TW: DEPRESSION. DISCUSSION OF SELF HARM. GENERAL ANGUISH. 🔪🩸🍧 please proceed with caution. 🍀🧠🐛 nef • 26 • infp-t • any pronouns • agender • polyamorous • acespec • eng/esp sick with sadness. feels things too hard. cries too much. existentialist vs. nihilist is the war in my head. medium tolerance for pain. i talk here when im empty and reblog things I like. sometimes i post art and poetry.
Last active 60 minutes ago
Don't wanna be here? Send us removal request.
Text


Guess who watched creep and creep 2 again !! THIS GUYYY!!!!!
2K notes
·
View notes
Text
is it so wrong to want your body to be appreciated without it being sexualized? i dont need you to want to date me i dont need by body to be datable or fuckable to be beautiful i want someone to love my body but im sososososo afraid they will only look at it with lust idk if its a caedosexual thing but like i just want my body to be appreciated man :(
5 notes
·
View notes
Text
i think nobody will understand how truly sad i feel unless i take my life to prove it.
#reposting simply because I feel the exact same way. you both are understood. I am so sorry.#while I never urge or support the idea that one should take their own life I also completely understand and relate to this feeling and#it's one of the worst things I've ever felt#I wouldn't wish it on anyone#sending you both love and healing#and ultimately peace#holding your hands from afar 🫂
680 notes
·
View notes
Text

9 notes
·
View notes
Text

triple threat
2K notes
·
View notes
Text
I don't know why I feel so empty. I feel so hollow. I want to feel good. I want to feel good. Did I ever feel good?
I wish I could cvt but I can't right now.
#tw depression#neffy vent#sh#tw cvt#tw self destruction#neffy cries#tw self h4rm#self mutilator#self mutalition#self destruction
3 notes
·
View notes
Text




🌺 エゴシステム 2001年 5月号 vol.11 🌺 EGO System May 2001 vol.11
53 notes
·
View notes
Text
carrie
3K notes
·
View notes
Text
He cleared up what he meant... I was upfront that I wanted an explanation because it made me really sad and he seemed to be surprised. He said he thinks I overthink things about myself and it makes me self conscious, that I'm too self aware. I guess I could see that at times ;; I'm glad he explained it .. we're on better terms now.
My crush said he thinks “I think about myself too much” and I said “you make me sound like a narcissist” and he didn’t reply and I said “you didn’t correct me” and he said “Jesus Christ” and now I’m sitting here quietly trying not to cry feeling like a pussy lmao
I’m 26 and he’s 21 btw so things are going great for me where I’m feeling extremely immature and pathetic
13 notes
·
View notes
Text

My partner made me a laminated sign with a turkey vulture on it 🖤 one of my favorite birds and a phrase he knows I like. He’s the best 🪶
Me to him 🤗
#you're so right#everyone deserves a good partner or friend or loved one in their life#remembering your loved one's favorite things is such an act of kindness#thank you#!!!!!!!!!
606 notes
·
View notes
Text
So update... We had plans originally to hang out Saturday and I messaged him to ask if he still wanted to and let him know something we would have to do in order to do so (revolving around somebody else) and he sent me a ":3333"
So yeah I don't think he has a single clue how much he upset me 🤦🏼
My crush said he thinks “I think about myself too much” and I said “you make me sound like a narcissist” and he didn’t reply and I said “you didn’t correct me” and he said “Jesus Christ” and now I’m sitting here quietly trying not to cry feeling like a pussy lmao
I’m 26 and he’s 21 btw so things are going great for me where I’m feeling extremely immature and pathetic
13 notes
·
View notes
Text

My partner made me a laminated sign with a turkey vulture on it 🖤 one of my favorite birds and a phrase he knows I like. He’s the best 🪶
Me to him 🤗
606 notes
·
View notes
Text
Lied in the tags I know exactly why I like him, still hurts when he's being a jerk, I just wish I could control my feelings. Sometimes I swear he knows and he's doing it on purpose. Or maybe I'm delusional.
My crush said he thinks “I think about myself too much” and I said “you make me sound like a narcissist” and he didn’t reply and I said “you didn’t correct me” and he said “Jesus Christ” and now I’m sitting here quietly trying not to cry feeling like a pussy lmao
I’m 26 and he’s 21 btw so things are going great for me where I’m feeling extremely immature and pathetic
#loser behavior#neffy vent#tw depression#neffy cries#tw depressing thoughts#tw self destruction#still stupid#I hate myself#what's wrong with me#maybe if he rejects me I can get over it
13 notes
·
View notes
Text
(about to jerk you off) wait which way was it again righty tighty or lefty loosey ✋😅🤚 oh well! (twists so hard it rips your peanis clean off)
7K notes
·
View notes
Text
what? oh sweetheart no, you're not weirding me out at all. you're weirding me in. keep talking, freak
84K notes
·
View notes
Text
I made it to two and then my feelings got hurt

Nobody warns you how fucking itchy you'll be when cvts heal ;-; my fucking thighs bro they itch so bad
I relapsed today after 5 days clean.... Gonna try to make it at least 6 next time.....
#tw depression#tw cvt#cvtting#tw cvtting#Ouchies#itchy#cvt cvt cvt#self mutalition#self mutilator#self mut1lation#thigh cvtter
8 notes
·
View notes