wrendingway

[wrendingway]

I am writing in a Sacred Way, a Wrending Way.

The last few days have been poop. The whole summer really, on and off. Or has it been the last few years? The last decade? Hard to keep track. Maybe that’s life.

Good things happen now and then. My son runs to me and gives a kiss. My husband finds me a job opportunity at an art gallery by random chance. I make new friends with similar interests, and I deepen relationships with friends I already had.

This is the part where I remember to be grateful for what I have, I suppose.

I am grateful for my anger. I am grateful for my shame. I am grateful for my sorrow. I am grateful for my pain. I am grateful for my loss. I am grateful for my gain. I am grateful, though I don’t know why.

I feel like I am in the process of letting go, shedding my skin, or cutting something away. I don’t know what it is or how long it will take. It hurts. But it feels good.

Maybe after I will be a new person.

Summer wasn’t really so poopy. I met Josie and them. I read The Waste Land, The Old Man and the Sea, and Coyote Blue.

I challenged a few of my fears. I still grapple with others. I am human, apparently; what’s that about?

I hope one day I’ll be better about appreciating all the small things in a big way. For now, I’ll be grateful to appreciate them as they come, one at a time.

One Day, Wrend

[wrendingway]

I am writing in a Sacred Way, a Wrending Way.

I struggle to find myself (who doesn't?). I know ("know") all sorts of things about myself. I like chocolate and music and art. I believe in something (though at times it can be hard to say what). I crave stories, but often do not read books or comics. I love roleplaying, though I often struggle to keep up with online games.

I still don't know what I want to do when I grow up (who grows up?). But I can write, at least. Maybe that will help. And maybe I could create cute little doodles and put them on Pinterest and Etsy with cute little quotes. Or maybe not. Maybe that's too much pressure for the purpose of this writing. But I would still like to doodle a badger that says simply, "Badger: Gettin' shit done."

Thank you my Maker for creating badgers, Wrend

P.S. - Hey, look! A badger doodle!