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Be the best you can be.

vintage top surgery advertisement from the copy of Transgender Tapestry that i bought my bf for the holidays… don’t tell him you saw this, it’s a surprise! so fucking cool……

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from Original Plumbing, a publication for and by transmasculine people.

What's your favorite part of being a transsexual?

"While I often wish I was born a bio boy and didn't have to go through all of this, it's more often that I find it a blessing to have lived and experienced both sides of life, sex and gender and get to play in-between. To have been a girl, a woman, a lesbian, a dyke, a tomboy, a 'questioning', a boy, and now a queer man is pretty amazing and fucking hot!"

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When I was about nine, my boobs started to grow. They grew fast, fast enough to jump to a C cup in barely a year and the next years to an F.

Needless to say, it left marks on my skin. Red, angry stretch marks, as if it was as foreign to my skin as it was to my mind. But as the stripes started dimming to the same pale colour as the rest of me, the feelings of discomfort never lost its hue.

Now when the tissue is gone -and with it the feelings- the stretch marks are still streaking my chest. A reminder, along with my scars, of what was, of what will never be.

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Trapped

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it's been just over a year since the Somerton Scandal and if there's one thing I wish we as a collective could take from it (apart from the obvious 'plagiarism is wrong') it's that failure to cite sources as a whole is anti educational. it prevents learning. it's actively used to keep people in the dark. and it's an issue that ought to be taken seriously.

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LMAOOOO

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Trans men:

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"trans guys are uniquely capable of perpetrating misogyny" everyone is uniquely capable of perpetrating misogyny dipshit it came free with your fucking living in a patriarchal society

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I am tired of people noticing the lack of historical works and theory on transmasculinity and accounts from trans men to then conclude that this is evidence of insignificance/ selfish privilege rather than what it really is which is violent systemic erasure.

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btw the biggest lie you will ever be told about being trans is that transitioning will make you ugly. that could not be further from the truth: i never got compliments on my appearance ever, but after i transitioned, began dressing like myself, wore my hair the way i wanted to, and especially started T, i have gotten more compliments than i ever have before in my life. people can tell when you look like yourself, like who you're meant to be. it's beautiful, attractive, and sexy. transition will not make you "ugly". it will make you yourself, and that's inherently beautiful

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To any trans person reading this, there's nothing transphobes are afraid of more, than you surviving.

As long as your heart beats, there's a chance you'll outlive them, so please let it keep beating.

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sometimes the gender affirming experience is just someone noticing that you are transgender and asking. at a drum and bass party with strangers, the target audience for this event is men and I am recognised not as a girl despite arriving with a group of women, but instead as something else. this is nothing less than being acknowledged as being myself. maybe this isnt passing, thry have to ask after all, but it is an explicit acknowledgement that i am becoming removed from womanhood. even if some don't get it or say I could do something different, all these potentially high men are including me in their thing

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Question for any transmasc people/trans men:

What do you do to help you “pass” pre-T? Cause I’m getting sick and tired of people misgendering me

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Kirsten Valentine, Boxers, c. 2018 

Oil on canvas, 18 x 18 in

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There's something deep within me that begs to be released, like a broken record repeating the words

I am

I am

I am

For all I am, i am. I swallow that phrase whole. I repeat it to myself when I’m locked in the bathroom, praying to whatever god they believe in to get me out of here. I repeat it to myself while they tell me that all I am is wrong. They tell me that all i am is something that is wrong. They don’t see the boy inside, the boy who just wants to love and be loved and exist. All they’re able to see is a sad, sad little girl who is ignoring everything and talking to the wrong people. They think that those people are going to make me wrong. They don’t know that I have already become the wrong that they believe, i am the wrong.

The only think left to do is repeat my prayer to myself while everyone tells me that i am wrong. I am not wrong. I am. I am. I am. I am.

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