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None of that matters, it feels like nobody would believe when it says this but I don’t care about her at all, I have no interest in the person attached to the injustice, I just have trouble letting go of unfair experiences, anything I perceive as wrong and fixable can suck me in, It’s so much more manageable now, but this is an aspect of my disability for me, and will keep happening for a while.
#x#which she hated ! also. and did not care when I’d tell her it happens sometimes and I’d appreciate her support and help.#she just kept acting like I wasn’t disabled and kept getting angry when I’d act disabled
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had the thought that I’m scared to post here because what if a girl finds me again and convinces me she’s a nurturing sadist mommy capable and willing of giving me the love and care I so desperately want and I believe her
#x#I’m not scared of this but it did cross my mind#I really thought i could finally relax. which is part of why so much trauma stuff came up for me#and she was so disgusted by this and wouldn’t listen when I’d tell her it was coming up to go#I could have healed but instead was retraumatized#and I made the small mistake of giving in to the VERY STRONG.pull of my trauma#because I thought like. that’s what’s supposed to happen. she’s supposed to catch me right#but she didn’t want to and I didn’t understand that#(and doing this meant the whole weight of my trauma was put on her instead of some of it)#she just thought I was being crazy and like. wouldn’t listen or think about what was actually happening?#just gave in to knee jerk reactions. how weak is that.#first person I trusted since I was 4 years old#at 29-30#just to be ghosted like I was nothing#because I was ‘too much’ and ‘couldn’t be reasoned with’. bitch I couldn’t reason with You. you’d ignore everything I was trying to tell you#had you listened most of not all that pressure that made you wanna leave would’ve been alleviated#just dumb..
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“But there are dark, untouched corners within all of us. Sex can be very exciting in one moment and barely tepid the next. It can feel like love but not be love. It can feel like possession and then the person walks away. You can’t possess another person. You can’t make another person not die. If nothing else, at least my vomit fetish is mine. It’s mine and it’s real.”
— Melissa Broder, So Sad Today: Personal Essays
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what's the mental disorder where you jack off until youre cumming ?
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came so hard I saw the full trajectory of the path, the peace that awaits is wondrous and beautiful
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trannies love to have black nitrile fingers in their mouths
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it’s incredible how easy it can be to train someone who desperately wants to be trained. all the effort that can be involved in conditioning and training becomes so, so much easier when the other person wants it so, so bad.
like honey, you came to me begging for me to leash you, are you really so surprised that i clicker trained you in a week? just relax and enjoy it~
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while you were busy jacking off & cumming hard. it rained outside beautifully
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It had sex with a ghost last night. Will not elaborate, was a fascinating experience.
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