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Lets talk about how hard it is to open up to someone about being sad for no reason. Lets talk about how hard it is to explain to your friends and family that you have this heavy feeling in your chest for no reason. Lets talk about how hard it is to understand why you’re having a panic attack while just taking a walk back home. Lets talk about how hard it is to understand your own self and how scary it is to feel like the whole world is falling on your shoulders and you have no idea why .

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1:20 AM  — it has only been a month, but college is already draining the hell out of me

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AUGUST 18 -- went to in the mix!!!!! Still can't believe that I saw and heard the 1975 and panic! at the disco live. Idk when I'll get over this. I cried when they played loving someone, fUCK MATTY CRIED ALSO HUHU. And, Brendon is so perfect huhu :((((( I died when he did his iconic backflip. BASTA ALL I CAN SAY IS THAT IT WAS A PEFEEEEECT NIGHT AND I WILL FOREVER CHERISH IT. Hope they'll come back soon!!!!

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// S O M E B O D Y E L S E //

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In case no one’s told you lately:

You’re not a burden.

It’s okay to be struggling.

It’s okay to tell people you’re struggling.

Please tell people you’re struggling.

Don’t suffer in silence. Tell someone. Get help.

It’s okay to need help.

Please get yourself help.

You’re not the exception to recovery.

The world is more beautiful because you’re in it.

You’re worth it.

You’re a good person.

Thank you for existing.

You’re beautiful.

You’re not the exception to recovery.

Please stay alive.

If you’re looking for a sign not to kill yourself, this is it.

Please, stay alive.

People love you.

I love you.

Don’t give up.

You’re not the exception to recovery.

You’re not the exception to recovery.

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The tightness in her chest, and all the worry and stress have come from thinking too much about problems that haven’t even occurred yet. The shakiness of her hands, and the movement of her eyes are both the result of regret and all the things she could have done right. The voices in her head, and the ever staring faces are all just a figment of her imagination, for she is not confident and content of herself at all. Yet, they ask her why she keeps worrying and troubling herself about things that are most likely not going to happen. But even she herself does not know.

anxiety and stuff (cdg)

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12:06 AM — i feel like shit bye

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I can dead be sobbing in front of you with a broken heart and I’ll still crack a joke

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Hinahanap ang wala; pinapabayaan ang mayroon.

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Dito. Dito ka magsimula ulit, kung saan ka naging mag-isa na lang ulit. Dito kung saan naiwan kasama ang mga luhang napawi lang. Dito kung saan mo natagpuan ang pag-ibig. Dito kung saan dapat sa kabilang dako ka na tumawid. Doon. Doon ka na lang magmukmok. Doon kung saan malalabas mo ang lahat ng iyong himutok. Doon kung saan malaya kang makakapag-isip. Doon kung saan malalabas lahat ng natatagong sakit. Dito kayo nagsimula, Dito kung saan imposibleng may “kayo” kahit sa simula. Doon ka na lang sa kabila. Doon kung saan ikaw lang at ang sarili mo ay masaya pa at may laya.

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// find me cause i’ll never find you //

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Pro tip: if someone is happy about something and wants to share it with you even though you have no interest in it, go along with it. There’s no need to put someone down about something they feel is cool. It’s just nice you know.

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1:34 AM — It is such a nice feeling to know that someone is grateful to have you in their life. You just don't care if their appreciation for you will fade away. You just cherish every moment you have with that certain person. I don't know, but I think it is one of the most rewarding feelings.

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Ilang beses ka niyang nakitang nakangiting tumatakbo palapit sa kanya. Kahit gaano kasakit, kahit nasasaktan, pinipilit pa ring makasabay siya. May pagkakataong nakasabay mo siya sa karera niya, lumingon lang siya, tiningnan ka. Lumaban ka hanggang sa huli, ‘di pa ba sapat ang lahat ng sakripisyo mo para hawakan niya mga kamay mo, upang magkasama kayong tumakbo? Nagmamahal ka, oo. Pinaglaban mo pagmamahal mo, oo. Ngunit hanggang kailan? Nasisira mo na pagkatao mo. Nawawala na pagmamahal mo sa sarili mo. Nasasaktan mo na puso mo. Bakit? Ganyan ba dapat ang nagmamahal? Nadudurog? Nasasaktan? Mag-isang nagmamahal? Ipaglalaban mo pa ba ang isang taong naiwan ka na sa karerang tinatakbo niya? Patuloy mo pa rin bang hahabulin ang taong tumatakbo palayo sayo? Kung mahal ka niya, siya mismo ang aalalay pag pagod ka na sa pagtakbo. Siya mismo ang hahawak sa kamay mo. Siya mismo ang kasama mong magpahinga pag napapagal ka na. Siya mismo ang mag-aalaga sa paa mo, at sabay magpapaltos ang mga paa niyo. Mahal mo siya kaya hinahabol mo siya. Mahal ka ba niya para isabay ka sa karera niya?