home, and so, after a 45 year commute, the train finally sends her home, because she has one now.

And it does specifically send her there, not just release her. She's put on the platform, on a day that's important to her girlfriend, as if she were just a normal passenger travelling to see their partner.