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November 23 - Room | @into-the-jeggyverse | wc: 456 CW: vague implications of a panic attack

The room is dark. James doesn’t like the dark.

“Mum!” James cried as a little boy, not knowing that she was right there, fighting with a stupid flashlight that just wouldn’t turn on.

Effie finally manages to wind the only flashlight that she managed to grab at the time, “I’m right here, baby. I’m right here.” 

“T- the monsters.” The little James whispers. 

“I know, baby.” The woman hums, pulling her child to her arms, “I know. I won’t let them get you.” 

James has always had light. They’ve always had a window that the light can stream through, or a flashlight on hand if they’re in the dark. But they don’t know. 

And they can feel the monsters creeping. Black, long fingers clawing at their skin, cold and unrelenting and dark. Dark like the room. Where’s the fucking light?

They can feel the monsters sliding over their chest and around their stomach and squeezing, pulling at their hair -- or maybe that’s them, they’re not sure. Did they curl up?

They also curl up, to protect themself from the strength of what’s in the dark. They can’t fucking breathe, which is good because maybe if they can’t be conscious in the dark, then the monsters will go away. Or maybe they won’t hear James breathing and they’ll leave them alone. But they also know that they should breathe, they know that their mum will be mad if they don’t.

Where is she? James can’t see her, they can’t feel her. 

They can find a fucking flashlight. They can’t even hear the whirring of the wind-up flashlight that Effie always had with her during a blackout when she was there for them, so they could hear her even if they couldn’t see her. 

James thinks that they cry out, but they’re not sure. They can’t hear their own voice over their heartbeat that’s pumping harshly in their ears or the scraping of the monsters against the wood. The harsh whispers in their ears as the monsters claw and pull at their skin and their clothes. The whispers turn to screams in their ear, a whirling storm of black and harsh words and anger. 

A light. A small ball of bright light from the end of a wand. And James can see, they can see as Regulus hunches down to their level. They can feel the monsters slowly slipping away from them, the cold of their inky fingers sliding away from their shoulders and letting them relax. 

“Reg.” They stutter out. 

“I know,” Regulus hums, reaching out to his partner and pulling them into his arms, “It’s all in your head, I won’t let it get to you.” James nods, leaning into the light and leaning into Regulus.

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Regulus Black crying because no one loves him

First post - because everyone keeps stealing this for some reason.

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Happy Birthday!

Thank you dear anonymous ♡

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Hey darling

HAPPY FCKING BIRTHDAY

<3

Dorcas!!! THANK YOU SO MUCH 🥹🤍

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Send me ask for my birthday!! Or send me ask as Marauders 🥲

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we don't know each other but happy birthday! i saw your post asking for asks so here i am!

what is your favorite type of cake?

was there a moment you've ever felt genuinely happy this year/have a good memory you like to think about?

is there a movie you discovered recently that you really liked?

i hope you have a good birthday day!

-a stranger, v.

Oh thank you stranger. Good and kind people exist in this universe.

What’s my favorite cake… I don’t really know, it’s been a long time since I’ve had a birthday cake. I don’t really like things that are too sweet so I would rather say something with red fruits on top ( aspberries, blueberries and that kind of thing.)

Well it wasn’t really this year, it was rather at the same time last year. Right after my birthday, at the beginning of December 2023, I went to London I was really very happy. I think it’s one of my favourite cities and I had the chance to see the Harry Potter studio I had wanted to go there for decades, it was a dream come true, I don’t have other moments that marked me this year 2024. I spent my time looking for a job.

I recently watched Barry Lyndon. I must say that it is one of the most beautiful films I have seen, it is not my favourite, but it is really in my eyes real cinema the music the sets, the acting, the cinematography the colours everything is like a work of art, and it is that cinema is in itself. It’s a shame not to see movies like this anymore these days.

