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going through a breakup so now is the perfect time to get myself back where I need to be, what a waste of 3 years :(

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the thing that fucking sucks about not eating is that I’m in like a bad fucking mood. It’s hard to be pleasant :(

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nice to be back and also the feeling when you’re just on your phone while someone is brubbin niceeeeee

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I don’t know I mean I know it’s rlly bad whenever I feel like even my thinspo isn’t skinny enough u know or like ppl who are considered super skinny just don’t do it or I find a problem with them which I know is bad but like idk can’t help it

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also best friend had sex with my ex so I’m great? I mean it’s weird because he’s been in our lives for like 4 years as my bf or ex bf and she just did that lmao

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haven’t been losing but I’ve been saying im vegetarian so I have an excuse and loving wearing bracelets recently makes me wrists feel smaller

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thinking of breaking up with the new bf. this will be the second time I’ve broken up with someone in the span of like 7 months. I know it’s shitty. but new bf is kind of a bad bf. I think he’s just a flawed person and it’s probably not his fault but like I’m also flawed and don’t rlly think I’m strong enough to deal with it all. he’s also kind of mean to me when he’s drunk and I wonder why I let people treat me that way.

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there is so much to catch u guys up on!!! basically I have a new bf and I rlly like him he’s so cute but of course… he’s a huge foodie!! my guy loves to eat and try new foods and he wants to be a chef. so you know it’s kind of hard for me because obviously I struggle with foods and shit and he likes to cook. and it gives me so much anxiety, but I will say there was one nice day, where it felt like I could recover and I could do it. i usually never finish my food when we go out but I always take it to go. but this one day I actually finished the burrito!!! and it was huge!! and it was rlly hard to like push those thoughts away but I did it!! but u know that didn’t last long :/

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sucks when ur around ur bf because u wanna be around him but mf always wants to eat something and I’m like bro I’m TRYINA TO STARVVE bitch

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maybe a dumb question but… like I should we count liquid calories?? Idk I mean I get it but also I’m like will I not just pee it out?? Hmmm maybe that’s stupid now that I’m thinking about it lol.

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felling anxious on thanksgiving omg. And I know my mom knows I’ve been getting skinny but I think she thinks it’s cause I’m depressed not because I actually have ed issues. I rlly don’t wanna eat all this shi and I know it’s bad but my mom noticing I’m getting skinny only motivates me

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I feel like maybe I know this is bad but like I have a really skinny friend and my bf was like “she’s like rlly skinny like I’m concerned for her” and yeah I’m concerned too but also a part me wants that for myself I just want to be so skinny to the point where ppl are worried for me. I know that’s like bad but I want it. Is that like normal ed thoughts? Anyway in the middle of my 20 hour fast and it finishes tomorrow at noon but I’ll probably go past that because I don’t even eat at school anyway :)

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got high and binged again I mean at least it was low cal snackies but also ate dinner with the bf I just ate way too much today feeling super guilty gonna fast all day tomorrow and try not to eat until after work and it’ll be something low cal.

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Oml my principal just went up to me and asked me why I wasn’t eating lunch and I said I don’t like the school lunch and that I usually eat at home and he said “okay just don’t do the anorexia” and I was literally looking at thinspo while talking to him

I don’t know you shouldnt “do the anorexia.”

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Tw: ed

I think my biggest like weakness I guess is that I get fucking high and I get the munchies so bad and I’ll eat anything :/ so I think I gotta get more low cal snacks for my munchies. Anyone know any good low cal snacks but like ones that done completely taste like shit???

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tw: ed

had at least 3 members of my fam say I lost weight this shit is so motivating for me. I haven’t even lost that much like maybe 4 lbs, but damn that feels good. I gotta get under 150 I think im about 152 right now. No scales around so I don’t know for sure. Going to a family event and im gonna try my hardest to eat the smallest amount of food that I can without everyone being up my ass.

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My friend and my boyfriend like text well like she’s the one who text him and usually it’s like about simple stuff but I’m like why are u texting my boyfriend even if ur my bff I feel like that’s weird? Do you guys also think it’s weird idk? And like I’ve already had to discuss something she did and she’s like “omg now I feel awkward like I don’t even wanna be around him just so u know I don’t have any intentions” or something like that but like bitch… ur still texting him u obviously don’t feel that awkward