Thank you so much again 🥹

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Ummmm

So

Happy birthday, ig

Panda said it was your birthday and that I was supposed to talk to you

Me and B are gonna go smoke behind the greenhouse later if you wanna come

-Evan R.

Thank you to you and Pada!

I don’t really smoke but I can’t refuse some company today! Thanks Evan!! I’ll gladly come!

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Send me ask for my birthday!! Or send me ask as Marauders 🥲

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Chapter 42: Christmas 1974 Acme of Darkness

Christmas already there!! Regulus seems to be a bit thoughtful and angry, but why? Lorelei tries to enjoy Christmas.

Monday, December 23, 1974

The weather was gloomy and humid when Lorelei had arrived the day before, she discovered that her parents hadn't even begun decorating the mansion. The fir tree that usually sat near the marble stairs decorated with sumptuous balls, ribbons and garlands of light was not there, nor was the edge of the fireplace decorated with mistletoe with blue ribbons. The house seemed very cold and empty, her parents were not even there to welcome her, there was only Perry, the house elf, who accompanied her to her room to unpack her things.

"Perry, where are my parents?" she asked in a tone that betrayed her sorrow.

''Miss, they are very busy...'' he replied, saddened to see the girl like this, ''Can Perry make you a hot chocolate or something else?''

''I'm not very hungry but thank you...''

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Idk why I don’t have friends I’m super sweet and cool

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Again a year where I spend my birthday without any real friends. I don’t give a f about your fcking message saying happy birthday, good day, good year blah blah blah. I just want to spend time with someone who liked me…

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Chapter 41: Fourth year: December - Acme of Darkness

Wednesday, December 4, 1974 As they had promised, the Slytherins won their match on Sunday against Hufflepuff. Everyone learned that McGonagall gave three weeks of detention to the Marauders, who were the culprits of this change of hours. 

While November quietly gave way to December and the corridors froze with a particularly voracious air, classes continued at Hogwarts. Since the beginning of the week, Lorelei had noticed that the girls had only one word on their lips: "Sirius Black". She who wanted to forget him and his bet, which he had made to Lorelei, she does not stink of it. It was especially annoying to hear her name all day long in whispers or in the girls' bathrooms. This stupid snogging competition had driven all the girls crazy, they were just waiting for Sirius to kiss them. 

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At the moment I am working on the part of Regulus’ mission that will bring him into the ranks of the Death Eaters. I’m quite mixed with my ideas I don’t think it’s good.

I don’t want to kill someone directly in his first mission because I think it wouldn’t make sense.

For example, Peter enters the Death Eaters because he gives the information of the location of the Potters.

But regulus won’t do something like that because I don’t think it’s something regular would do. I leave the search for information to Lorelei for later.

Well

What I’m doing is that I’m going to make him go on a mission with Evan and Barty they’ll be all three for that. But I must say that for the rest it is still unclear... I have the impression that it is never enough

In your opinion, what is the mission that Regulus has accomplished to enter the Death Eaters?

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Christmas 1974, when James and Sirius kissed Muggle girls in a movie theatre. And that Remus told James, I thought you loved Lily. But what happens in his mind??? I still don’t understand...

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Tomorrow is my birthday and I feel like… I just want to spend the day with regulus… and/or the marauders. Don’t ask much…

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Chapter 41: Fourth year: December - Acme of Darkness

Wednesday, December 4, 1974 As they had promised, the Slytherins won their match on Sunday against Hufflepuff. Everyone learned that McGonagall gave three weeks of detention to the Marauders, who were the culprits of this change of hours. 

While November quietly gave way to December and the corridors froze with a particularly voracious air, classes continued at Hogwarts. Since the beginning of the week, Lorelei had noticed that the girls had only one word on their lips: "Sirius Black". She who wanted to forget him and his bet, which he had made to Lorelei, she does not stink of it. It was especially annoying to hear her name all day long in whispers or in the girls' bathrooms. This stupid snogging competition had driven all the girls crazy, they were just waiting for Sirius to kiss them.